All I have is my mind to keep me entertained because there is no one else to talk to apart from my family who just shout and argue! Why can't I be liked and accepted? Just because I am fucking different! Life, by Kar_Athri
Kristal
33 / Female / Alabamer, United States
Straight / In a Relationship
Member since:
Feb 13, 2013
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Mar 05, 2013
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About Me
muh name is Kristal Lashae. im weird. i type in all lowercase. theres a whole lot of crazyiness to me, for example i love: anime, mangas, rpg games, alternative music, country music, FISHING, huntin, CHICKENS! (used to be a chicken farmer and i loved it) camping, random people, fuzzy objects, skulls, colored hair, so much JEWLRY youre like wtf that doesnt even look right together, smiles, WRITING, reading, STRANGE LOOKS, laughing, learning, taking odd pictures, sleeping, and hyper moments. my mind changes so quickly its rather annoying. i have two mental illnesses. mental illness #1: generalized/social anxiety. mental illness #2: obsessive compulsive disorder. im a hard person to keep up with simply because i never know what im gonna learn to love next. im a smiley person, very friendly tho shy an socially ackward, im also very blunt and opinionated. im deffiiently not perfect and if rubbed the wrong way i can be mean but mostly it tamad. thats about it. get to know me??
Favourite Music
awolnation.. art of dying.. blacklisted me.. skillet.. ghost town.. breaking benjamin.. paramore.. theory of a deadman.. seether.. shinedown.. hot chelle rae.. abandon all ships.. mumford and sons.. utada hikuru.. skrillex.. the pretty reckless.. 3 doors down.. good charolette.. fall out boy.. 30 seconds to mars.. katy perry.. taking back sunday.. my chemical romance.. bullet for my valentine.. owl city.. brantley gilbert.. george jones.. colt ford.. justin moore..
no this isnt all of my favourites just the ones i listen to at the moment and before anyone makes a comment about country music being in there yes it is also my favourite genre im very nuetral with my music. im also currently looking for new bands to listen to at the moment and maybe add to my mp3 so feel free to throw in suggestions
Favourite Films / TV / Books
hardcore pawn.. lizard lick towing.. american idol.. survivor.. man vs wild.. south park.. the big bang theory.. married with children.. ....thats pretty much all tv i watch because i watch all my anime online so.. yea unless YOUTUBE counts
the shawshank redemption.. rent.. fireproof.. to save a life.. cyber bully.. flicka.. facing the giants.. ghost rider.. the green mile.. the texas chainsaw massacre.. hairspray.. the hannah montanna movie.. twilight series.. vampires suck.. queen of the damned.. the mummy.. young guns.. hope floats.. fried green tomatoes.. sweet home alabama.. TOO MANY
twilight series.. house of night series.. self help thingys..
manga: bitter virgin.. inukami.. spice and wolf.. rosario+vampire.. venus vs virus.. bleach.. TOO MANY
Education / Occupation
my occupation is being a bum because i have anxiety and am socially as well as just normally ackward so.. i get to sit on the bed and couch all day. yay me.
i graduated homeschool in 2012 because public school was just too much for me
Who I'd Like To Meet
i hope to meet jesus one day.. but with that being said i'd like to meet other people who suffer from the same kind of mental illnesses i do that'd be pretty cool and.. maybe leda muir i have a heterosexual crush on her
A sunny day of blue and white now dark, cold, and grey
18 years old, a desperate soul, a girl that'd lost her way
Vicitimized, stripped of pride, innocense betrayed
the let down, talk of the town
As silent misery partakes
A heart so warm now bruised and torn,
Smiling so fake
Desperate hope, pleading prayers, answers she seeks to find..
Day after day she fades away in to the past behind
Overrun with pain, full of hate, she loses her sober mind
18 years old she lost her soul
to a foolish young man's lie
..please no judgments this has very personal meaning to it and my life.. i was raped from my virginity at 18
The blood here on my hands, it is my own
Not sure where it is to call my home
Confused and unsure where do I go
I have no hope
Not sure what it is Im running from but i must run
My heart is bleeding
I try to escape day after day from a mind thats crippling
Too much worry, too much pain
My heart's steady ripping;
Lord give me strength
Lord give me mercy
I am dying
You see me smile, you think im strong, but i am wounded..
You dont know what Ive gone through.
You seem to think that I am perfect, Well im here to be a witness that thats not true.
You see a face that I fake everyday.. Id not dare show u my hearts misplaced.
You say that i wouldnt understand u, i may understand a little more.
You say that i am capable of anything but do u know my only goal is just to be?
I lack more than I show u
Im convinced pretending is the key.
Ive not learned another way to be ok because i cant accept the fact im hurtin.
It seems that ive lost touch with who i am.
You say i look for pity.. I tell u now i am ashamed.
Did u know this is my cry for mercy?
Im not sure how to help myself.
I depend on others for care.
You see, that is the story of my life, u now know someone so happy lives a lie in black in white.