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xMeskimo

Meskimo
20 / Male / Texas, United States
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since: Nov 14, 2019
Last online: Jan 05, 2022

Current rating: 7.1/10 (12 votes cast)

About Me

(I'm not a poser)

Hi! My name is Meskimo. I don't really socialize a lot on here due to me being extremely introverted and antisocial. The meaning behind my artist name Meskimo is a bit odd, really The M in Meskimo means mexican (i'm latino), and eskimo I got that from a verse from a snippet of Tay K's lost song called Star Spangled. I'm an upcoming emo rapper/rockstar/singer that'll represent the whole emo community in the near future. Check my music out below on the links I have provided and tell me what you think, thx 


About me: 

• Shy

• I like recoloring bases/template drawings 

• Love music to death

• Into paranormal/scary stuff/urban legends

• I believe I'm a dead teen who died in 1997 only to reincarnate 6 years later 

• An anarchist 

• Furry 

• The quiet kid 

• I suffer from depression, social anxiety, and anxiety in general 

• Got multiple personalities

Favourite Music

Music genres: screamo, nu-metal, trap, alternative rock, rock in general, punk rock (mostly now as of 9/15/21), classic rock, nightcore, rap, metal, drill rap, game OST's, sad music, pop, latin music, emo rap, lo-fi, power metal/speed metal, scenecore, ragtime, darkwave, noise music, black metal, shock rap (like rap about illegal stuff like snuff, gore, etc)

Bands/groups/people I listen to: Canned Heat, Green Day, MCR, Panic! At The Disco, Relient K, Cage9, Saosin, Linkin Park, Primer 55 (disbanded), System of A Down, Mower (rare band), Nickelback, Mudvayne (disbanded), AC/DC, Mötley Crüe, Bad Religion, Stone Temple Pilots, Left Out (disbanded/rare band), Bring Me The Horizon, Slipknot, Nirvana, Sleeping With Sirens, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Cannibal Corpse, Pennywise (Pennywisdom), NOFX, Misfits, Silverstein, Pierce The Veil, Sex Pistols (disbanded), Asking Alexandria, The Distillers, Killswitch Engage, Trivium, Scar The Martyr, Bad Seed Rising (disbanded), Slayer, Korn, Osaka Popstar, Dragonforce, Battlecross, BrokeNYCDE, Paramore, Motionless In White, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Disturbed, teen suicide *I listen to them the most*, A Day To Remember, Hawthorne Heights, Taking Back Sunday, Gang Green (disbanded), Rob Zombie, Bullet For My Valentine, Machine Head, Carnivore, Blink-182, Danzig, Baroness, Corrosion of Conformity, Skinless, Entombed, Rancid, Propaghandi, Bloodsimple, All That Remains, Motograter (disbanded), Earshot, 40 Below Summer, Avatar, Seasons After, Reche (rare band), DevilDriver, Saving Abel, Rising Against, Systematic (disbanded), Suicidal Tendencies, The Ramones (disbanded), Kill Cheerleader (disbanded/rare band), Midnight Towers (rare band), Giant Drag, The Matadors, Single Mothers, Brat Kings (rare band), †13th MOON† (rare band), Oddly Shrugs, 7XVN, Skillet, Elvis Presley, Guns N' Roses, Mindless Self Indulgence, Alice In Chains, Kill Creek (disbanded), Derrick Branch, Papa Roach, The Smashing Pumpkins, Funeral For A Friend, WeAreAllZombies (rare), The Dead Kennedys, A Perfect Circle, The Cure, Tribulation, Dvne, Tokio Hotel, AJJ, Behemoth, Black Flag, SECRETS, All Time Low, Famous Last Words, Your Brand New Obsession, Megadeth, Palaye Royale (Kropp Circle), Hit The Lights, Agnostic Front, GG Allin, Subhumans

*UPDATE: APRIL 16, 2021* Gonna stop naming people/bands/groups. I listen to so many groups/bands/people that I don't have the time to name everyone that I listen to. Thank you all, hope you understand

