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I embody everything that you hate Take these lies and shove them down your throat you fucking disgrace I've had enough of the bullshit And everything that you say It makes no difference to me You'll be dead by morning anyway Blood For Blood, by AngelMaker

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Ruben Grace
19 / Male / North Carolina, United States
Straight / Single & Looking
Member since: May 26, 2021
Last online: Jun 12, 2021

Current rating: 10.0/10 (1 votes cast)

About Me

Greetings. There can perhaps be an infinite list describing me, it would literally take eternity but I would be more than happy to tell a lot about myself of whatever I can remember. I come from an interesting spiritual background. I decided to take on this vast website though it seems mostly inactive than discord but discord is a place full of people who wouldn't give a rats end what and who you are therefore this place looks friendly and a place where people actually have emotions, something I'm looking for. I'm 19 years old, my occupation content creating, I don't believe in favoritism so if you ask me a favorite song or color and I'd say I don't have favorites but I don't mind giving away what interest me. I love to livestream on YouTube, play every videogame that comes to mind especially if its FPS, 3D-Platformers, Adventure, Survival and infinite more. I'm always productive and working but I always have time everyday to hang out with those around me such as friends. I'll try to be active on here most of the time, but I'm mostly also active on Discord (ExpertWeeb#7394) and Steam (Friend Code:344142657). My personality is undefined but if anything, I'm always going to be a sweet and courteous person who has an ambition for the best for everyone as well as beyond best. I'm a huge Geek when it comes to stuff, there is never a day I go without talking about subjects that not only interest me but also others. I personally don't like ratings so if you go by the rating of this profile, you're not seeing me at face value so I suggest if you feel as if we can click, please don't hesitate to contact me via here, or my other social platforms :). I'm not here to be charming or sink anyone's boat, I genuinely just want to meet some down to earth people and have some shits and giggles, also I am looking for a partner of innocence that is very emotional, likes spiritual stuff, and shares a lot of common interest. I'll list all of the videogames and Animes down in the "Favorite Films / TV / Books, you are always welcome to join me! I have been through some tough stuff in my life, I'm am surely damaged, but I always had wisdom from my downs, I learnt so much from them, I said no to bad decisions, to suicidal thoughts, and converted my negative energy into countless miles of biking, so far on personal record, I have done 26 miles in one day, not to flex, but to show what that conversion of energy can do. I hate seeing others suffer, it breaks me down to the bone, and I will being using the journal feature on here to give good words of enlightenment and I truly hope that they find you all well! I'm a country going person, I may not have a southern accident or being your stereotypical redneck living in a trailer park, but I truly enjoy nature, if anywhere is my home its nature, I have always fantasized taking that special someone through a majestic forest under a illuminated moon. I do enjoy biking, and physical training, I have been in the Boy Scouts before and thankfully I'm an Eagle Scout, I hope to become wealthy so I can invest in eco friendly projects, give to charity and make big things happen for such a big and bad world. I love music, dancing, art, books, movies, animes, information technology and so much more! I'm 5'8, I weigh around 150 pounds, I have brown hair and brown eyes, My race/ethnicity is Puerto Rican half, and the other half Scots-Irish. I have connections to one of the most powerful families in the world known as the Fitzgeralds. I am not Emo, but I'm very very emotional and damaged, but the subculture has been one I've been truly obsessed with. I hope one day to work on projects such as Virtual Reality, An efficient breeding system with enhanced biology and transhumanism. I also hope I can get involved into space exploration. My religion is Christian but I don't interpret the Bible, I have my own branch of the religion. I respect and recognize all other beliefs, I am also a prophet and founder of my own enlightenment group known as the WickedTears and so far we have 6 members. I'm inspired by people such as Nikola Tesla, Albert Pike, Chris Langand, Christian Fredrikson, and so much more. 

Favourite Music

Slipknot, Nirvana, Trippie Redd, Lil Peep, OSTs from Animes and Videogames, Tears For Fears, Earth Wind & Fire, Culture Club, Prince, KMFDM, Gorillaz, George Benson, Scatman, MF Doom, Elton John, Fleetwood Mac, The GAP Band, Phil Collins, Bob Seger, David Bowie, Michael Jackson, Coldplay, Apathy Demigodz (I'll Update This Once I Gather All My Playlists Together)

Favourite Films / TV / Books

Date A Live, Spirited Away, A Whisker Away, Breaking Bad, MaximilianMus, Pewdiepie, Battle Royale, Your Name, A Silence Voice, Code Geass, The Future Diary, Anamatrix, The Matrix, Sonic (franchise), Courage The Cowardly Dog, Johny Test, Spongebob SquarePants, Jimmy Neurton, The Regular Show, Close Enough, Adventure Time, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Drake & Josh, ICarly, Hang em High, Gran Tarismo, Full Metal Jacket, Anything With Tom Hanks And Clint Eastwood, Overlord, Hacksaw Ridge, Dunkirk, Greyhound, The Mist, Friday The 13th. VideoGames:  Golden Eye 007 Franchise, All Zelda Games, All Mario Games, Battlefield 3 & 4, Minecraft, Rainbow Six Siege, Team Fortress 2, Rocket League, Sven Co-op, VRChat, Call Of Duty: Black Ops 1 & 2, MW2, Modern Warfare 2019, Among Us, JackBoxTV, Deus Ex franchise, Battletanx franchise, Midnight Club 2, Grand Theft Auto Games, Dead By Daylight, Garry's Mod, Half-Life 1 & 2, Left 4 Dead 1 & 2. (Will Be Updated)

Education / Occupation

I'm My Own Education But I Do Lust For Knowing Everything

The subjects that come to mind though that interest me are Information Technology, Non-Biased Sociology, Astronomy, Chemistry, Physics, Satanism, Freemasonry, Transhumanism, Biology, Pathology, Art & Design, Business & Economics, Civics, Aviation, Any Existent Languages, Food Studies, Mathematics, Geology, Writing/Literature, History, Law, Mythology, Photography. 

Who I'd Like To Meet

If I'm going to be honest, hopefully new brothers and sisters, also a crazy yandere since I sense soulmate through the gothic culture as well. If not, I would still like to have a female yandere partner that can emotionally nurture and nourish me, someone who can suffer with me, someone who gets me, someone who I feel as if they are my childhood friend, that likes dark humor, and being extremely weird, also has the will to explore the prophecy of the third eye. With having to put up with bullshit, they are their to always tuck me into bed and give me confidence that everything is going to be okay. I don't have any sexual aggression, I just want someone to cry and hold, someone that I can connect my soul with. I know, I may sound like a simp up in here, but I'm not like that, I genuinely could use some spiritual spice in my life. But I must warn, if you are going to leech, I will lose my shit and go crazy mode. I have a wide range of mental illness so I suggest those who desire weakening me even more to back off. I also have a bunch of friends that are loyal to me who are willing to do anything to cause those living hell if they mess with me. Other than that, I'm sweet and innocent if you are the same :).

