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I loved her so much, for so long- even before we went out. I loved her so much that I was willing to do anything and everything to keep her happy. I still, to this day, don't understand her. She was lonely, almost desperate for love. She even admitted it to me. I watched her with every one of her boyfriends. In the end, it would always be the same- the slight heartbreak. She would always have a line up of man-whores. I listened to her for months and months. When I had met her, I was a no body. A socially awkward rebel, in a new country, province and school. I didn't talk, for there was no body to talk to. She took me in. I guess she was the only one I fitted in with. People didn't exactly think ''kindly'' of her, but I never cared. She was my best friend, my sister. This year, she had not changed much. I don't exactly know how we ended up going out, but I loved her so much that even when she was out with all kinds of guys and cheated on me, I forgave her. I thought ''hey, this is who she is.'' So many people called me foolish. That there was better girls out there for me, but I didn't give a crap. I wanted to marry her, but one morning I woke up and realized. Both our lives went separate ways, and a lot has happened to both of us. I love her still. I here of her, but we hardly see each other. I have finally moved on- well.. not really. IS THERE LOVE OUT THERE? IS LOVE REAL? WHERE IS THIS PERFECT GIRL FOR ME? WILL I EVER FIND HER? I miss her, but it's okay now. She's out ****** another guy, I have no doubt.. but I just wish she would have realized that for once, she could have been with someone who really loved her.. me.