Favourite Films / TV / Books

Movies: Ladder 49, The Alamo, The Village, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, The Pollar Express, Hellraiser, Chronicle, The Eletric Piper (2003 Nickelodeon Premiere movie. RARE), Wayne, The Escape Room, 8 Mile, My Bloody Valentine 3D (2009), The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (all movies), Halloween (all movies), Friday the 13th (all movies), Drag Me to Hell, Jennifer's Body, Beetlejuice, Oz the Great and Powerful, SAW (all movies), 100 Tears, Joker (2019), The Nun, Scream (all movies), Scary Movie (all movies), Zombieland, Warm Bodies, Dead Snow, The Dead, Day of the Dead (2008), Dawn of the Dead (2004), Night of the Living Dead (1990), Land of the Dead (2005), World War Z, The Crazies, Children of the Corn (all movies), The Faculty (1998), 30 Days of Night, Romeo + Juliet (1996), Gnomeo and Juliet (2011), Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle (2017), Cry Baby Lane (2000, rare film), Beetlejuice, REC (all movies), They Live, Soylent Green, Hidden Figures, Inuyasha the Movie: Affections Touching Across Time, Edward Scissorhands, Inuyasha the Movie 2: The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass, Fast and Furious: Hobbs and Shaw, Inuyasha the Movie 3: Swords of an Honorable Ruler, Inuyasha the Movie 4: Fire on the Mystic Island, Atomic Twister, Rugrats (all movies), Baby Driver, Ghost In The Shell, My Friend Dahmer, Disaster Movie, The Black Hole, Free Birds, The Last Boy, The Last Descent, Ephraim's Rescue, Alabama Moon, Mazes And Monsters, Out of Liberty, Trading Mom, Bait Shop, Bob the Butler, 2:HRS, The Fighting Preacher, Little Men, Slam Dunk Ernest, Finding Altamira, Earth Girls Are Easy, Digimon Adventure tri: Reunion, Blacula, Futureworld, Wanda Nevada, Christmas Story, Dr. No, Live and Let Die, The Spy Who Loved Me, For Your Eyes Only, Octopussy, Rio Lobo, Rebound, Zookeeper, Beat Street, Support Your Local Sheriff!, Support Your Local Gunfighter, Cooley High, The First Time, The Adventures Of Tintin, Shaolin Soccer, The Fix It Boys, The White Buffalo Shows: X-Men (1992), Are You Afraid of the Dark? (1990), Drake and Josh, iCarly, Spongebob, Two and a Half Men, Full House, Friends, Beavis and Butt-Head, Teen Titans, Adventure Time, Steven Universe, Clarence, Doug, The Wild Thornberrys, Double Dare, Rocket Power, Blue Clues, Maggie and the Ferocious Beast, Little Bill, Malcolm in the Middle, Bob's Burgers, COPS, Beyond Scared Straight (2010's version), South Park, Behind Bars: Rookie Year, But I'm a Cheerleader

Anime: Cheeky Angel, Attack on Titan, Prison School, KenIchi: The Mightiest Disciple, Inuyasha, Fire Force, Ghost In The Shell, My Hero Academia, Black Lagoon, The Devil is a Part-Timer!, Sword Art Online, Serial Experiments Lain, Ouran High School Host Club, Black Butler, Steins;Gate, Fairy Tail, Sonic X, Actually, I Am... (My Monster Secret)

Documentaries: More Than a Game

Education / Occupation

Education:  - High school graduate (5/27/21)

Former occupation:

- Juvenile inmate (days spent: 6 & a half days. 1/16/20 - 1/22/20) 

- Psych ward patient (days spent: 6 & a half days. 1/22/20 - 1/28/20) 

Occupation: 

- Full time emo rapper/rockstar/singer, songwriter, and lyric writer. (June 2018 - Present)

