I'm planted in this skin, (constricting and pulling me)
This dirty filthy skin(rancid and stinging me)
I burn behind the walls,(that have become my world)
The bearer of a gift, fuck your gift!!
TRUTH DOES NOT EXIST, but the lies do... Per(Version) of A Truth, by Mudvayne
Scarlet Saturnz
24 / Female / ButtFuck, United States
Pansexual
Member since:
Jun 03, 2018
Last online:
Jun 04, 2018
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About Me
I'm actually really silly and derpy :3 I really love movies, anime, and almost any Netflix original series.. umm I can be really boring sometimes, but I LOVE having fun and partying.
Favourite Music
My ¡fav¡ genre is doom metal- it's sounds super sexy, gloomy, and brutal- like there's an apocalypse going on but you're just chilling and smoking a joint with your closest friends & you've all accepted your inevitable doom<3
I love almost any type of metal, I also love post hardcore, punk, (thrash is like rad), reggae for the smooth times, classical violin if I'm feeling fancy, and occasionally I will engage in song with aquintances by singing along to pop music from our childhood, but it's not like anyone can help it cx
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Education / Occupation
Who I'd Like To Meet
Someone who I could talk to, lightly flirt with, have deep convos with<3
Dear umm journal, cx
~ ~ I've been pretty emo my whole life, I never called myself emo or scene, but I always knew I was a little different. My actual friends know that I'm full of emotions and hard to explain feelings, and that me being this way doesn't mean I'm less than anyone else or a burden to them. I am not like most of my peers though, I am in between normal and insane. When people notice scars on me, they tend to do one of 2 things:
Have a sudden change in feeling such as, get startled, creeped out, saddened, triggered, or disgusted..
Or they totally ignore it.
■When they ignore it, I either think they really didn't notice, or they don't want me to cry or something. I'm not gonna cry over old scars or even get angry. If anybody asks, I'll act like I don't know what they're talking about, say it's from a cat, or just say it was because I was stupid. Most people think I'm crazy or begging for attention, but I don't show people. It's not for sympathy or recognition. What I do to my body is just for myself. Sometimes I push back a ton of feelings and I need a release. Sometimes I don't feel real so I need a reminder.. Sometimes i miss feeling pain that is actually physically real rather than just all in my head.
■This might all sound like a pathetic cry for help, a young teen in denial, or a very edgy point of view, but it's actually me. I've had such an unfortunate life, and even though I constantly think about how it could be way worse-so I should love my life- I still feel like this life is not enough and neither am I. ♡Hopefully joining this sight♡ will help me feel better by exposing myself to other people who might be like me.. if it doesn't I guess I'll just go back to hiding in my shell :c
I hope life gets way better from here.
