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Jealousy is such a bitter thing. And it makes my stomach do knotts and your brain go mushy....

I'm envy my friend(s). They're all so confident...

And I'm always following in in there/her shadows. I try my best to get away so I won't feel like outcast when they're around other people. So I tried sleeping on the tabels in one of my teachers class. And just listen to music. And just talk to a few of the kids that are also there every day. Okayuh, it's some dude I like. But I'm one to keep quiet about those things. Next thing I know their eating lunch in there. And flirting and exct. And I feel like a follower. I'm so jealous of them/her. Because now all four of t hem like him and that means they're going to be there everyday......And I just like having some time to get away from them and relax. But now they're all so loud and Gah! Jealousy isn't pretty. And I hate the filling of it. Knowing they all jhave a better chance. Alot more outspoken. And skanky. No offence to them. (What kinda friend am I?)

I know I should just give up.... But I don't know how too.

Any ideas on how to move on and not get caught in your friends shadows and get over jealous?

I'm so sick with my jealousy. And I hate my stupid emotions. All they do is mess everything up and.....

Why must everyone be born with awful emotions? Why can't anything ever atleast be okay? I'm sick and tired of getting all worked up over stupid things.... And I need help on how now not to overreact like a baby...