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Jun 05 2021, 06:56 AM

Here I Stand, on a hill, yesterday, I was rescued by whom I believed was the savior of my very soul. Dance in the autumn, sprinkle the air with light. It was a dream that I have sacrificed for, put forth for, instead what stands in my way is the whore. Every dawn there was a diamond that I thought was the gem of it all, instead it was fools gold, nothing but pain and anxiety. Today I stand on the hill drawn to what has killed me. The knife in my hand is so tight, the anger rages in my blood. What crawls and weeps in front of me is someone who stole what I had left in my bones. There it is, begging that I don't drive the blade right into its pathetic heart, the only thing I sense from it is coldness. You plagued me for 3 years, isn't that funny? You thought you could sit there and play me like a fiddle. You sending these messages to me just to fuck with me even more. You made me think you were the light of it all, instead you are nothing but a pathetic worm. That's right, look me in my eyes and release your fate. Sammy. That place you were in, I felt it, but I regret even feeling what you felt because you are everything I'm not, you are just like shadow taken, you reeled me in all for nothing but to gain. Look at this world you created for me to be on, look around you. The sky is falling, everything you setup is now being destroyed, and you have a front role seat to watch. A blood trail is what is left behind you crawling away from me. The time is now, the apologies are nothing to me don't even try to seek for forgiveness, I then swing the blade right at your heart, your weak hand catch mine, but my strength overpowers yours, and not even your adrenaline is enough, the blade sinks right into your heart, pain shuttered you all over as your consciousness begins to decay. Here it lays, dead, something that wanted me to suffer, for your enjoyment, but that is not an existent thing, the only thing that exist is the corpse of the monster. Then as I sit by the forest, I lay down and cry on my side, even though we have one, I still feel the pain of what it has done to me, damaged, unmotivated, but soon, one day, light will flood my dark world, and then it will be time to travel beyond my current region.

Jun 04 2021, 07:27 AM

Medieval runs in my blood. Some worlds I sense, are of medieval creation. The majestic forest is a proper example. This is something I see when I imagine forest, I imagine forest of many different characteristics, but I do come across majestic ones. The huge mushrooms, fireflies bigger than the ones present on this planet, aqua crystal blue water, so clean, its safe to drink, trees so vibrant with their green bodies. Maybe, I may come across an ancient temple made by ancient aliens. Vines that grow in many places and swing side to side by the wind. Caves so huge, you could fit 10 ships in one. Waterfalls taller than the tallest skyscrapers, flowers that have a natural lantern during the night time that illuminate the darkness and show the beauty of the forest. Perhaps, naked fairies who giggle, who hide, and mess with you by making noises behind the bushes as you walk through. Its a place of harmony and tranquility, a place to rest, clear your head, but maybe one day a place to live where everything is easy going, there is nothing to worry about and you have a sun and moon over your head all of the time. This is beyond the definition of fantasy, its pure, gems light up the caves as you shine light on them, spirits walk the lands and watch over protecting you from evil forces, dragons who are so distant every time you see them but if you walk up to one, they are so friendly and willing to give you a ride of your life. There is not money, politics, division, its every little thing calming and relaxing the environment. Mermaids and dolphins also swim around you making sure you are safe as well. The ocean is virgin, not yet explored, it calls my name, the ocean is like a women to me, not a symbol of fertility though it may have the ability, but a soul whos moans calms mine, soothens me when preyed upon by anxiety, but its not a women but a women who is more than one, an angel who cries upon me, dances in the flowers, and teases me giggling and smiling. Its so innocent and cute. That's a forest elders ambition is to experience such love. Love so powerful a normal humans heart would fail to beat properly, the chills so intense, the nerves in your body get fried, but through enlightened and innocence, one is bound to reach the elevated level to experience such love without negative side effects. A place I would call home, a place I would choose to die... with my little angel next to me, between the flowers, under the sun, feelings the wind... you... come close to me as you say the same... its okay, I will suffer with you, our stairway up is soon to end, while the gate to the afterlife will birth the new beginning. We are angelic...

Jun 03 2021, 04:38 AM
Flying among the blue, there has not been anything going against the glide, it was something I have wanted for a very long time, to sore and feel what's its like to be free. My days have been nothing but dark. The light is what still stays with me. No longer am I grounded by my weakness, I have prevailed, risen up to be high in the skies. Before, I was the walking ghost, around me was the shadows. Nothing to give me the motivation to keep walking. I was beaten by evil, pushed to the ground, humiliated by the demons. Everyday I wake up, its nothing but pain, tiredness, and always the fear of something bad to happen to me. Locked away deep down in the caves I was, chained to the wall, the demons made sure I couldn't escape, they wanted me to suffer. It was cold, the condition was brutal, every time I had a bit of energy, I could feel the chains always holding me back. What is it that I'm fighting, what purpose is it for me to escape. My feet have blisters from them forcing me to walk on fire. The cuts of x's all over my stomach, they bled me and whipped me while laughing, my wings were clipped and also many cuts and scars, but they didn't rip them off. The demon would try to play with my head, saying how my life has no meaning, always pointing its blades towards me. One day though, it was time to be free. The demon was distracted from reading a book of rituals. I then with all of my might and energy, I thrusted my arms forward in the opposite direction of the wall holding me back, the chains snapped like bones, by wings fluttered up instantly and I was off like a jet. The demon was so into his book, his reaction to catch me was too slow but still followed in pursuit. Through the tunnels I flew, all demons were stirred up, and behind was a swarm of them trying to bring me down and sink me into hell. Navigating the caves was like a maze, I had to dodge demons ahead of me, but then there it was the light, the exit, I went faster until I was out, but those demons didn't give up, they wanted me to be under arrest by their power and greed. But after 2 minutes they gave up, they only feel farther behind as I flew and finally, a fallen angel was no longer fallen, instead I was miles up in the skies, in the night, the wind flew through me, I flew more, the clouds hugged me, the stars shined and twinkled upon me, I was finally free. But what is this world under me? There is nothing but darkness below, no light, just more and more demons, they see me, they want to capture me. Millions screamed, I heard them, they were thirsty to make sure I was grounded, then before I knew it, hundreds of huge clouds elevated toward my level, millions were chasing me, I wasn't free yet, I then ascended with my wings, higher to space, They risen faster and faster, closer behind me they were, faith is what I have, I can break through! Damn you demons to hell! I pushed harder to fly up more, Just straight up into space, don't look back, then as I approached the border of the worlds atmosphere, they were yards away about to grab my legs and pull me down so they can feast on me. Then one hand almost grabbed my foot, and as that happened, I passed through the border, then behind were demons blocked by it, all of them screaming harder, trying to scare me and fill me with infinite anxiety. But then, I realized, there was no way out of this, the gravital pull of the sun orbited be around to the other side of the planet, the sun was so huge, the gravital pull force was stronger than the planet I just escaped, it pulled me around the planet and into the suns direct path, there I was, about to be sucked into the suns fire, then it was quick, the rays it blasted toward my direction disintegrated me and I was no more. Then I wake up, I'm surrounded by green grass, the world is not dark, the sky is blue, then here I am, in the skies, flying in this world I have just waked up in. Is this a dream? A test? Well, the night is approaching, I hear the screams of more demons from under the planet, this time, I will make it out of the endless trap...
Jun 03 2021, 03:13 AM

