May 23 2012, 10:59 AM

Sorry, for the way I stare Forgive me, for the way I think of you Pardon me, for dreaming all about you And do understand, the way I love you If you just knew what it is like this way I shiver when you’re near I stare at you just to seize the day I act so strange if you’re around I feel my heart smile when I see you I brag endlessly uttering words about you And I’d be hurt just the thought you can’t be mine If you just knew how long I’ve been hidin’ The secret of my affection, admiration I have I never want you to notice That I’m simply falling in love But I hate the way I feel this pain The pain, the fear of not wanting you to know Or even just to give you a single clue For I fear to face rejection and humiliation If I’d think about how I acted when you’re near I think I’m gonna regret those things Coz I assume I got lost that moment Trembling, gasping for what to do and say If I just knew how to be myself with you If only I knew what’s in your mind Then, I didn’t have to act someone else If tomorrow comes that you’d learn The way I see you, the way I feel for you Please...I never want you to turn away Let me love the sight of you I’m really glad to have found you I confess, that it hurts so bad falling for you I can never grace my heart way to you I guess I have to stay this way With your presence so heart away I’d be unnoticed, unseen and unloved by you I do hope it’s alright If I’d be loving you silently You don’t have to worry I have nothing to ask for Although I know it can’t be Just let me be this way Maybe for a while, for a moment Or maybe it could be forever.

Apr 21 2012, 07:00 PM

The soldier falls to the ground The battle lost again The wound on his arm bleeds freely The weapon had struck a vein He lay staring at his cut Bleeding over his fallen form But what’s that upon his lips? A smile, beaten and worn The cuts never deep enough The want never so strong But the gun raises to his head And explodes with the blast of a gong He tried so hard to make it He prayed and had support But in the end, pain broke him down His will began to contort He knew what he wanted; he wasn’t insane He had it planned out from the start Though his family would be in pain for years It was what he wanted in his heart.

Apr 21 2012, 06:47 PM

I've never cried this hard before, set off by the simpliest thing, and I can't be saved from the hate. Everything is wrong, And I can't fix anything, It makes me feel sick, worthless. I'm sorry I'm not superman, That I can't control everything, That I can't stop hurting. I try to get back to old times, But living in the past is cruel, And I hurt so much. I don't know what to do, Seeing you kiss him, Even if it meant nothing. What have you done to me? What is this feeling, This sensation of breaking, of despair? Is this what heartbreak is? No, Because this is much worse than that.

Mar 23 2012, 10:25 PM

The full moon glows down upon this empty town Another gunshot another scream but I ignore I ignore it all again I raven lands upon my fence a sign of death A sign of pain a sign for the lost and forgotten but I ignore I ignore it all again Another tear fell silent from the eye of my mother A scared whimper from my younger sibling but I ignore I ignore it all again A howl at the moon a tap on the glass of my dirty window The reapers here he's coming he's hunting me still but I ignore I ignore it all again A shadow on my wall the dead embrace and smother me A tap a footstep they beckon me still but I ignore I ignore it all again I numb as I step into the abyss the pain is infanite and the darkness is constant The blood runs thick though I've bled for a while the warmth comforts me as it runs down my palm but I ignore I ignore it all again This is my night My moon My darkness my abyss My time The memories I had wont fade nor remain but disapear into oblivion Like tears in the rain The reaper calls death is at my door I answer not prepared to ignore anymore I wasted my life in ignorance and now it's gone It didn't fade Nor remain But disapear Like tears in the rain.

Mar 23 2012, 10:23 PM

What have you wrought? A miasma of agony as perceptions writhes Once we’ve savored innocence But your thirst died Unstained in hand and hand A vengeful morass of agony Emotions follow darkness, follow pain Love taken away In a haze of hatred I condemn you The stars pour out their tears To wash us in our sin But the vitae still remains To drown us in our pain again Now all we know is grieving Bleeding My last breath I shall take In hopes that I will never wake Though blackness shades my eyes I will always find my place among the ashes Shall the disease surface Putting me in the place whereI belong The place where I long to be Lost, alone, and cold Through better or for worst May I be punished for the worst? And only the darkest curse Blood can now drown my love Blood can now eat away my heart And shall lies be burned And my life I shall throw away For the haze in which is burdened upon me Be depressed in pain for all eternity Life is now gone But may the pain live on.