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ermm..well..i thought i had a few friends but recently tehy have also seemed to turn on me, or be embarresed of me. like an example is i was on facebook commenting on a 'friends' post when he told me not to comment. i asked him why and he told me piss off. i know this doesnt seem serious but a large number of my friend have recently become two faced, and may tell me to stop talkin to them (sometimes its a joke but it still hurts). i also feel that there is no one to talk to. Im also really depressed over the fact taht im single and that it really does kill me..then i start to think about weird stuff. i decided i should attempt to write my feelinds down, heres what i put: "the blade seems so satisfying, the noose like an answer. a simple rope, string or cord, a few seconds and my problems are solved. you, you did it to me. everything its your fault you were meant to be a friend, is this some sort of joke? no. you meant it, you are everyone. am i an embarressment to you? am i not worthy of you friendship? ofcourse not, im not good enough for myself, let alone you. loneliness, im destined for it. fuck it all, nobody leaves life alive. yes, we have things to achieve. but its taken away in death. nobody cares. its all a lie. the blade-cold. my blood-warm. the perfect mixture, my blood its host. corners are my only friends, even they engulf me. darkness is my only protection, under the cover of night i am myself. i cant depend on myself, the only certainty is uncertainty." i had recently put a plee out to my friends for help, no-one repied, so im left to confide to you. (sorry about my thoughts bein quite lyrical, but its what i do) er,, should i get help, how do i solve this. i honestly think im goin to be lonely forever