Red, Yellow, Brown, Orange. Down below, there it is. The blanket of autumn. Summer days have withered away, progression is now and bound. Dark winter dances ahead, the dark night, clouds of coverage. Majestic the moon illuminates. I drag across leaves knee high in a dark forest. My hair reaching my shoulders. Eyes drawn to a dark void. Around me are trees of colors. Where have I approached, what objective is there to seek? Confusion, haze, sickness of the drama. Lost I am, not knowing what tree to use to navigate, no path is revealed, just under the trees while fall time has awaken, the cold sinks in the forest. Coldness around me, but I still progress. The I reach a part of the forest that has an opening surrounded by trees. There stood a flower in the middle. Purple it is, a species strong enough to withstand fall weather. The rays of the warmth coming from the light makes a spotlight around it. I slowly approach it as the leaves are no loner knee high but what is before me is a low height patch of grass. I then go to my knees, then knees and hands, then I lay next to that pink flower. I then gently touch a pedal, then a leaf, then I just lay there next to it as I stare into its beauty. "where will you go?" its spirit says in my head "nowhere but here", this is where I rest, there is no purpose forth, this is my death bed, what must I seek in the direction I have approached" "bring me with you, my body is a temple holding my spirit, you have come here by my possession of your mind", "step by step, i felt your feet on my body, I am the forest as well, I knew you would no longer become lost, I myself have been lost, but look at what has happened" I reach in my pocket to grab a small clay pot with moist molch. "will it hurt if I pull you from the ground" "not at all, this is my release if you do so, both of us have been trapped, you felt my warmth inside your head, I came to you and you didn't know it, then you marched for me" I then grab the bottom of the flower and pick it up, gently putting it in my small flower pot. "Now, where ever you set forth, I am with thy master." I then hold it as I begin to continue forth in the direction I seek. Where will it lead, what are the obstacles, is this a quest for validation? a adventure needed to be taken because it has not been discovered yet, yet by me myself? I must not halt for a question, but push. "darkness is behind brothern, it consumes this world, there is a portal you must enter that is 1 million miles away, as long as you keep traveling by foot gently, it shall never catch up to you, with my guidance, you will be free, but the distance will take 100 years, but keep going, I believe in you" The darkness the flower is referring to is my depression, that consumes my world, I am in this world right now, every day and night, I'm always running away from it, to soon escape it. In this world, the darkness is always following behind, but its too far to even see that I'm ahead, and I will only get further and further away from it, but as long as I keep walking through these forest, mountains, and obstacles, it will never catch up, 100 years ahead, 1 million miles to walk, this is a tale, of the strength of what I have been blessed with. I then reach the end of the forest, before me are mountains, I look for 10 seconds then keep walking. Ahead is the next and new chapter. 

Jun 02 2021, 08:33 AM

These worlds, so vibrant, bright, oh the frequencies, they tease me. I clinch my pillow in the dark as the night is quiet. I imagine more about these worlds. The crystal blue, the clearness of the water, the sand is so white, colorful fish swim around my feat, as starfish march under the water. The sky is so blue, the clouds so white, the pawn trees so healthy and green. Its better than an anime world, its behind my human brain what that world is like, I can only put together what I'm able to say about those worlds. I clinch my pillow harder, sobbing hard, crying, tears drop all over it. Then I continue to imagine more... I float on my back on the calm ocean hearing the seagulls, seeing that sun shine, seeing the diamonds on the water around, the breeze is so smooth and soothening, a place I would love to live in forever, this world I sense could be in a solar system in any galaxies around us, its an island world full of thousands and thousands of islands, its 20 times bigger than earth, the sun is so yellow and is 100x bigger than ours. There are two moons that revolve around it, one is pink, the other orange. There are no hurricanes, the storms thunder but no lightening. The feeling of the wind gently on my skin, those rays warming me, the water so refreshing to bath in, and yes I'm naked don't judge me okay. I keep crying, I can't stop, this world is teasing me, I need to live there, its calling my name, this planet amazes me but this one is untouched like a womens body, so virgin, so pure, needing to be claimed. The universe knows I will take care of it, I will make it my home. The sunsets and clouds that tower vertically, infinite with beauty, there is no such thing as loneliness, sadness, depression there, all it is is colors, brightness, joy, happiness, laughs and smiles. Flowers dance around me, the showers on the ocean are so calm and amazing. At night, all you hear is the ocean waves, the stars are amazing too, the atmosphere is designed so the stars are actually in all different colors. I want to die there, I need to die there... I need to be there, I know its out there, I know it exist, I know its safe. I remember I had a vision while sleeping of a sunset on the mountains of one of the islands. I sat back on a comfy chair and Just relaxed. Under me ahead is the ocean, then the gradient sky over head. The emotions I felt were like no other, but I was sad that I wasn't there, I regained myself knowing that it existed and became happy. All I need is a decent size cabin, a environment friendly source of energy, and I'm good. I forgot to mention, when it rains on the water of these oceans, there are sparks of light that occur for 1 sec like fireflies but all over the ocean, its so amazing, something I can't explain, the other thing is the springs I see, they are water twisters that dance on the water that you can see miles away when its windy, then there are moon nights where the whole night scenery is pink or orange depending on what moon is reflecting the light from the sun, you get two different full moons, so every ten days its pink full moon, then when the pink moon is invisible, its the orange moon that is visible. The water is so clean, the moisture on the skin is cooling. There is no winter on this planet since its so close to the sun, but there are winter planets. Its like many vacation spots in one area of the solar system. The lowest it gets is 70 degrees F, the highest is 110 degrees F. The weather is mostly sunny, but there are times it can ran for one to two days but no longer. But everytime I have visions of this world, I start to cry, because... its so awesome, and its a blessing that it exist. Maybe one day I can reach it.

