Sep 30 2025, 10:39 PM

just thinking abt how i miss the Zombie Pigmen in MC :(((((

Sep 12 2025, 10:28 PM

WOAH THERE!!! i'm really funny and i'll prove it.

"i didn't have a mango till i was 33"
"makes sense, you were born 1862"
"someone's not going to university!"
"someone was there to see the university built!"

*the cat food amazon ad idk man* "i wonder if [cat] can read minds?"
"anyone could read your mind with that forehead"

"has anyone got parents from different cultures?"
"i mean... my mum's from Wolverhampton"

also i'm putting a printout picture of House i found while researching my sociology hw on the actual homework

Sep 08 2025, 11:54 PM

i'm reaching the point of depression again and i desperately want just one person that cares. i miss my youth group because my mum hasn't been letting me go for the last few weeks and i would rather be called Apollo now but am scared to tell my friends (parents are out of the question- i told my mum abt being Casper and immediately she tried to feminise it :/) i'm considering trying vaping if i can and i just keep on hallucinating (or maybe flashbacks??? idk)- specifically these two moments, one where my dad dragged me halfway across the house by my collar, choking me, one where some bitch from SLT tried pointing out my SH scars like YES BITCH IK THEY'RE THERE???? but it's her face that haunts me. and the anxiety all week that she would tell my parents despite my excuses. and i keep picking at my fingers too!!! and i always need some form of pain to keep me sane. i think faith and addiction are the only things keeping me from either killing myself or running away like i could slit my wrists right fucking now and get to see at least one of my gods (maybe 3 if i'm lucky) i might make it to the Elysian fields, i might only get to the Ash field. either would be better than here. gods i need to stop thinking so often

Aug 23 2025, 11:41 PM

there's a cat outside letting out agonising yowls. not "give me food, i'm so hungry" but actual agony. actual suffering and i am full on crying thinking about it /gen

Jul 03 2025, 02:23 AM

i miss my bbg, sorry, communism, OUR bbg /ij

Jul 03 2025, 01:29 AM

i keep on hyperverntilating and being liek "oh fuck, having a heart attack, gonna die!" and the n being fine 

Jul 03 2025, 01:28 AM

justv having a quick panic attack cuz of the monstser :)

Jul 03 2025, 01:22 AM

date idea: i sob uncontrollably 4 liek half an hour abt not being able 2 worship in a temple cuz they r all burned down while u watch confused in a corner 

Jul 03 2025, 01:09 AM

JRBVKSJBV LITERALLY ME WHEN I JSUT DRANK 2 MONSTERS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT