Emo Scene Community

Well I've been itching to tell you all for some strange reason but whenever I wrote a Topic my Mum came in when I was in the middle of it so I'm writing this on WordPad at the moment & pasting it to the Topic!:D One thing before I start going on & on about what is probably nothing, I just love you guys. These past months without SoEmo have been so hard & I've lost touch with the true me but this week...I just can't find any words to describe what this week has been like except for life-changing. It's a very long story so just bare with me here. I'll start all the way from the beginning. My step-dad had this friend who used to be his drinking buddie but then his 2nd wife was having an affair & he got involved in a car crash & died. The verdict was suicide but it's not 100%. But his friend had this son called Steve who was just devastated so my step-dad took him on like a son & ever since then my step-dad's introduced him as his son. Then a year or two back he met this woman called Tina who had 4 kids at the time. Steve also had a kid called Declan who's my childhood buddie & I've known him all my life. So he proposed & shortly after that they had a child together called Freyja who's just such a sweetheart & nods & sings along to System Of A Down (amazingly cute). They recently got married & they came out to vist us this week for my step-dad's birthday. But Tina has this son called Billy who is also emo...I had feelings for him the first time I set eyes on him but because he was the first actual emo I'd ever met I decided not to say anything. Over the week we got talking & realized we both had so much in common, we even both have the same lucky number. The night before my step-dad's birthday we were playing manhunt. Me & Billy were hiding in the car then he gave me his phone & told me to read what was on it. I could feel my face going cherry tomato. It was a really long message & to avoid anymore awkwardness I only read bits of it quickly. Then on the day of my step-dad's birthday his sister (Lu'eez) told me that he was going to ask me out. So I kept giving him oppurtunities but he chickened out at every one so in the end I went in his caravan & said that Lu had told me that he had something he wanted to ask me. He laughed nervously & glanced away. So then there was some awkwardness. Finally I went over & sat on his bed. I told that for future refrence the guy usually makes the first move, so he leaned in & gently kissed my lips. The feeling was just...Basically the only word for this is DAYUM! After that we like went inside & nothing more happened. Then we all went out on the field & played Truth or Dare. It was freezing & he could see I was shivering so he came over & gave me a huggle. After that we got called in & sent off to bed. The next day we didn't do anything together since it was supposed to be a secret but both our parents know now. It was later that night that his mum told all of us to go sit in the caravan & leave the grown-ups alone. So we all went into this tiny caravan. Me instintivly went to his bed >.< He came sat down next to me & puth is blanket round me & then snuggled up next to me under the blanket. We must have just sat there cuddling for 3 hours. They were the best three hours of my life. Then my sister caught us & then told his Mum but she only told Steve. Then it was the next day that he was leaving & I just got so emotional it was unbealivble. And now he's gone I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even relax anymore. He's coming back in April. Which means I have to wait a whole 6 months until I see his beautiful smile again & how when he's nervous he licks his bottom lip slightly. I can't write to him either since he's Dyslexic. But he's the first person I've ever really truely loved & I don't want him coming back in April & having changed his feelings. I finally meet a person who really loves me & I can open up to & actually talk about well, my past but he's gone. I just don't know what to do >.<