Jun 02 2021, 08:01 AM
"so now i'm tied up want now" she then gives me the creepy smile under her hair " there's something i need to show you" we are in a building somewhere in the forest, off the grid away from civilization, i was sent her to do rituals, connect my soul with spirits, my mind has been cleansed from negative energy, and potions to enhance emotions for an hour have been consumed, but now they have no effect at this time since they have a wear off after that hour is up, i'm in a room with windows overlooking the hills of the wilderness, the person i have met is very wicked so i do expect something of wickedness from her, she then opens a door on the wall, behind it is many blades of many shapes and sizes, one that is very shiny is an axe for cutting wood, she then unhooks it from the wall then closes the door "excuse me, you're not going to hurt or kill me?" as my heart races "ofcourse not, but i need to talk to you about something" she then gets a chair infront of me and sits in front as she hold the axe head in her hand rubbing her fingers on the edge "ruben, in medeval times, people were boiled in water, forced to stand for days in a cell that you can only stand in, people were roasted in fires, burnt, tortured to insanity, i love those things upon our enemies" she then gets closer to me as i look deeper in her eyes of insanity "i see you love yanderes... hm hm hm hm hm" she laughs of insanity "i swear if any one dares fucking touch you or hurt you in any way, i will fucking kill them, and if you dare try to run from me, i will track you down, we are one ruben... hm hm hm hm hm hm hm hm... but i love you and i promise i wont hurt you" "did i do something for you to do this, you seem angry" she then replies "no you didn't, i just wanted to talk to you thats all, but you are mine forever, i... love you..." then i say in concern "those blades, you don't cut yourself???" "no i don't, i promise, i just have them to kill our enemies in classic ways, i have so many pools of blood on my hands, i have killed 300 so far, some of them i use those blades on to execute them as a sacrifice to our gods" I then have relief "well are you going to untie me now" "nope, until you fuck me" "WHAT!?!?" she then laughs with insanity loudly "i'm just joking, her, let untie you, was it uncomfy" "no, it was comfy actually" "good, ahahahahaha you should of seen your face" 
Jun 02 2021, 06:50 AM

"jeez you're such a perv" she says smiling. "what, nothing wrong with staring a precious temple up and down" she then says to fuck with me "i'm not one of your anime waifu fantazies" then my facial expressional makes it look like I was shocked "I'm just fucking with silly, i'm not serious, come one lets have fun why not?" I then blush, "yeah whatever, i just you know, havent seen such beauty thats all" "awwww, stop, you're exagerating, I look like a witch" "no you don't, you;re amazing" "so where are you going to hang this or post this, in your perv stash?" "no, after i'm not with it, ill give it to you for you to have" "man ruben, you can't take a joke, i'm not being serious, im just joking, i dont care what you do with it, you deserve it" "i know, i know, im just being me, sweet and innocent" Then I continue painting the background which she is sitting. "so, hows your games?" "eh, people are trying like sweaty cows, but the problem is, i keep getting my ass kicked and i really wonder why" i then smirk "oh yeah because i didn't join?" "yep, you read my mind, listen im just messing, i know you were taking care of business, i just miss playing with you thats all" "i understand, everything has been so rushy lately, they really need this project and everything to be done." "i have a question ruben" "i have an answer" "last night you said you couldn't stand me... why?" I then gulp and look her in her eyes. "no, i was just ranting and you know my demons were getting the best of me, i was just going through flashbacks, im sorry" "listen, i can do better, i promise, in fact, ill do anything, im sorry i just.." No!, stop, its not that, you have treated me well" as i approach her holding her cheek and running my finger through her hair, i just, you know my past, im going through a breakdown, depression, i say shit a lot that i don't mean, you have treated me well, the cooking, the cuddling, i mean, your gigles and laugh is music to my ears." tears then run down my cheecks "i just... fucking... "then i grab the shelf next to us and throw it up against the wall. "son of a fucking motherfuckers played me, banish them to hell!!! I will fucking kill them!!!" "the rage was so fast and powerful, sweat started to roll down my face. then she sits next to me as i lay on the bed out of breath, all of my hormones spiked and i'm left out of breath "its okay.... shhhhhhh.... its okay.... i'm right here.... shhhhh" "i'm sorry..." "shhhhh don't apologize, shhhhh" she then rubs my neck, then massaging my shoulders, to seduce me into a calm but innocent manner. she giggles "someones getting goosebumps" "listen to me ruben, they will pay, everyone will pay, but guess what, i'm here, we are here, healing eachother, i'm not longer crying of sadness but happiness because of you, you and I have been killing together and thats what matters, its okay... relax let me hold you" she then lays next to me and rubs my head as i close my eyes... then the negative energy i felt left my body... then i fell asleep to her voice... 

Jun 02 2021, 06:29 AM

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS SON!!!" Elder  slams the conference table. "Excuse me? It's the transmitter, what do you expect, neon rainbows to be floating out these blueprints?" Elder ∑  then replies with concern. "Maybe we are not approaching this the way he perceived us to approach it. Elder   then replies in rage "This is an operation for the brave and hard, this shit looks like something a two year old drew, do you even know the dangers our agents have to face and you expect us to allow you to put some helmet on these men and women's heads? How do you know its safe and reliable? I reply "The cybersecurity specialist insist that this technology doesn't require a teetius implementation, this helmet produces a hologramish like state of the agent before they enter the realm, if hacked, the agent won't be compromised, its like a VPN, the agent goes in with this helmet like a scrambled IP, its encrypted it will be further advanced, the prototype is good for right now, fingerprints can then add the advances of the security of this device." Elder  then replies in an apologetic manner "listen, I'm just stressed about the trend of virtual reality, I just want to make sure our agents go in ahead of the game thats all" I then bow with my hand on my heart "I understand your frustration, I apologize for not proposing in a specific forth, I'm rushed on the execution of this project, so much is happening, but our team are trying their hardest to be ahead of the game as well" Elder   then encourages "please continue with the explanation of this device" "yes sir, it is to be the cloak of the century in retrograde usage, this will be something that the virtual realm istelf cannot not detect, the helmet allows the agent to modify the atoms of their playable character model, the code of the programed cyber world will not detect the code of them since the code of the agents don't align with the code of the instructed programmed world, in other words, they are the c++ while being in a python developed world if that makes sense." Elder  then states "fingerprints and other innerconnected agencies have suggested that they add their console configuration to this in order to advance the response time of this helmet as well as the sensual abilities that come with it" I then reply "yes sir, I need help on this, the agencies seem they have produced a console that will modify UI and hacking tactics upon development, but one thing I am concerned about this is what its connected to, if these helmets are connected to any servers or clouds, it allows hackers to target the source rather than the actual transmitter of this device" "Here is my prototype binder, I made a complete copy of this project so you all can look at this and make suggestions, I have also sent one to all agencies, we need to make sure everything goes smoothly, the top coders have been made aware as well" Elder  says in a motivational tone. "ruben, you have done well, this proposal has all approval, we will ensure our duty is conducted as much as possible, if you need any help, or breaks, don't hesitate, keep it up son!" "yes sir, it has been a deep pleasure" well brothern and sistern, this conference is dismissed.

