Dec 05 2012, 11:15 PM

3 THINGS I SHOULD NOT DO MYSELF: TATS HAIR PIERCINGS future tony, please take note

Dec 05 2012, 05:59 PM

love is bringing me down today and yesterday i don't make a sound i die silently yes im alone but im far to old to beg anymore so just go fuck your promises that were hollow and empty i dont ever want to have that fairytale ending i refuse to take comfort in the arms if a lier to be destroyed in the end and burnt like fire ignited, undecided a cower less approach to an exit i just love the way you end it so pathetic such a man your a retard, damn like really? block me? then lie for 5 days? what the hell, were you too ashamed? your sopossed to be mature but all i see is a bitch your weak and about to get stitched rich, hitting on other girls when you tell me i broke you destroyed your world like i said, just a lire underneath that frown is a demon, a killer, an un amusing clown i guess im pissed but who wouldn't be? if their boyfriend was just fucking shitty i must have been crazy to love you baby ive been liking pathetic losers lately can you love me for myself? no, well then, ill see you in hell don't try to tell me to change because im gong to stay the same lame your retarded ok? lets just say, goodbye forever chaole

Dec 03 2012, 12:37 AM

i am now dating myself YES, because im just so amazing and understanding, and relationships are stupid. so, im going to date myself. were steady i have a good feeling about this one

Dec 01 2012, 02:00 PM

The worst pain? heartache it stings me and burns the feeling hurts worse than any hex or curse it starts in your heart then it flows through your veins crippling you, killing you, driving you insane i may never trust again look the same every broken promise takes more away im gone my friend and im someone else waiting to die and retire to hell tally marks on my arms with a blade i carve and carve one for every memory one for every lie another that counts for how dead i am inside im breathing but not because i want to stay alive im just waiting for the moment in time when i decide to die

Nov 30 2012, 10:32 AM

THIS TIME every day was just a guilt trip every second was an excuse to cut every minute was another fight every day you just broke my trust this time, im telling you no this time, im letting you go this time, ill be on my own this time, yeah this time, im not going to fail myself ignorance and false hope for a future you will never have dreams to big for you to understand plans too complicated to comprehend and a very short time to make things right again pretend like you are bright defend your choice to fight ignore the truth that lies in front of you walk forward into the depths of false solitude this time, im not gonna miss you this time, your words wont hurt this time, im putting down the knife this time, yeah this time, i know im fine cant rewind the past like a video cant put things on repeat like a CD cant live happily ever after like in a movie cant scratch it like a DVD your an idiot to be honest it took me a while before i got it you play mind games until you get what you've wanted so many things you never had but flaunted this time, im not stooping to your level this time, im taking the road less traveled this time, im winning this battle this time, yeah this time, im not going have it so go ahead put people against me so go ahead try to beak me down with my enemy's so go ahead and keep feeding lies to the unknown so go ahead and start reaping a heart already sewn this time, my skin will be unbroken this time, no blood will be flowing this time, im on my own this time, yeah this time, im the one sewing i know i have lots of scares i know i have lots of let downs i know i have a variety of overused frowns i have lots of doubts because every day was a guilt trip every second was an excuse to cut every minute was another fight every day you broke my trust but this time, im getting back up this time, i dont give a fuck this time, you can push me down this time, yeah this time, im not staying on the ground

Nov 30 2012, 08:45 AM

Hour one of groundation for going pee, This room is like a cage and i am the bird forever trapped in its steel bars of evil. A falcon. I mean, if i were any bird, i would so be a falcon. Falcons are so cool and i like to punch things so like if i was a falcon and i punched someone i could yell "FALCON PUNCH!" Dad is in the hallway giving a freaking tour of our small house like we live in some mansion and not in the white ghetto. Oh yes, there is a white ghetto here in Florida. Dad already took away every musical instrument that i could possibly cause disruption with. what a cruel man.... I'm left to my computer and my unspoken thoughts that i type here. This majestic falcon is hungry. But no tacos for me tonight... -tony

Nov 29 2012, 06:54 AM

ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE RAZORS lost a friend today she slit her wrists again with a sharp taut silver razor she was on the deep end somewhere in her mind she didn't want to die with a arm full of scars she just could take the pain of life here we go don't trip this is how we live i have a bunch of friends with razors with bruised hearts with bloodied fists so alone, no one understands no one dares defend walk this road alone until we decide to end lost a friend again his name was Sam he was on his own got a gun and in his head he made a hole all my friends have razors that cut deep into the bone all my friends have razors in a world that's just so cold here we go don't trip with bruised hearts and bloodied fists fighting a losing battle trying to stay strong, but were just kids cant tuck the pain inside it hurts too much to cry one sharp cut will make us right watches the world with jaded eyes building up a tolerance to getting high bad things happen when shes sober life gets old as shes getting older end up on the streets again all by herself with no friends drank that last bottle of vodka then she descends off that bridge here we go don't trip this is how we live i have a bunch of friends with razors with bruised hearts with bloodied fists yes it's kind of stupid but what can you do the worlds cruel and the victim is you screams that echo through the night he yells because he knows hes too weak to fight the words they say cause him the deepest rage brought a gun to school and payback was paid all my friends have razors i remember every one of them every scar and mark was every time i failed to defend they may be gone but their ghost's are not deep inside my heart their story's are never lost

Nov 25 2012, 10:20 PM

I wont give everything away. Lies wont get you anything today. Why you try drives me crazy. To rule my life. Because im too lazy. Back off, im telling you now. whats that? there's something you want to talk about? too late, my trust in you is gone. you lost your voice the day i moved on. is there some logical accusation in your words? or do you just curse until your overworked and hurt? sure act like your the victim and whine to your bitches like i give a shit, im fabulous insults don't hurt i have a bullshit filter your not getting through so ill just sit back and relax and drink an ice cold miller the weak ones said i deserved to be cursed but their words never hurt i know that they didn't know me in the first place if they did they would take back words they say and replace it with better things but, that's okay weak ones are fake they wont know the real until the day they learn to feel but, that outcomes sealed in an airtight box of arrogance so surreal okay so lets just say im not as great as i claim yes, i make mistakes but were all the same don't prosecute me for what i do because, fuck you yeah that's what i said back off unless you want to end up dead get out of your head realize the way you have lived your bound by the chains of society expectations met, but when you end, it means nothing but a few tears and a never ending thread of the same old shit .....

Nov 23 2012, 10:47 PM

your blackness is not going to consume the pain you conflicted will not resume intentions shadowed in darkness life's shadowed in death you used to live to bring now you live to take stay out of my life don't cross this line my heart my time no longer will i cry for being the good guy no longer will this guilt make me think that my existence is a crime not going to tell myself these scars are for the good not something to remember to become stronger your soul only brings darkness i will walk the farthest in this path of blinding night

Nov 20 2012, 08:17 PM

dependent. trustworthy lairs at every turn reality is understood now like a whack to the head everything makes sense but worlds were destroyed for you to understand i cant defend my actions depend on the decent how fast can i sink into the depths of depression until i use the pain to control again wont pretend like everything's alright because its not feels like im caught in a spiderweb in a tight knot no air to breathe so just suffocate until im lost its about time they remember me death always brought out the good side so true like you knew how it would cease in the end a day of love then a day of sin how shameful how it all fell down pride keeps me shoving the feeling around just bound to do something stupid here we go back on that road again first class ticket to failure watch as i crescent