- Part time remake drawing artist

Who I'd Like To Meet

Future fans of mine, internet friends, celebs, etc

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Feb 11 2020, 03:11 AM
Something that I'm never gonna bring up outta this site is my juvenile detention center experience and my psych ward experience, why? because I feel like I can post anything I want here without being judged and because basically this site soEmo.co.uk has become a site where I can post updates on myself and shit. So anyways first lemme start by talking more about my juvy experience since I've become more comfortable now: My experience in juvy was the worst, if not possibly the worst 6 & a half days (that's how long I actually spent in there) there. From my perspective, me and some other inmates (one guy who I recognized from school) mostly watched TV since that's the only thing the warden and whoever else let us watch, or we could pick out a movie. On my first day in juvie there was only 2 inmates (3 counting me), and little did I know that eventually one of them would actually be a bad guy from a friend of mine that I knew back in school. Anyways so yea he has his own issues, I got mine. On my very first day, I exchanged outta my clothes into a white shirt, prison boxers, an orange inmate shirt w/ orange slacks that didn't even fit me and some socks. It's crazy because I didn't know what to expect bruh I mean I was arrested on a Thursday with no warning. So anyways after I got dressed, the warden there gave me a blanket with the cover on it and everything I needed for my stay here and just to let yall know, the blankets and everything else looked old and raggedy like fuck. So anyways after all that fixing up in my cell, I went to the lunch/main room and worked on some math since that's what my 2 friends were doing at the time so yeah. After math time was over, we watched some TV until lunch was here. Once the guy that was delivering our lunch came, we had to go back into our cells until the lunch was brought inside so after the lunch was inside, we were called out of our cells 1 by 1. I grabbed my lunch tray and the 2 did aswell (we eat together fyi). So anyways yeah my first day was stressful because I didn't know what to do since I was new and skipping ahead blah blah blah after we ate lunch, we had to line back up and go back to our cells until our lunch trays were outta sight so the remainder of the day we watched TV until our final snack came (which was around 6 or 7 PM) along with watching TV until 8 which was shower time, then we'd be put to sleep with our cell lights on. On my first day sleeping in there, I couldn't sleep with the lights on because I wasn't used to bright lights glaring down on me. This process would repeat every single day until my court hearing which was on my 5th day in juvy. The worst that could have possibly happen is a school friend of mine being sentenced to 10 days in juvenile (he's probably out by now) and keep in mind aswell this was a school friend of mine. I've actually known this guy since 8th grade. To the day I first met until now, it's just crazy seeing him in the same juvy as me. So anyways after his court hearing was over, the judge was ready for me but since it was my first time here, I wasn't sentenced to 10 days but I were to be placed in a mental hospital for an evaluation of what could've possibly triggered the way went off on a guy in school on Snapchat. So yeah I stayed in juvie for 1 more day until the next day, that's when I finally left after 6 and a half days since I left juvie in the morning One thing I'm never gonna forget is a warden over at the juvenile detention center telling us (now 4, used to be 2 inmates, then 5) inmates his stories of being a correctional officer in some jails. He told me he seen inmates with their throats slit, hanged, guys shitting themselves, etc. I was like holy shit but at the same time he made everything funny by mocking what people have said to him. So yes overall my time in juvie was not a place to be for me but I'm just glad I even left because I wasn't gonna last in there. Juvie is not for me
Feb 04 2020, 09:01 PM
NEVER. Mind me while I sit and pretend to make amends With all these false loves I pray the cement Will fuckin swallow you.. I'll follow you down road To this broken hearted love for you.. My heart has gone as still as a corpse.
Feb 02 2020, 12:57 AM
DEAD.
Jan 29 2020, 10:19 PM
I doubt anyone is gonna read this journal entry but lemme talk to yall about the time I went to juvie and a mental hospital: So it was on a Thursday, January 16, and I was at the alternative school for my 180 day suspension and all of a sudden my ex assistant principal from my high school (now working at my alternative school) told me to go to the main office and told me if I had signed out of my chromebook (I was assigned a chromebook and at the time I didn't have any work for any of my teachers so I was playing The Last Stand: Union City to pass time) so I said yea (lied about that) and thought it was just a simple talk and all of a sudden I saw 2 to 3 police officers waiting for me and once I was in there, one of them said: "Are you [insert my name here]?" and I said "yea" and he told me that charges were filed against me and I was to be put under arrest. At the time I was fuckin scared because like at the time I didn't know what was going on until it was too late because once I left my alternative school, I got inside the police car and I was literally shaking because this is my first time getting arrested. Anyways after that, I went to my local town's police department for my registration and all that before heading to the juvenile detention that I would be sent to for 6 and a half days. On that same day I was arrested, I talked to my mom on the phone and shit and like after that phone call, I went to juvie. Tuesday, January 21, I had a court hearing to attend to along with another buddy of mine who I knew since I was in 8th grade. Anyways me and him went to court and the judge sentenced him to 10 days (today is his 8th day in there) and in my mind I was like: "holy fuck did I really witness one of my friends get sentenced to 10 days??" and after he left the courtroom it was my turn next and the judge found me guilty for my "terrorist threat" I made but didn't sentence me to 10 days (this was before I knew what was actually going on) so at the time I was just stressed the fuck out. After I left, little did I know that