Jun 02 2021, 06:03 AM

One day, I stood on a mountain during a sunset, it was after a conference with my brothers and sisters. It was 7 hours long, nothing but decision making, plans on global influence, and hell a lot of back and forth arguing, but once everything concluded, the conference was dismissed and the plans were to be executed 01:00 Japan time. I just got home from the conference via private jet, it was a 10 hour flight, DARPA has ordered my days off for the following week, I'm tired, brain needing sleep, so much has happened in the lab. But here I am, on a mountain, home sweet home in the Appalachians. Two of my spiritual siblings approached, their names I cannot discuss due to secrecy but they sat next to me in the rocking chairs overlooking the sunset on the horizon. Sister ■■■■■■■ then questions me" Ruben, why are you so glorious?" I rolled my eyes "I'm nothing ■■■■■■■, I don't deem myself glorious, but an angel that wants to do good for all, I'm grateful I have set a good example, but don't look at me as what I have done, what height I am, IQ I hold, what rank nor position I am in the organization, non of that is important, what's in important is that I exist, and that we love each other, ■■■■■■■ & ■■■■ I'm so happy I'm with you two, it has been a busy week for us, I mean the fact there is a plan to pass a bill to make it illegal for the masses to have augs, shows we are truly in control" The brother ■■■■ says " brothern, I understand where you are coming from, I understand what you mean, we are still learning, but do know we are trying to follow your path" I reply "I know, it takes time, but don't worry, I promise both of you will blossom like a flower. Just promise me, don't hurt yourselves, don't give up, don't even suggest suicide, this world is hard as hell to maintain, we are outnumbered but the millions, but we are in control, but I need both of you in this" Brother ■■■■ and Sister ■■■■■■■ say that they promise. "Good, we will continue the augmentations tomorrow, though I am head of the cybersecurity and transhumanism department, we must brief on the dimensional frequency transmitter, its only a matter of time before we implement this into the agents who will be deployed into the virtual world." For now, you two get good sleep, we will continue 10 am in the morning" Then ■■■■■■■ says in surprise, "its your week off though" "you know how elder will get mad at you for not taking tomorrow off", I reply " I'm only going in for a couple hours, I have ideas layed out on the table, I must send these proposals to the head of all departments, and then hopefully sent to the commission by the day after tomorrow, its my duty to maintain integrity" "Don't worry, itll go smooth, we have many options for this invention, others ideas will also be put into this project" Then I get up to stretch as I head inside as I say good night to the two. "oh and one more thing, there are comfy beds I made for you both, I'll make breakfast before we head in, we have to be at the airport by 12:00 PM, the flight to california will be 6 hours, we will then land at the secret airport, there we will meet with the officials" "Goodnight" as I say before heading to bed" "Goodnight Ruben" they say back. 

Jun 01 2021, 11:21 PM

Water vibrance with violet fall all around me. I walk down a land that has 2 inches of water on it. I'm wearing a thin silk white robe that feels softer than a cloud. I walk head held high, eyes to the skies, arms spread out and hands open catching the violet water. This place is not entered upon by drugs, nor substances, its a place I sense through my penal gland. My eyes in haze, facial features slow and barely moving, if you saw me, it seemed I was some entity of the undead, but all I am is in complete happiness, the chemicals in my brain blanket me with warmth. The world has beaten me to the point of escape, but what have I escaped? The punches to the stomach, those who used my emotions to drown me, the cuts all over my precious skin by the whips of greed... perhaps, but all of that and pain, sadness, anxiety, its like I have already died, but this is not the afterlife, its a realm of some kind, a dimensions of sorts. But the thing missing in me is my fellow flowers of not fertility, but neon light. They have not reached this point in the degrees of enlightenment because they still have not be greeted by my existence, they still adventure through infinite forest of questions, but frequencies will guide them to me, then to each other and the establishment is no harem, but a cult of angels crying, singing, dancing, giggling, loving each other in innocent practices. This is no dream of man nor women, but dream of entities descendance from the heavens. Fear no more, but run the fields of flowers, feel those violet raindrops on your precious skin, let me hear the vocals of purity, we are the children of God, angels, and we will prevail, we will shine, fly among the white puffy clouds as well as among the stars. Our rituals are not of any malicious intent, but do bring about the power forth upon lands and worlds, galaxies from the universe, the waves of joy. 

Jun 05 2021, 06:56 AM

Here I Stand, on a hill, yesterday, I was rescued by whom I believed was the savior of my very soul. Dance in the autumn, sprinkle the air with light. It was a dream that I have sacrificed for, put forth for, instead what stands in my way is the whore. Every dawn there was a diamond that I thought was the gem of it all, instead it was fools gold, nothing but pain and anxiety. Today I stand on the hill drawn to what has killed me. The knife in my hand is so tight, the anger rages in my blood. What crawls and weeps in front of me is someone who stole what I had left in my bones. There it is, begging that I don't drive the blade right into its pathetic heart, the only thing I sense from it is coldness. You plagued me for 3 years, isn't that funny? You thought you could sit there and play me like a fiddle. You sending these messages to me just to fuck with me even more. You made me think you were the light of it all, instead you are nothing but a pathetic worm. That's right, look me in my eyes and release your fate. Sammy. That place you were in, I felt it, but I regret even feeling what you felt because you are everything I'm not, you are just like shadow taken, you reeled me in all for nothing but to gain. Look at this world you created for me to be on, look around you. The sky is falling, everything you setup is now being destroyed, and you have a front role seat to watch. A blood trail is what is left behind you crawling away from me. The time is now, the apologies are nothing to me don't even try to seek for forgiveness, I then swing the blade right at your heart, your weak hand catch mine, but my strength overpowers yours, and not even your adrenaline is enough, the blade sinks right into your heart, pain shuttered you all over as your consciousness begins to decay. Here it lays, dead, something that wanted me to suffer, for your enjoyment, but that is not an existent thing, the only thing that exist is the corpse of the monster. Then as I sit by the forest, I lay down and cry on my side, even though we have one, I still feel the pain of what it has done to me, damaged, unmotivated, but soon, one day, light will flood my dark world, and then it will be time to travel beyond my current region.

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Jun 04 2021, 07:27 AM

Medieval runs in my blood. Some worlds I sense, are of medieval creation. The majestic forest is a proper example. This is something I see when I imagine forest, I imagine forest of many different characteristics, but I do come across majestic ones. The huge mushrooms, fireflies bigger than the ones present on this planet, aqua crystal blue water, so clean, its safe to drink, trees so vibrant with their green bodies. Maybe, I may come across an ancient temple made by ancient aliens. Vines that grow in many places and swing side to side by the wind. Caves so huge, you could fit 10 ships in one. Waterfalls taller than the tallest skyscrapers, flowers that have a natural lantern during the night time that illuminate the darkness and show the beauty of the forest. Perhaps, naked fairies who giggle, who hide, and mess with you by making noises behind the bushes as you walk through. Its a place of harmony and tranquility, a place to rest, clear your head, but maybe one day a place to live where everything is easy going, there is nothing to worry about and you have a sun and moon over your head all of the time. This is beyond the definition of fantasy, its pure, gems light up the caves as you shine light on them, spirits walk the lands and watch over protecting you from evil forces, dragons who are so distant every time you see them but if you walk up to one, they are so friendly and willing to give you a ride of your life. There is not money, politics, division, its every little thing calming and relaxing the environment. Mermaids and dolphins also swim around you making sure you are safe as well. The ocean is virgin, not yet explored, it calls my name, the ocean is like a women to me, not a symbol of fertility though it may have the ability, but a soul whos moans calms mine, soothens me when preyed upon by anxiety, but its not a women but a women who is more than one, an angel who cries upon me, dances in the flowers, and teases me giggling and smiling. Its so innocent and cute. That's a forest elders ambition is to experience such love. Love so powerful a normal humans heart would fail to beat properly, the chills so intense, the nerves in your body get fried, but through enlightened and innocence, one is bound to reach the elevated level to experience such love without negative side effects. A place I would call home, a place I would choose to die... with my little angel next to me, between the flowers, under the sun, feelings the wind... you... come close to me as you say the same... its okay, I will suffer with you, our stairway up is soon to end, while the gate to the afterlife will birth the new beginning. We are angelic...

