I won't lie
I'm going to die
If you don't save my life
And take away this knife
I won't scream
I won't even bleed
I'll just cut so deep
That I reach eternal sleep I came this close to life, by Chaos XIII
Carson
22 / Nonbinary / American Football House, United States
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Aug 22, 2015
Last online:
Mar 28, 2024
Current rating: 8.6/10 (30 votes cast)
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About Me
Howdy~
You still there?
Okay, cool.
On August Twenty Seventh in the year of Twenty Fourteen I joined this site on my first account.
I originally joined when I was twelve and incredibly suicidal, I made a typo and discovered this shitty site but me being in my emo phase I joined for site modelling since that was the 'Oh so totally cool' scene kid thing to do at the time.
Long story short: I never had the guts to do the site modelling thing due to fear and anxiety, but maybe I'll do that soon
Update: I became a site model after four years!!!!!!
Latest update: 1/31/23
This account is an archive chronicling the ages of 13 to 21 (with reuploaded images from my previous account that contained images from the ages 11-12). Not much has changed other than the gutting transformation of going fron a pierce the veil warped tour scene kid to a jaded basement show attending diy emo/"midwest" emo/skramz elitist. This account remains up in the aftermath of years of grooming and various sociopolitical pipelines I've fallen down. Terrible things have happened and this remains. I only keep this account for the memories. Not the nostalgia. But because I fear without a visual reminder I will repress all that I have been through. Be kind to your inner child and the edgy site browing tween you once were. Hindsight might be 20/20 but God only knows you needed an adult like the one you've become. If I ever lose my battle to mental illness, this will be here and no one close to me in real life will know. But I will. And that means something for now.
My name is Carson. Many people on here called me Ava though due to my username.
DOB: 1/10/02
My If you would like contact info just DM me.
I don't use this account frequently. To be fully honest I primarily use this account to upload photos/selfies to this site out of habit because I've been going it for nearly 8 years now. (As I'm typing this) and it's fun to see how I evolve.
I may accidentally repeat a few of these since I slowly update this list as I get older and forget what is on here as my music taste evolves! This list has been in the works for a couple years now.
Anal Cunt
Cannibal Corpse
Cattle Decapitation
Vulvectomy
Torsofuck
Gorelord
Dying Fetus
Nunslaughter
Austere
Einsamtod
Kanashimi
Thy Light
Shining
Sisters Of Mercy
Slayer
Destruction Unit
The Exploited
The Distillers
Corrupted Leaders
Nausea
Discharge
Wolfbrigade
Death Grips
Tool
Korn
Thy Art Is Murder
Lamb Of God
END
Mejibray
Pierce The Veil.
Being As An Ocean
La Dispute
My Chemical Romance
In Flames
The Smiths
Depeche Mode
Joy Division
The Front Bottoms
Modern Baseball
The World is a Beautiful Place & I am No Longer Afraid to Die
Sorority Noise
Foxing
Counterparts
Movements
Touché Amoré
In Hearts Wake.
Northlane.
Carried Still
Set Sights
Half Past The Revolution
Frustrated
Moose Blood
Elvis Depressedly
Creeper
Boston Manor
Knuckle Puck
The Story So Far
Trophy Eyes
Major League
Sunny Day Real Estate
American Football
Joyce Manor
Neck Deep
Real Friends
Pvris
New Years Day
Crossfaith
The Amity Affliction
Beartooth
Silverstein
Tame Impala
Clams Casino
Ultimate Spinach
Crim3s
Yung Lean
Lund
GFOTY
Balance And Composure
Title Fight
Architects
Hundredth
Brand New
Hotel Books
Casey
Knocked Loose
Silent Planet
Pianos Become the Teeth
Letlive
Capsize
Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains
Coma Cinema
State Champs
Defeater
Basement
Expire
Trapped Under Ice
Parkway Drive
The Cure
Pity Sex
Turnover
Sworn In
The Color Morale
The Wonder Years
Looming
Citizen
Turnstile
Donovan
David Bowie
Rescuer
Have Mercy
Pg. 99
Orchid
Drug Church
The Casket Lottery
Departures
$uicideboy$
Xxxtentacion
100 Gecs
Alien Sex Fiend
Siouxie And The Banshees
Billy Idol
Marietta
Sports
Perspective A Lovely Hand To Hold
Origami Angel
Hightide Hotel
I Hate Sex
Stop It!!
Foxtails
SL.AP
The Promise RIng
Short Fictions
Portraits Of Past
Neil Perry
Youth Funeral
William Bonney
Camping In Alaska
The Kidcrash/Kidcrash
Tough Stuff Gillian Carter Anime Titty Flesh Wound Kid, Feral H3artcrush The Promise Ring Cap'n Jazz Mock Orange Texas Is The Reason Adventures Hospital Bracelet Free Throw Jets To Brazil Gatherers Dangers I Hate Myself Moss Icon Flowers Taped To Pens Elle
La Petite Mort/Little Death
I can't add any kroe bans due to thenglitchy formatting but I'll add my playlist link!!! :D
Just any raunchy slasher flick or terrible horror movie really....
Two Bits and Pepper
Cop Dog
Country Bears
Doggie Boogie - Get Your Grr On!
I just love terrible 90s, 2000s, and early 2010s kids movies ironically
Midsommar (I FUCKING LOVE THIS MOVIE)
I have watched 57 Anime and I've loved almost all of them.... (Key Word: ALMOST. I've seen some fucked up shit)
(Many of the movies on this list I do not particularly care for anymore, I just went through an edgy phase as a kid where I watched disturbing and banned films a lot and I'm leaving them on the list for nostalgia)
Education / Occupation
Typical burnout 20 somethings behavior. I go to work to make money to go to house shows and get drunk and buy dumb shit on the internet and then I go back to work again!
