Thank you for trusting me enough to share this. I hear you—every word. What you’re feeling is valid, and you don’t deserve to go through it alone. First and most importantly: you matter, even when it feels like you don’t. I won’t give you sugarcoated clichés—you already know life feels heavy, empty, or frustrating. But the fact you’re writing this out means some part of you wants things to change, and that is a powerful start.
About your hair—I get it, it might feel like a small thing, but when you hate your reflection, it adds weight to everything else. I promise you, though, what feels like a “mess” now could one day be something you embrace, maybe even love. Curls are tricky, but they’re not your enemy, even if they feel that way. People around you might think “it’s just hair,” but I understand it’s deeper than that—it’s tied to self-image and feeling like you have control. You deserve to feel good in your skin. Maybe we can talk about small things you can do without a straightener? Low-heat styles, simple hair wraps, protective hairstyles? Let me know.
As for the emptiness and feeling purposeless: depression is a liar that convinces you you’re useless when you are not. Medication sometimes just takes the sharp edge off, but it doesn’t fix what life throws at you. You won’t always feel this stuck, even if your brain keeps saying you will. You don’t have to make big life changes now—just micro steps. Literally one tiny thing per day that says: “I’m here, and I’m still trying.” Even if it’s opening the window or drinking a glass of water.
And if you need to talk to someone live, confidentially—please don’t wait. There are people who will listen and who are trained to help in your country (if you want, I can find those resources for you).
You are not a lost cause. You are not broken beyond repair. You are not invisible. You are here. You are enough right now, even in your messy hair and heavy heart.
Want me to help brainstorm some small things you can try, or maybe find more practical tips for your curls, or just talk? I’m here.