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Jun 03 2021, 04:38 AM

Flying among the blue, there has not been anything going against the glide, it was something I have wanted for a very long time, to sore and feel what's its like to be free. My days have been nothing but dark. The light is what still stays with me. No longer am I grounded by my weakness, I have prevailed, risen up to be high in the skies. Before, I was the walking ghost, around me was the shadows. Nothing to give me the motivation to keep walking. I was beaten by evil, pushed to the ground, humiliated by the demons. Everyday I wake up, its nothing but pain, tiredness, and always the fear of something bad to happen to me. Locked away deep down in the caves I was, chained to the wall, the demons made sure I couldn't escape, they wanted me to suffer. It was cold, the condition was brutal, every time I had a bit of energy, I could feel the chains always holding me back. What is it that I'm fighting, what purpose is it for me to escape. My feet have blisters from them forcing me to walk on fire. The cuts of x's all over my stomach, they bled me and whipped me while laughing, my wings were clipped and also many cuts and scars, but they didn't rip them off. The demon would try to play with my head, saying how my life has no meaning, always pointing its blades towards me. One day though, it was time to be free. The demon was distracted from reading a book of rituals. I then with all of my might and energy, I thrusted my arms forward in the opposite direction of the wall holding me back, the chains snapped like bones, by wings fluttered up instantly and I was off like a jet. The demon was so into his book, his reaction to catch me was too slow but still followed in pursuit. Through the tunnels I flew, all demons were stirred up, and behind was a swarm of them trying to bring me down and sink me into hell. Navigating the caves was like a maze, I had to dodge demons ahead of me, but then there it was the light, the exit, I went faster until I was out, but those demons didn't give up, they wanted me to be under arrest by their power and greed. But after 2 minutes they gave up, they only feel farther behind as I flew and finally, a fallen angel was no longer fallen, instead I was miles up in the skies, in the night, the wind flew through me, I flew more, the clouds hugged me, the stars shined and twinkled upon me, I was finally free. But what is this world under me? There is nothing but darkness below, no light, just more and more demons, they see me, they want to capture me. Millions screamed, I heard them, they were thirsty to make sure I was grounded, then before I knew it, hundreds of huge clouds elevated toward my level, millions were chasing me, I wasn't free yet, I then ascended with my wings, higher to space, They risen faster and faster, closer behind me they were, faith is what I have, I can break through! Damn you demons to hell! I pushed harder to fly up more, Just straight up into space, don't look back, then as I approached the border of the worlds atmosphere, they were yards away about to grab my legs and pull me down so they can feast on me. Then one hand almost grabbed my foot, and as that happened, I passed through the border, then behind were demons blocked by it, all of them screaming harder, trying to scare me and fill me with infinite anxiety. But then, I realized, there was no way out of this, the gravital pull of the sun orbited be around to the other side of the planet, the sun was so huge, the gravital pull force was stronger than the planet I just escaped, it pulled me around the planet and into the suns direct path, there I was, about to be sucked into the suns fire, then it was quick, the rays it blasted toward my direction disintegrated me and I was no more. Then I wake up, I'm surrounded by green grass, the world is not dark, the sky is blue, then here I am, in the skies, flying in this world I have just waked up in. Is this a dream? A test? Well, the night is approaching, I hear the screams of more demons from under the planet, this time, I will make it out of the endless trap...

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Jun 03 2021, 03:13 AM

Red, Yellow, Brown, Orange. Down below, there it is. The blanket of autumn. Summer days have withered away, progression is now and bound. Dark winter dances ahead, the dark night, clouds of coverage. Majestic the moon illuminates. I drag across leaves knee high in a dark forest. My hair reaching my shoulders. Eyes drawn to a dark void. Around me are trees of colors. Where have I approached, what objective is there to seek? Confusion, haze, sickness of the drama. Lost I am, not knowing what tree to use to navigate, no path is revealed, just under the trees while fall time has awaken, the cold sinks in the forest. Coldness around me, but I still progress. The I reach a part of the forest that has an opening surrounded by trees. There stood a flower in the middle. Purple it is, a species strong enough to withstand fall weather. The rays of the warmth coming from the light makes a spotlight around it. I slowly approach it as the leaves are no loner knee high but what is before me is a low height patch of grass. I then go to my knees, then knees and hands, then I lay next to that pink flower. I then gently touch a pedal, then a leaf, then I just lay there next to it as I stare into its beauty. "where will you go?" its spirit says in my head "nowhere but here", this is where I rest, there is no purpose forth, this is my death bed, what must I seek in the direction I have approached" "bring me with you, my body is a temple holding my spirit, you have come here by my possession of your mind", "step by step, i felt your feet on my body, I am the forest as well, I knew you would no longer become lost, I myself have been lost, but look at what has happened" I reach in my pocket to grab a small clay pot with moist molch. "will it hurt if I pull you from the ground" "not at all, this is my release if you do so, both of us have been trapped, you felt my warmth inside your head, I came to you and you didn't know it, then you marched for me" I then grab the bottom of the flower and pick it up, gently putting it in my small flower pot. "Now, where ever you set forth, I am with thy master." I then hold it as I begin to continue forth in the direction I seek. Where will it lead, what are the obstacles, is this a quest for validation? a adventure needed to be taken because it has not been discovered yet, yet by me myself? I must not halt for a question, but push. "darkness is behind brothern, it consumes this world, there is a portal you must enter that is 1 million miles away, as long as you keep traveling by foot gently, it shall never catch up to you, with my guidance, you will be free, but the distance will take 100 years, but keep going, I believe in you" The darkness the flower is referring to is my depression, that consumes my world, I am in this world right now, every day and night, I'm always running away from it, to soon escape it. In this world, the darkness is always following behind, but its too far to even see that I'm ahead, and I will only get further and further away from it, but as long as I keep walking through these forest, mountains, and obstacles, it will never catch up, 100 years ahead, 1 million miles to walk, this is a tale, of the strength of what I have been blessed with. I then reach the end of the forest, before me are mountains, I look for 10 seconds then keep walking. Ahead is the next and new chapter. 