the next day (January 22) around 11 in the morning I would finally leave juvie and would head to my final stop, a mental hospital. So I stayed for 6 and a half days in the mental hospital aswell for an analysis to see what's wrong with me so they can get that hospital paperwork of mine and present it to the juvie department to possibly change my third degree felony to a misdemeanor. During my stay at the mental hospital, the first few days, next to my unit was the girls unit and they had a code green (meaning something bad was going down over there) and I was like "what the fuck is going on over there?" so yea. During my final days in the mental hospital, us boys/our unit finally had a code green. Our first code green was because of this guy name Kaden (however you spell his name) and like he's been through so many fuckin mental hospitals and in jail and like I saw 2 cops holding Kaden from his arms to transport him in a room where us patients were staying at and I was like "did this just happen?? oh my god" and then the next day we had a second code green. But this time it would be because of a fight that suddenly disrupted outta nowhere. It was a guy named Jose and a guy named Ja'Quan. Jose was fat and since he talks so ghetto, Jose thought Ja'Quan was talking about him and so they started fighting. The nurses and mentors from where I was staying put us in a different room to keep us safe but this room was cold as hell. Anyways after that, I was informed by a lady during group therapy that me, another guy, another guy, and another guy would be leaving and in my mind I was like: "FUCK YEAH!!" so yea that was it. Thank you for reading all of this to those who took the time to read all of this
Jan 15 2020, 12:05 PM
I had a nightmare today about my ex: So this nightmare started with her missing me to the point where she told me face to face that her parents died and also saying that "nothing's been the same since you left". I was trying to calm her down in the office while she was crying and that made her feel better so I told her to come sit with me during lunch and she said okay and that made her smile. So like after class I saw her and walked her to the cafeteria and then sat somewhere with a bunch of people and then.. I don't know what happened after that. The moment I ate my food... she disappeared. And.. I don't know why but that felt so real.. :(
Dec 28 2019, 08:23 PM
I don't know why my dream of the so called girl that broke up with me who left me to rot, never giving me a second chance to love her. I even still love her after this horrible breakup that should've never happened, I still love her even after she replaced me but I guess I wasn't good enough because lets be honest, I never wanted anybody else to leave my life but it's happened. I had another dream encounter with her... I was at some house and suddenly my family and her family were neighbors. I think this was taking place in the future but it looked like I was still 16 during this time. Anyways.. so I guess in this alternative world everybody has free Wi-Fi and her family's Wi-Fi was public so I decided to sneak in their house and connect to their Wi-Fi but mainly I wanted to see her again. She had an upstairs so I went up and I think I heard her playing some Sonic game from behind her room door. After that I think I left her house and that's all I remember from my dream before leaving her home quietly before heading inside my house after a long day. I always wonder.. is it actually true that whenever you think of someone, they think of you back?
Nov 16 2019, 11:32 PM
Had a wet dream last night... it was about my ex. Now usually I don't really encounter these type of dreams but when I do, it scares me.. or atleast it brings back memories that were once. This one was different and I don't usually talk about my ex but since really nobody is gonna bother viewing these journals of mine, I thought I would explain how my dream was/felt like: So it was me and her coming together for the first time in months (not relationship wise but seeing each other again seperately) in an alternative dimension in my head. My eyeliner was blacker than the starry night, my hair was as emo and edgy as possible, and here she was.. her head on my chest. Held her close to me, never letting go at a show/concert of mine after it was over with. I looked into her eyes, her eyes locked on mine, kissed for the first time in forever. This was all happening late at night (around 10 PM darktime somewhat) and she told me she got here by plane, just to see me again. She told me she didn't have anywhere to stay so I told her she could come along with me to my hotel room that I had rented during my stay at [REDACTED]. Me and her arrived at the hotel I was staying at and went to my room and had sex. Nothing could be better than to fucking your own soulmate and relieving the tension, anger, and stress from fucking this one girl that could change your feelings to love, passion, and ecstasy. I came inside her pussy and thus she fell asleep. What a night so unexpected but yet so memorable. Next morning I woke up and saw her up next to me all nude, then I woke up What a wet dream. Is God trying to tell me to shoot my shot even after me and her broke up? Or what is it that I was feeling? Felt so real..
Nov 16 2019, 02:54 AM
Since I'm a type of emo that listens to different music genres such as nu-metal, trap, altternative rock, rap and much more, I really wouldn't give a shit or care if any other emo doesn't fuck with rap, just don't spread your hatred about rap or trap by bragging about hating a genre constantly. That's when I SNAP.
Nov 14 2019, 06:09 AM
I dream and dream and dream and nothing ever happens. It's like every day I feel like I'm distancing myself from the public due to my anti-socialness. I cannot tell you all how I feel. I always wondered what it would feel like if I cut my wrist or face up with a blade or razor, maybe that'll release some tension, anger, depression, and stress building up inside me as I drown in my own tears year after year. There's something missing in my life that I dearly miss.. sadly I cannot make the next move because I'm not allowed to. Can't believe I came from hating emos to becoming an emo myself by 15. It's an honor being here with all of yall. Hope yall accept me for who I am. I suffer from severe depression, suicidal tendencies, social anxiety, ADHD and more so please go easy on me.. it would mean a lot :')

