Wasted life in futile search, Looking for reflections of your hope,
Distorted by your veil of tears, you cry, you cry, Your loss, your years, your hopes your tears, In an endless night of death Unhappy ending or begining of the end, by Rosepetals and Bloodshed
Erica O
28 / Female / Wisconsin, United States
Not Sure / In a Relationship
Member since:
Apr 04, 2012
Last online:
Jun 08, 2012
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About Me
Konnichwa, I'm Erica J. Olsen. I live in a small town in Wisconsin, and always has (and hates it!). I'm a very open minded and a nice person. You can tell me anything, and I won't say a word no matter what.I love animals, anime,music, and drawing. I write my own lyrics and dream to be in a metal band, and I won't give up my dream. I try to stand tall, but end up falling from memories and stress. I stand up for my friends. I've been told I'm funny? Lol. I'm not bi... well idk. I like boobies, but that's it. (WTF!) LOL and just to warn you before any adds I AM ATHIEST. I DON'T BELIVE IN GOD, AND I DON'T BELIVE JESUS WAS A IMPORTANT PERSON. NO HEAVEN NO HELL, NO GOD NO DEVIL. NO PROBLEMS. I accept your other faiths, just don't fuck with mine. :3 Anyways, I like meeting new people online like me. I don't reject anyone who will except me. I'm open to share my facebook and my skype. :) please add me.
Favourite Music
My Chemical Romance, Asking Alexandria, Trivuim, Blood On The Dancefloor, Dear Whoever, Snow White's Poison Bite, Green Day, Blink-182, Sum 41, All That Remains, Falling In Reverse, Escape The Fate,
Favourite Films / TV / Books
King of the hill, The Simpsons, South Park, Family Guy, American Dad, the boondocks, Naurto, When they cry, Another, melcome in the middle (I suck at spelling)
Manga? Shit that makes me cry Anything in poem or lyric form Otherwise I don't read
Education / Occupation
High school A JOB soon.
Who I'd Like To Meet
Anyone who's willing to know me and be friends. :)
Letters To
Who have you become
You let them get to your head
It shouldnt matter
It shouldnt bother
LOve
LOve is true
Love is found
So dont let our love drown!
The man
This world
The one they call god
They say this is wrong
But its oh so right!
I can feel it
no fright
I'll protect you
I wont let them take you away
If something happens its all my fault
I take the blame
Im the one to shame
So I'll pull the trigger to make up my mistake
So dont let me keep myself awake
Just to cry
Cry because you let them get to you...
To you
My love
They dont know what it means
To feel so right
But it be so wrong
They dont know
What love is!
I knoww What It means
NO matter what THEY say
I will mean this
I will not hide this
LOVE is not a LIE
feel this stinging
ringing
i can feel it bringing me downnn
You know
Im sensitve when it comes to being the top one
Im not right
because love should be hidden
and if your not happy
LEAVE
LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE
IF THATS WHAT YOU ALWAYS WANTED
LEAVE ME HERE TO DROWND
LET THEIR INGNORINCE CRUIFY
Im not worth the risk
im not worth a breath
so grab a girl whos closer to you
than me
because im dragging you down
3 years is just too long
All of a sudden
3 years is a big deal
when its LOVE
and loves only age is
Forever. NOw. Let me drown..
HEY
Im not on alot.
Actually, this is the first time in about 2 months.
SOO if your actually going to talk to me email at
imstillhere93@gmail.com
and you can maybe get my facebook.
dont be a creeper.
Sorry for inconvinence.
Erica
Easter. I dont get it.
Jesus died for christianity.
Why dont they have a holiday for people like us who die because of bullies fucking with our style and way of life?
its bs. i think we should have a holiday too.
Jesus is one person.
how many people like us have died because of bullies?
do the math
Internet isn't working at my house. So I'm on my phone using the internet. Damnt. Its so hard to see everything. WORK DAMN YOU!!!!!!
>.<
Thanks for being here for me All That Remains.
FUCK.
Fuck the world. Fuck you. Fuck the people. Fuck life. Fuck everything. Fuck humanity. Fuck myself. Fuck this house. Fuck your religon. Fuck your god. Fuck your belifes. Fuck this land. Fuck this ocean. Fuck my body. Fuck my face. Fuck these scares. Fuck the perverts. Fuck the day. Fuck the night. Fuck the world. Fuck my hair. Fuck my money. Fuck them all. Fuck the damned. Fuck your family. Fuck the fucked.
Just... fuck. It has many meanings.
White walls. Blank mind. What can I say? How can I say it so you'd remember my words, and you'd know how I feel? I miss you. My heart is about to leap out of my chest and run miles to get you.
I don't feel I'm ever close enough to you, even when our skin is close. I feel that I'm always doing something wrong, and maybe you'd be better off with someone else. Someone who doesn't cut themselves, or have breakdowns, and always worries. I mean. I'm 16, and you'll be 19 in over a month. No one will ever belive you when you say 'someday I will marry erica, and have a family with her'. He'd get weird looks, like he's fucken crazy. Like 2 years and 2 months is so distant between our ages.
Love shouldn't have an age limit. Its bullshit.I keep wondering about the future... and it scares me. Shit. What do I do... I want to be with you, but I don't want to drag you down.
What do you do when you feel helpless and there is no one one to turn to? The only thing keeping me alive is the word 'someday'. Someday is in 2 years, when me and my bf will have our own house, the job of my dreams, be married, and eventually having a kid. Somday... is far away. I'm waiting. But maybe I should just relize he'd make it without me. What if I fuck everything up? Does he even love me like I love him... will he treat me like shit later?
Maybe someday, shouldn't come. Maybe I should just end it. End the pain I will cause and the misfourtion I will bring. I know what id write. I know how id do it. But should I? Is it worth waiting? Or should I just remember that I won't ever have a happy ending...