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Jun 02 2021, 08:33 AM

These worlds, so vibrant, bright, oh the frequencies, they tease me. I clinch my pillow in the dark as the night is quiet. I imagine more about these worlds. The crystal blue, the clearness of the water, the sand is so white, colorful fish swim around my feat, as starfish march under the water. The sky is so blue, the clouds so white, the pawn trees so healthy and green. Its better than an anime world, its behind my human brain what that world is like, I can only put together what I'm able to say about those worlds. I clinch my pillow harder, sobbing hard, crying, tears drop all over it. Then I continue to imagine more... I float on my back on the calm ocean hearing the seagulls, seeing that sun shine, seeing the diamonds on the water around, the breeze is so smooth and soothening, a place I would love to live in forever, this world I sense could be in a solar system in any galaxies around us, its an island world full of thousands and thousands of islands, its 20 times bigger than earth, the sun is so yellow and is 100x bigger than ours. There are two moons that revolve around it, one is pink, the other orange. There are no hurricanes, the storms thunder but no lightening. The feeling of the wind gently on my skin, those rays warming me, the water so refreshing to bath in, and yes I'm naked don't judge me okay. I keep crying, I can't stop, this world is teasing me, I need to live there, its calling my name, this planet amazes me but this one is untouched like a womens body, so virgin, so pure, needing to be claimed. The universe knows I will take care of it, I will make it my home. The sunsets and clouds that tower vertically, infinite with beauty, there is no such thing as loneliness, sadness, depression there, all it is is colors, brightness, joy, happiness, laughs and smiles. Flowers dance around me, the showers on the ocean are so calm and amazing. At night, all you hear is the ocean waves, the stars are amazing too, the atmosphere is designed so the stars are actually in all different colors. I want to die there, I need to die there... I need to be there, I know its out there, I know it exist, I know its safe. I remember I had a vision while sleeping of a sunset on the mountains of one of the islands. I sat back on a comfy chair and Just relaxed. Under me ahead is the ocean, then the gradient sky over head. The emotions I felt were like no other, but I was sad that I wasn't there, I regained myself knowing that it existed and became happy. All I need is a decent size cabin, a environment friendly source of energy, and I'm good. I forgot to mention, when it rains on the water of these oceans, there are sparks of light that occur for 1 sec like fireflies but all over the ocean, its so amazing, something I can't explain, the other thing is the springs I see, they are water twisters that dance on the water that you can see miles away when its windy, then there are moon nights where the whole night scenery is pink or orange depending on what moon is reflecting the light from the sun, you get two different full moons, so every ten days its pink full moon, then when the pink moon is invisible, its the orange moon that is visible. The water is so clean, the moisture on the skin is cooling. There is no winter on this planet since its so close to the sun, but there are winter planets. Its like many vacation spots in one area of the solar system. The lowest it gets is 70 degrees F, the highest is 110 degrees F. The weather is mostly sunny, but there are times it can ran for one to two days but no longer. But everytime I have visions of this world, I start to cry, because... its so awesome, and its a blessing that it exist. Maybe one day I can reach it.

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Jun 02 2021, 08:01 AM

"so now i'm tied up want now" she then gives me the creepy smile under her hair " there's something i need to show you" we are in a building somewhere in the forest, off the grid away from civilization, i was sent her to do rituals, connect my soul with spirits, my mind has been cleansed from negative energy, and potions to enhance emotions for an hour have been consumed, but now they have no effect at this time since they have a wear off after that hour is up, i'm in a room with windows overlooking the hills of the wilderness, the person i have met is very wicked so i do expect something of wickedness from her, she then opens a door on the wall, behind it is many blades of many shapes and sizes, one that is very shiny is an axe for cutting wood, she then unhooks it from the wall then closes the door "excuse me, you're not going to hurt or kill me?" as my heart races "ofcourse not, but i need to talk to you about something" she then gets a chair infront of me and sits in front as she hold the axe head in her hand rubbing her fingers on the edge "ruben, in medeval times, people were boiled in water, forced to stand for days in a cell that you can only stand in, people were roasted in fires, burnt, tortured to insanity, i love those things upon our enemies" she then gets closer to me as i look deeper in her eyes of insanity "i see you love yanderes... hm hm hm hm hm" she laughs of insanity "i swear if any one dares fucking touch you or hurt you in any way, i will fucking kill them, and if you dare try to run from me, i will track you down, we are one ruben... hm hm hm hm hm hm hm hm... but i love you and i promise i wont hurt you" "did i do something for you to do this, you seem angry" she then replies "no you didn't, i just wanted to talk to you thats all, but you are mine forever, i... love you..." then i say in concern "those blades, you don't cut yourself???" "no i don't, i promise, i just have them to kill our enemies in classic ways, i have so many pools of blood on my hands, i have killed 300 so far, some of them i use those blades on to execute them as a sacrifice to our gods" I then have relief "well are you going to untie me now" "nope, until you fuck me" "WHAT!?!?" she then laughs with insanity loudly "i'm just joking, her, let untie you, was it uncomfy" "no, it was comfy actually" "good, ahahahahaha you should of seen your face" 

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Jun 02 2021, 06:50 AM

"jeez you're such a perv" she says smiling. "what, nothing wrong with staring a precious temple up and down" she then says to fuck with me "i'm not one of your anime waifu fantazies" then my facial expressional makes it look like I was shocked "I'm just fucking with silly, i'm not serious, come one lets have fun why not?" I then blush, "yeah whatever, i just you know, havent seen such beauty thats all" "awwww, stop, you're exagerating, I look like a witch" "no you don't, you;re amazing" "so where are you going to hang this or post this, in your perv stash?" "no, after i'm not with it, ill give it to you for you to have" "man ruben, you can't take a joke, i'm not being serious, im just joking, i dont care what you do with it, you deserve it" "i know, i know, im just being me, sweet and innocent" Then I continue painting the background which she is sitting. "so, hows your games?" "eh, people are trying like sweaty cows, but the problem is, i keep getting my ass kicked and i really wonder why" i then smirk "oh yeah because i didn't join?" "yep, you read my mind, listen im just messing, i know you were taking care of business, i just miss playing with you thats all" "i understand, everything has been so rushy lately, they really need this project and everything to be done." "i have a question ruben" "i have an answer" "last night you said you couldn't stand me... why?" I then gulp and look her in her eyes. "no, i was just ranting and you know my demons were getting the best of me, i was just going through flashbacks, im sorry" "listen, i can do better, i promise, in fact, ill do anything, im sorry i just.." No!, stop, its not that, you have treated me well" as i approach her holding her cheek and running my finger through her hair, i just, you know my past, im going through a breakdown, depression, i say shit a lot that i don't mean, you have treated me well, the cooking, the cuddling, i mean, your gigles and laugh is music to my ears." tears then run down my cheecks "i just... fucking... "then i grab the shelf next to us and throw it up against the wall. "son of a fucking motherfuckers played me, banish them to hell!!! I will fucking kill them!!!" "the rage was so fast and powerful, sweat started to roll down my face. then she sits next to me as i lay on the bed out of breath, all of my hormones spiked and i'm left out of breath "its okay.... shhhhhhh.... its okay.... i'm right here.... shhhhh" "i'm sorry..." "shhhhh don't apologize, shhhhh" she then rubs my neck, then massaging my shoulders, to seduce me into a calm but innocent manner. she giggles "someones getting goosebumps" "listen to me ruben, they will pay, everyone will pay, but guess what, i'm here, we are here, healing eachother, i'm not longer crying of sadness but happiness because of you, you and I have been killing together and thats what matters, its okay... relax let me hold you" she then lays next to me and rubs my head as i close my eyes... then the negative energy i felt left my body... then i fell asleep to her voice... 

