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I'm finally getting back a feel for my morbid stuff... Without You To take the pain from your heart you have to erase the memories of the one who tore it apart Time for a new start, I’ve now gotten over that horrible part What you did to me made my life dark, you left your bloody mark The memory is a stain on my soul Suicide my ultimate goal If only it were that simple, this grudge I mustn’t hold A new life for myself I must try to mold You never cared about my tears; to you I was just washed up old wares You never tried to end the lies; you just kept hurting me inside Now it’s crushed, I mean my pride, to know your love was just a lie But now look up to the sky; I’ll try to hold my head up high But still every cloud I see takes the shape of you and me Sometimes I guess this is just the new broken me Because every time I close my eyes it’s your face I see The pain it still burns in me, from all my broken memories But when will the light I see, when will this stop hurting me I thought that getting over pain was easy But still I live in endless fear thinking the pain is imminent and near But at least now I owe it to you, my insecurities started with you So baby I’ll run wild like the animals in the zoo Because I am caged by the fear of loving and then loosing too Safe away living an artificial life, never to know what it is like to go outside Afraid to love and hold some ones hand, now I can never grow to be a real man So why my dear did you choose me, why did you choose to inflict me with this tyranny So why my dear didn’t you just kill me instead of leaving this dagger inside me So why my dear must I cry all night you could have just stayed out of my life So what now must I do, you know I can’t live without you. Stephonz © June 20th, 2009