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<b>Okay, so, I really need some advice about something, cause, idk wtf to do... There's this guy, I've known him 5 1/2 years now and We've been on and off for a while... In 07 we were engaged... The night before we were gonna get married, he cheated on me... with a 14 yr old boy..(he was 18)... Well, I was dumb enough to STILL get married to him even after that... He ended up going to prison cause the asshole wanted him to leave me for him, and he didn't want to so he turned him in... Well, he was in for about a month when i bailed him out... He promised me in all his letters that he'd never talk to him again, well a week after he was out, he did, of course, then got mad at me for being pissed off about it, Then one night, he was drunk, and trippin, and got kinda abusive.... threatened to kill me... he was above me on the bed, with a sword, ready to do it, (I couldn't fucking move..) Then, he fell over, and passed out... Any sane person would've gtfo of there then, and called the cops, but, I didn't... I was in shock... Well I confronted him about it when he woke up and he supposedly didn't remember any of it but started calling all his friends and telling them about it.... few months later, he kept going back and forth to spend time with that asshole... I wasn't allowed to be depressed/pissed... even if I was getting harassed everyday... i was supposed to just accept it... Everyone told me to leave and i deserve better... but, I loved him, reguardless of everything.. and thought that i just wasn't ever gonna find love if i left him... IN july 08 I got pregnant... and moved to a new place, he took off and left me there all alone, in a freezing cold apartment, to be with that pos... and i believe some girls, too... He came back, and a few weeks later, went to his sentencing... He ended up getting 2-5 years... Well, I moved in with my mom, while i was preg, I ened up having to give my son up for adoption... cause of everything... I know I sound insane, But, apart of me still loves him... He'll be out in 8 months, and wrote to me and swears that he's changed, and doesn't wanna lose me again, wants to marry me again, wont ever talk to that asshole ever again,, or do any of the shit he did in 07-08... I wanna believe him, but, Idk if I should... My mom's never been wrong before about things, and she's said she has a terrible feeling if I do get back with him.. so, I'm really just looking for advice, Should I move on, and find someone who wont do that shit or give him a chance? and no, I'm not looking for pity or anything..