Jun 12 2016, 03:06 AM

So, I'm not entirely sure how a journal is meant to be, I haven't really kept one since I was small. I'm also not even sure if other people read these or not, so I'm going to assume it'll just be me for future reflection. But on the off chance other do see this.. hi, and this is going to be more of a story.. with some truth to it. For privacy reasons, names of people and places will be changed. Okay... Just another day with the smell of burning coffee in the same place, everyday. "Here you are ma'am, that'll be $4.50. Is there anything else I can get for you?" I say, as automatic as a robot. In this place, I feel out of character. My hair is usually all over the place, because you know who even has time for that kind of thing? But today, its a multitude of colors blue, purple and black all sleeked back into a high pony-tail. "No thank you dear, that'll be all." Susan said, a regular customer at work. She was a nice elderly lady who smelt of old people and moth balls. I watched her take her brew and retreat to find a seat. That must be nice. I thought to myself, I'd been standing here for over 3 hours without a break and my feet were starting to cramp. Around half an hour later Zane walked in the self opening doors with Rebecca, Kylie and Isla is tow. My face lit up immediately, it had been a few days since I had seen my friends. "How do I make a complaint? There's this barista here that keeps making me some shitty coffee." Zane smirked. "You walk outside and go fuck yourself." I grinned back. "When do you get off?" He asked, looking back at the girls. Kylie looked particularly bored. Her and I weren't exactly friends, just friends of friends that hung out together. I rolled my eyes at her and looked back at Zane, my best friend, who was still grinning. "In about another half an hour or so." "Get Maria to cover for you." At that point Maria looked over, She sighed "Just go." I hugged her, "I owe you!" I called out as I ran out back and grabbed my bag. "Yeah, yeah." I heard her call. Just as I was about to turn around and leave I ran right into Debbie, my boss, her dark brown hair cascaded over her shoulders untidily, flour caked on the front over her apron and sweat budding on the top of her forehead and upper lip. "Where do you think you're going Laura?" Think, think. WHERE AM I GOING?? Emergency? Appointment? Emergency appointment!! "I have an emergency appointment to go to." I replied. "With your friends?" "Yes, it's a counselling session." I glared. She kept questioning me for another five minutes before she let me go. I bolted out the front and hugged everyone, except Kylie. "Lets get out of here!" I said. Everyone whooped and hollered (except Kylie of course) and we ran out of the small cafe and jumped in the car. "First stop my house please, I need to change back to normal." I called over to Zane. "Sure thing shit tits." I turned the radio up and blasted Sharpest lives by MCR and we all sang along to the song and every other song after until we got to my house. "So Lana and Celeste were bitching about us in class on Friday." Zane sighed. "We'll talk about it when I get back." I ran inside, threw my apron and uniform off onto the floor and grabbed my black jeans and pulled them on followed by a plain dark blue long sleeved shirt and red, well worn converse shoes. My mom was drinking in the dinning room with some of her friends and random neighbors. The music was at full blast, Jimmy Barnes and other of her favorite music. "Darling... come here." My mom slurred. I sighed rolled my eyes and ran to the dinning room where a full blown party was happening. Shouts and hollers and empty alcohol bottles all over the floor. "What do you want mom?" I asked her as I took my hair out and shook it about, styling it with my hands. "I just want to tell you... that I love you and that you should come and hang out with your mommy for a while" She stumbled forward a little and I caught her before she face planted. "No thanks I'm hanging out with Zane and them all today I haven't seen anyone all in a while." She looked mildly disappointed before retreating back into the dinning room. I headed for the front door and reconsidered for a minute, how safe is she going to be, all the drunken adults. She was the adult and yet 9 times out of 10 I was the one looking after her. At that point I heard shouting, and a bottle breaking. I opted to get out of there as fast as I can. Bee lined for the Red Nissan sitting in my driveway and slid into the passenger seat. Rebecca was putting her shades on and Isla was putting her seatbelt back on as I got in. "Let's get out of here!" I yelled. Zane sped off down the road. "So where are we going?" I asked. "Into town, there's a water fight along the water front." Kylie said, in her monotonous voice. I turned the radio back on to drown her out because honestly if this was my car I would have kicked her out already. After twenty minutes of listening to songs I turned to Zane, "So what did Lana and Celeste have to say?" "The usual. They kept trying to get everyone to think I'm gay. And that you're a stuck up goth who needs some mental help. They honestly have no idea what they're talking about, obviously." Zane said with an exaggerated eye roll, that made me grin. For the last three years he had been trying to convince everyone that he wasn't gay, even though deep down inside everyone knew he was. Including himself. We had been really close friends since forever, and at one point I had a crush on him, and even thought he felt the same way once, that was until I had my suspicions that he might not exactly float in the same boat. I of course never told him how I felt. But we remained friends and eventually became best friends. When we got to the water front in town it was packed, and as normal, people were staring. It didn't bother me so much but Rebecca couldn't handle the staring eyes. She hung her head and kept her eyes on the floor, her hair fell to cover her face and she started to tug at the sleeves of her hoodie. "You okay?" I heard Isla ask her. She nodded quietly. We made our way over to a booth where you could purchase water balloons and water pistols, behind there was a large car park where people were throwing water balloons and shooting each other, having fun. We purchased the biggest water pistols and spent the rest of the afternoon water fighting until the sun went down and it started to get cold... I don't know when I'll write the rest but I'm going to aim for a daily kind of thing.. so yeah later.