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#1 i am not that kind of person who will go up to the guy shes dieing to be with im the girl who sits back waiting and on occasions maybe tell the guy she likes him other then that i don't hav the guts to because im the kind of girl who instead of telling her self she has a chance i tell my self that im to ugly or fat or young for the guy so i tend not to even try. i don't mean to be like this but its just me i hate my self i guess idk i just i feel like i have no chance with anybody that im meant to die alone i guess that im not meant for love that iv had so many crushes and only one worked cuz out of no where i got the guts to ask him out but that didnt work out i had the worst 2 months of my life with that guy getting ignored was never talked to never held his hand and barely even hugged...i guess it wasn't meant to be i just don't know i talk my self down all the time to the point where i just give a **** and right now is just the same but worse i want this so bad but i have no power in my self to make it happen i just wait around for the something anything to come but it never does maybe im right maybe i do deserve to die alone in my own arms because those will be the only arms ill have but thats okay ill keep strong i wont let nothing happen if it happens it happens if it doesnt it doesnt.... LOVE clary<3