Feb 11 2020, 03:11 AM

Something that I'm never gonna bring up outta this site is my juvenile detention center experience and my psych ward experience, why? because I feel like I can post anything I want here without being judged and because basically this site soEmo.co.uk has become a site where I can post updates on myself and shit. So anyways first lemme start by talking more about my juvy experience since I've become more comfortable now: My experience in juvy was the worst, if not possibly the worst 6 & a half days (that's how long I actually spent in there) there. From my perspective, me and some other inmates (one guy who I recognized from school) mostly watched TV since that's the only thing the warden and whoever else let us watch, or we could pick out a movie. On my first day in juvie there was only 2 inmates (3 counting me), and little did I know that eventually one of them would actually be a bad guy from a friend of mine that I knew back in school. Anyways so yea he has his own issues, I got mine. On my very first day, I exchanged outta my clothes into a white shirt, prison boxers, an orange inmate shirt w/ orange slacks that didn't even fit me and some socks. It's crazy because I didn't know what to expect bruh I mean I was arrested on a Thursday with no warning. So anyways after I got dressed, the warden there gave me a blanket with the cover on it and everything I needed for my stay here and just to let yall know, the blankets and everything else looked old and raggedy like fuck. So anyways after all that fixing up in my cell, I went to the lunch/main room and worked on some math since that's what my 2 friends were doing at the time so yeah. After math time was over, we watched some TV until lunch was here. Once the guy that was delivering our lunch came, we had to go back into our cells until the lunch was brought inside so after the lunch was inside, we were called out of our cells 1 by 1. I grabbed my lunch tray and the 2 did aswell (we eat together fyi). So anyways yeah my first day was stressful because I didn't know what to do since I was new and skipping ahead blah blah blah after we ate lunch, we had to line back up and go back to our cells until our lunch trays were outta sight so the remainder of the day we watched TV until our final snack came (which was around 6 or 7 PM) along with watching TV until 8 which was shower time, then we'd be put to sleep with our cell lights on. On my first day sleeping in there, I couldn't sleep with the lights on because I wasn't used to bright lights glaring down on me. This process would repeat every single day until my court hearing which was on my 5th day in juvy. The worst that could have possibly happen is a school friend of mine being sentenced to 10 days in juvenile (he's probably out by now) and keep in mind aswell this was a school friend of mine. I've actually known this guy since 8th grade. To the day I first met until now, it's just crazy seeing him in the same juvy as me. So anyways after his court hearing was over, the judge was ready for me but since it was my first time here, I wasn't sentenced to 10 days but I were to be placed in a mental hospital for an evaluation of what could've possibly triggered the way went off on a guy in school on Snapchat. So yeah I stayed in juvie for 1 more day until the next day, that's when I finally left after 6 and a half days since I left juvie in the morning One thing I'm never gonna forget is a warden over at the juvenile detention center telling us (now 4, used to be 2 inmates, then 5) inmates his stories of being a correctional officer in some jails. He told me he seen inmates with their throats slit, hanged, guys shitting themselves, etc. I was like holy shit but at the same time he made everything funny by mocking what people have said to him. So yes overall my time in juvie was not a place to be for me but I'm just glad I even left because I wasn't gonna last in there. Juvie is not for me

