my best friend is a man, with a labcoat entering, i hold my shaking hand, and he gives me medicine, i hope this makes me feel at home, but they slowly steal my soul, i tell him i still feel alone, "dont worry someday i promise you will feel" Still Searching, by Senses Fail
Courtney Risher
28 / Female / Scottdale, Pennsylvania, United States
Straight / Single & Looking
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Dec 17, 2012
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About Me
I'm 16 and most would say I'm the most stubborn person they've ever met, I have trust issues but once you get past that you'll see that I'm a good person. I'm sarcastic and blunt and probably say things at the completely wrong time, I'm always there for anyone that needs me.
Favourite Music
Bless the Fall, Rise Against, Thousand Foot Krutch, Korn, Bullet for my Valentine, Evans Blue, Five Finger Death Punch, Disturbed, Staind, Asking Alexandria, Alesana, Incubus, Godsmack, Halestorm, Our Lady of Peace, Breaking Benjamin, Black Veil Brides, Veer Union, 3 Doors Down, Foo Fighters, Goo Goo Dolls, All Time Low, Anberlin, Avenged Sevenfold, Sevendust, The Devil Wears Prada, Escape the Fate, Framing Hanley, Hoobastank, The Letter Black, Nivana, System of a Down, Seether, Papa Roach, Puddle of Mudd, Rev Theory, Theory of a Deadman, Saving Abel, Three Days Grace, Stone Sour, Falling in Reverse.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Degrassi, Being Human, Supernatural, One Tree Hill, Step Up 2, The Secret Life of an American Teenager, Hostel, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Grimm, Vampire Diaries, Tru Blood.
You claim I haven't been there for you these past couple days. I'm sorry if I have medical issues and sleep a lot. But don't even tell me about not being there. You weren't there for me for months when you left for the military. I was left to deal witb things on my own and now you come back and want me to automatically jump and be there? After you abandoned me. You knew what I was going through, you knew you were the only one I cold confide in and you left anyway. I was left alone with my thoughts and my fears. Now you wanna be an asshole and say I'm not there for you, but in reality you weren't there for me, you're supposed to be my best friend, but you sure as hell aren't acting like it. You've changed, you are not the same person you were when you left and I don't think I can accept that.
Life can really have a funny way of biting you in the ass, you could be the best person in the world, but somehow it just never seems to be enough. You sacrifice everything for your friends and family, but somehow they don't notice, they just expect you to do those things, sometimes they even bitch because you did something wrong when you were only trying to help. You try to smile and pull through the put downs, but it never gets any easier,and the question is will it ever get easier? Or are we so unlucky that the life we live is to be our own personal hell? Is there any way to fix it when no one will listen?
