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The missing piece - Depression "I know life is beautiful!" his voice screeched in deep despair "I can see it every day, all around me. I see it in their eyes and in their smiles... But I cannot FEEL it! What good is all this beauty, love and happiness around me when I cannot actually feel it myself? I grew tired of this tantalizing agony. It's all around me, but I lack the capability to experience it. And I grew hopeless with trying to find the part that would enable me to feel these things; it always ended as a disillusion." He looked up, a weird mix of emotions in his eyes I had never seen before, yet sadness did not appear to be one of them. "You cannot begin to understand how it feels to see how you could be happy like everybody else, but that some kind of devious malfunction in your being cripples you. I know the beauties of this world. I can say I know them even better then somebody who claims to be happy. You see, my search to feel it as well was a long and desperate one. And I discovered and saw so much, so incredibly much. But never did I find what I was looking for, what I needed. And I began to think, maybe death is the missing part. Maybe I need to die before I can be happy. And if my death does not bring me my missing part, then at least it will bring me blissful oblivion. Where I won't be painfuly reminded each day. I made up my mind. Don't think I do this because I hate the world, because I don't. I simply see how beautiful she really is and it's too much for me to bear."