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Feb 04 2020, 09:01 PM

NEVER. Mind me while I sit and pretend to make amends With all these false loves I pray the cement Will fuckin swallow you.. I'll follow you down road To this broken hearted love for you.. My heart has gone as still as a corpse.

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Feb 02 2020, 12:57 AM

DEAD.

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Jan 29 2020, 10:19 PM

I doubt anyone is gonna read this journal entry but lemme talk to yall about the time I went to juvie and a mental hospital: So it was on a Thursday, January 16, and I was at the alternative school for my 180 day suspension and all of a sudden my ex assistant principal from my high school (now working at my alternative school) told me to go to the main office and told me if I had signed out of my chromebook (I was assigned a chromebook and at the time I didn't have any work for any of my teachers so I was playing The Last Stand: Union City to pass time) so I said yea (lied about that) and thought it was just a simple talk and all of a sudden I saw 2 to 3 police officers waiting for me and once I was in there, one of them said: "Are you [insert my name here]?" and I said "yea" and he told me that charges were filed against me and I was to be put under arrest. At the time I was fuckin scared because like at the time I didn't know what was going on until it was too late because once I left my alternative school, I got inside the police car and I was literally shaking because this is my first time getting arrested. Anyways after that, I went to my local town's police department for my registration and all that before heading to the juvenile detention that I would be sent to for 6 and a half days. On that same day I was arrested, I talked to my mom on the phone and shit and like after that phone call, I went to juvie. Tuesday, January 21, I had a court hearing to attend to along with another buddy of mine who I knew since I was in 8th grade. Anyways me and him went to court and the judge sentenced him to 10 days (today is his 8th day in there) and in my mind I was like: "holy fuck did I really witness one of my friends get sentenced to 10 days??" and after he left the courtroom it was my turn next and the judge found me guilty for my "terrorist threat" I made but didn't sentence me to 10 days (this was before I knew what was actually going on) so at the time I was just stressed the fuck out. After I left, little did I know that the next day (January 22) around 11 in the morning I would finally leave juvie and would head to my final stop, a mental hospital. So I stayed for 6 and a half days in the mental hospital aswell for an analysis to see what's wrong with me so they can get that hospital paperwork of mine and present it to the juvie department to possibly change my third degree felony to a misdemeanor. During my stay at the mental hospital, the first few days, next to my unit was the girls unit and they had a code green (meaning something bad was going down over there) and I was like "what the fuck is going on over there?" so yea. During my final days in the mental hospital, us boys/our unit finally had a code green. Our first code green was because of this guy name Kaden (however you spell his name) and like he's been through so many fuckin mental hospitals and in jail and like I saw 2 cops holding Kaden from his arms to transport him in a room where us patients were staying at and I was like "did this just happen?? oh my god" and then the next day we had a second code green. But this time it would be because of a fight that suddenly disrupted outta nowhere. It was a guy named Jose and a guy named Ja'Quan. Jose was fat and since he talks so ghetto, Jose thought Ja'Quan was talking about him and so they started fighting. The nurses and mentors from where I was staying put us in a different room to keep us safe but this room was cold as hell. Anyways after that, I was informed by a lady during group therapy that me, another guy, another guy, and another guy would be leaving and in my mind I was like: "FUCK YEAH!!" so yea that was it. Thank you for reading all of this to those who took the time to read all of this

