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I am feeling really depressed and I don't know who to turn to. It all started a few months ago. I was in love, I used to stare at my beautiful love just thinking to myself how lucky I was to have someone so indescribeably beautiful to call my own. Everything was happy, I was also moderatly pleased with all of my other 'friends', they were growing so fast and were all exceptionally beautiful too. I felt so lucky in their presence, to have so many radiant people to talk to and call my own. Then, and I wish I didn't have to get to this part, as tears are streaming down my face, something terrible happened. I can hardly describe it, it is so traumatic. It happened almost two weeks ago now, and I haven't mentioned this to anyone other than a few of my close friends. We were walking though the highstreet of town, at around 3pm. So happy, like a mirage now as I sit in my bedroom. We stopped off at the cadbury shop, and while we were waiting outside it happened. My baby, my beautiful and radiant thumbnail aquired a distinct crack. I almost screamed in turmoil and I noticed it's breaking, it's wound, it's pain. I then had to make the unbearable descision of whether to leave it, and undoubtably make it worse. I thought that, as the day wore on, the crack may increase downwards and cause the nail to be filed to a much shorter length. The only option I could foresee was that to rip the nail end from it's beautiful home. I remember my eyes welling up as I imagined the ugly version of nail I would soon have on the end of my marginally stubby thumb. Stifling a moan I ripped my baby off and had my nail reduced to a pathetic size. As if that was bad enough! Only 5 minutes ago, while I was getting over the trauma of my lefty-nail breaking, thinking to the future, of long and beautiful nails that would surely be growing in my baby's place. Looking down at my nails, I screamed as I realised my right thumbnail was reduced to merely a stump! I could see my ugly skin coming over the top of the short nail, making my hand look like that of a hobbit's! And to make it worse, while I frantically searched my room, I could not, for the life of me, find a nail file to sort out the issue! Here I am now, Writing this post as I have no-one else to turn to. My nails are disgustingly short, uneven and broken. I feel I cannot move on to my revision with such ugly things on my hands. Any advice? Please, I need help.