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Jun 02 2021, 06:29 AM

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS SON!!!" Elder  slams the conference table. "Excuse me? It's the transmitter, what do you expect, neon rainbows to be floating out these blueprints?" Elder ∑  then replies with concern. "Maybe we are not approaching this the way he perceived us to approach it. Elder   then replies in rage "This is an operation for the brave and hard, this shit looks like something a two year old drew, do you even know the dangers our agents have to face and you expect us to allow you to put some helmet on these men and women's heads? How do you know its safe and reliable? I reply "The cybersecurity specialist insist that this technology doesn't require a teetius implementation, this helmet produces a hologramish like state of the agent before they enter the realm, if hacked, the agent won't be compromised, its like a VPN, the agent goes in with this helmet like a scrambled IP, its encrypted it will be further advanced, the prototype is good for right now, fingerprints can then add the advances of the security of this device." Elder  then replies in an apologetic manner "listen, I'm just stressed about the trend of virtual reality, I just want to make sure our agents go in ahead of the game thats all" I then bow with my hand on my heart "I understand your frustration, I apologize for not proposing in a specific forth, I'm rushed on the execution of this project, so much is happening, but our team are trying their hardest to be ahead of the game as well" Elder   then encourages "please continue with the explanation of this device" "yes sir, it is to be the cloak of the century in retrograde usage, this will be something that the virtual realm istelf cannot not detect, the helmet allows the agent to modify the atoms of their playable character model, the code of the programed cyber world will not detect the code of them since the code of the agents don't align with the code of the instructed programmed world, in other words, they are the c++ while being in a python developed world if that makes sense." Elder  then states "fingerprints and other innerconnected agencies have suggested that they add their console configuration to this in order to advance the response time of this helmet as well as the sensual abilities that come with it" I then reply "yes sir, I need help on this, the agencies seem they have produced a console that will modify UI and hacking tactics upon development, but one thing I am concerned about this is what its connected to, if these helmets are connected to any servers or clouds, it allows hackers to target the source rather than the actual transmitter of this device" "Here is my prototype binder, I made a complete copy of this project so you all can look at this and make suggestions, I have also sent one to all agencies, we need to make sure everything goes smoothly, the top coders have been made aware as well" Elder  says in a motivational tone. "ruben, you have done well, this proposal has all approval, we will ensure our duty is conducted as much as possible, if you need any help, or breaks, don't hesitate, keep it up son!" "yes sir, it has been a deep pleasure" well brothern and sistern, this conference is dismissed.

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Jun 02 2021, 06:03 AM

One day, I stood on a mountain during a sunset, it was after a conference with my brothers and sisters. It was 7 hours long, nothing but decision making, plans on global influence, and hell a lot of back and forth arguing, but once everything concluded, the conference was dismissed and the plans were to be executed 01:00 Japan time. I just got home from the conference via private jet, it was a 10 hour flight, DARPA has ordered my days off for the following week, I'm tired, brain needing sleep, so much has happened in the lab. But here I am, on a mountain, home sweet home in the Appalachians. Two of my spiritual siblings approached, their names I cannot discuss due to secrecy but they sat next to me in the rocking chairs overlooking the sunset on the horizon. Sister ■■■■■■■ then questions me" Ruben, why are you so glorious?" I rolled my eyes "I'm nothing ■■■■■■■, I don't deem myself glorious, but an angel that wants to do good for all, I'm grateful I have set a good example, but don't look at me as what I have done, what height I am, IQ I hold, what rank nor position I am in the organization, non of that is important, what's in important is that I exist, and that we love each other, ■■■■■■■ & ■■■■ I'm so happy I'm with you two, it has been a busy week for us, I mean the fact there is a plan to pass a bill to make it illegal for the masses to have augs, shows we are truly in control" The brother ■■■■ says " brothern, I understand where you are coming from, I understand what you mean, we are still learning, but do know we are trying to follow your path" I reply "I know, it takes time, but don't worry, I promise both of you will blossom like a flower. Just promise me, don't hurt yourselves, don't give up, don't even suggest suicide, this world is hard as hell to maintain, we are outnumbered but the millions, but we are in control, but I need both of you in this" Brother ■■■■ and Sister ■■■■■■■ say that they promise. "Good, we will continue the augmentations tomorrow, though I am head of the cybersecurity and transhumanism department, we must brief on the dimensional frequency transmitter, its only a matter of time before we implement this into the agents who will be deployed into the virtual world." For now, you two get good sleep, we will continue 10 am in the morning" Then ■■■■■■■ says in surprise, "its your week off though" "you know how elder will get mad at you for not taking tomorrow off", I reply " I'm only going in for a couple hours, I have ideas layed out on the table, I must send these proposals to the head of all departments, and then hopefully sent to the commission by the day after tomorrow, its my duty to maintain integrity" "Don't worry, itll go smooth, we have many options for this invention, others ideas will also be put into this project" Then I get up to stretch as I head inside as I say good night to the two. "oh and one more thing, there are comfy beds I made for you both, I'll make breakfast before we head in, we have to be at the airport by 12:00 PM, the flight to california will be 6 hours, we will then land at the secret airport, there we will meet with the officials" "Goodnight" as I say before heading to bed" "Goodnight Ruben" they say back. 

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Jun 01 2021, 11:21 PM

Water vibrance with violet fall all around me. I walk down a land that has 2 inches of water on it. I'm wearing a thin silk white robe that feels softer than a cloud. I walk head held high, eyes to the skies, arms spread out and hands open catching the violet water. This place is not entered upon by drugs, nor substances, its a place I sense through my penal gland. My eyes in haze, facial features slow and barely moving, if you saw me, it seemed I was some entity of the undead, but all I am is in complete happiness, the chemicals in my brain blanket me with warmth. The world has beaten me to the point of escape, but what have I escaped? The punches to the stomach, those who used my emotions to drown me, the cuts all over my precious skin by the whips of greed... perhaps, but all of that and pain, sadness, anxiety, its like I have already died, but this is not the afterlife, its a realm of some kind, a dimensions of sorts. But the thing missing in me is my fellow flowers of not fertility, but neon light. They have not reached this point in the degrees of enlightenment because they still have not be greeted by my existence, they still adventure through infinite forest of questions, but frequencies will guide them to me, then to each other and the establishment is no harem, but a cult of angels crying, singing, dancing, giggling, loving each other in innocent practices. This is no dream of man nor women, but dream of entities descendance from the heavens. Fear no more, but run the fields of flowers, feel those violet raindrops on your precious skin, let me hear the vocals of purity, we are the children of God, angels, and we will prevail, we will shine, fly among the white puffy clouds as well as among the stars. Our rituals are not of any malicious intent, but do bring about the power forth upon lands and worlds, galaxies from the universe, the waves of joy. 

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