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Jan 15 2020, 12:05 PM

I had a nightmare today about my ex: So this nightmare started with her missing me to the point where she told me face to face that her parents died and also saying that "nothing's been the same since you left". I was trying to calm her down in the office while she was crying and that made her feel better so I told her to come sit with me during lunch and she said okay and that made her smile. So like after class I saw her and walked her to the cafeteria and then sat somewhere with a bunch of people and then.. I don't know what happened after that. The moment I ate my food... she disappeared. And.. I don't know why but that felt so real.. :(

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Dec 28 2019, 08:23 PM

I don't know why my dream of the so called girl that broke up with me who left me to rot, never giving me a second chance to love her. I even still love her after this horrible breakup that should've never happened, I still love her even after she replaced me but I guess I wasn't good enough because lets be honest, I never wanted anybody else to leave my life but it's happened. I had another dream encounter with her... I was at some house and suddenly my family and her family were neighbors. I think this was taking place in the future but it looked like I was still 16 during this time. Anyways.. so I guess in this alternative world everybody has free Wi-Fi and her family's Wi-Fi was public so I decided to sneak in their house and connect to their Wi-Fi but mainly I wanted to see her again. She had an upstairs so I went up and I think I heard her playing some Sonic game from behind her room door. After that I think I left her house and that's all I remember from my dream before leaving her home quietly before heading inside my house after a long day. I always wonder.. is it actually true that whenever you think of someone, they think of you back?

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Nov 16 2019, 11:32 PM

Had a wet dream last night... it was about my ex. Now usually I don't really encounter these type of dreams but when I do, it scares me.. or atleast it brings back memories that were once. This one was different and I don't usually talk about my ex but since really nobody is gonna bother viewing these journals of mine, I thought I would explain how my dream was/felt like: So it was me and her coming together for the first time in months (not relationship wise but seeing each other again seperately) in an alternative dimension in my head. My eyeliner was blacker than the starry night, my hair was as emo and edgy as possible, and here she was.. her head on my chest. Held her close to me, never letting go at a show/concert of mine after it was over with. I looked into her eyes, her eyes locked on mine, kissed for the first time in forever. This was all happening late at night (around 10 PM darktime somewhat) and she told me she got here by plane, just to see me again. She told me she didn't have anywhere to stay so I told her she could come along with me to my hotel room that I had rented during my stay at [REDACTED]. Me and her arrived at the hotel I was staying at and went to my room and had sex. Nothing could be better than to fucking your own soulmate and relieving the tension, anger, and stress from fucking this one girl that could change your feelings to love, passion, and ecstasy. I came inside her pussy and thus she fell asleep. What a night so unexpected but yet so memorable. Next morning I woke up and saw her up next to me all nude, then I woke up What a wet dream. Is God trying to tell me to shoot my shot even after me and her broke up? Or what is it that I was feeling? Felt so real..

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Nov 16 2019, 02:54 AM

Since I'm a type of emo that listens to different music genres such as nu-metal, trap, altternative rock, rap and much more, I really wouldn't give a shit or care if any other emo doesn't fuck with rap, just don't spread your hatred about rap or trap by bragging about hating a genre constantly. That's when I SNAP.

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Nov 14 2019, 06:09 AM

I dream and dream and dream and nothing ever happens. It's like every day I feel like I'm distancing myself from the public due to my anti-socialness. I cannot tell you all how I feel. I always wondered what it would feel like if I cut my wrist or face up with a blade or razor, maybe that'll release some tension, anger, depression, and stress building up inside me as I drown in my own tears year after year. There's something missing in my life that I dearly miss.. sadly I cannot make the next move because I'm not allowed to. Can't believe I came from hating emos to becoming an emo myself by 15. It's an honor being here with all of yall. Hope yall accept me for who I am. I suffer from severe depression, suicidal tendencies, social anxiety, ADHD and more so please go easy on me.. it would mean a lot :')

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