I Was The Chapstick In Your Purse To Keep You Smooth, I Was The Finger In Your Throat, To Keep You Cute, My Liver Hates You, For Walking Out On Us Choke On This, by Senses Fail
Kathrin Fisher
28 / Female / kansas, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
Feb 14, 2013
Last online:
Apr 04, 2020
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About Me
I like to write. I write poetry and short stories, stuff like that. I like to draw. My classmates say that my drawings kinda freak them out, but hey, that's all right. I guess I'm pretty boring, I mean I don't really do much of anything that someone would consider cool. I dress totally different from everyone else, but don't all of us? Me and my friend Sam, (Samantha), are the only emo people in my highschool, and school life is torture. Home life sometimes is too, but I am mainly in my room. The one thing that someone may conseder cool, is that I like to skate (board). I haven't been in a while since my family moved to a place where there is literally no concrete at all. So, here it is. This is a summary about me. P.S. music is my life.
Favourite Music
I like Escape the Fate, Pierce the Veil, and allot of others I can't think of right now. I don't want to forget The Used.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
I love scary movies, and I guess you can throw in some romance with vampire issues.
Vampire Kisses, Beautiful Creatures, and some others I can not think of right now.
Education / Occupation
I am unfortunatly a high-schooler.
Who I'd Like To Meet
I really would like to meet some decent emo guys. And some decent emo friends. Other than that, I don't know.
I know that i haven't been on in a while but great things happen when everything in life is away on vacation. I got trampled on by a whole bunch a guys and got kicked in the shin. YAY!!! :D
This is home,
A saddened place where once sheltered me.
To friends who were once but now not again.
They tell it is ok,
Then leave you once again.
To the sword that crashes down upon me,
I tell you once again,
Try as you might to kill me,
It will never work in the end.
There was a time that I once thought,
But all my thought is gone.
Separated and severed are the pieces of a heart.
Shadows, they do haunt me,
My sleep yet evades me.
To the ones that were once a friend
That are not a friend again.
~XXlovelessXX
For to long I've sat and waited;
Waiting for the day you'd love me.
But now I know,
And never again shall I fall so easily.
Let the rain fall down on me.
Let the lightning shriek.
Fire burns down the trees,
Till finally I'm free.
I search these dark shadows that en-chamber me.
Thrown into an ungrateful sea of horror.
Dropped into a cage of wild beasts',
As they rip me limb from limb.
Cut into tiny pieces screaming,
All the while unheard.
Angry, rapid waves pull me under,
Till I can not breathe.
Suffocating me in its water;
Making me bleed.
Bleeding out in all since of the word.
Choking me until I can not breathe.
Breaking every part of me.
Waiting just for me to die,
Knowing that I can not fly.
Pulling, ripping,
All from the inside-out.
Till finally,
My love is dead.
Hello my name is actually not the name you see.
My name is a name that you may never see.
My picture is at the bottom of your page,
But you may never see my face.
If I were to give myself away,
Would anyone stay with me on here?
If I were to put my face upon this page,
Would you still talk to me?
XXlovelessXX
Lies are all I hear.
Loveless words are what is said.
Hatred seems to be their friend,
My only friend is me and the dark corners in which I hide.
My black mascara,
My black eyeliner,
It all runs down my face.
I look upon the pictures though,
The pictures of old friends far in different places.
I look upon those happy faces,
And wonder why,
Why that isn't me.
But then I look in the mirror
And I see what all the people have done to me.
The bullying at school,
and the assult I faced a few years ago.
I look at myself and realize,
Realize that they have done this to me.
They made me who I am.
~XXlovelessXX
someday i'm going to leave this town,
no,
i'm going to leave this state.
i am going to live somewhere warmer.
i am going to travel the world.
i am going to become a poet,
a singer,
and artist,
and a writer.
i am going to finally be me.
i would like to thank the people who have tried to make me feel better, ( it worked). I would also like to thank the imaginary t-rex that tried to hug someone. :)
If I were to give into the temptation of myself,
The somewhat pschotic urges I sometimes have when the people who hate me make me mad.
If I were to let myself go,
Let myself to harm the ones that harm me,
I would not be myself.
When I am mad,
There may be some evil in me.
I spend my life refusing it though,
I don't let myself go.
I don't harm the ones that harm me,
And I don't harm the ones I love.
Even though some of the ones I love may hate me,
I do not harm them in anyway.
So in the end,
I lock up the pain,
And the me that isn't me,
deep inside so they won't see.
~XXlovelessXX
ok, so the 12 i got got 2nd in legue forensics in poetry and am going to state championships may 4th. I also have to go to an art compatition may 6th. busy huh. :/ well the thing is is that i don't what to draw. i am writing a poem to go with the drawing. if u all have any ideas please comment this journal or send a message with ur ideas of what i should draw. oh and, the only reason i's got 2nd wuz couse i was doing a kidish poem. :P well thanx.
