Why explore the universe
When we don't know ourselves?
There's an emptiness inside our heads
That no one dares to dwell... Hospitals for Souls, by Bring Me The Horizon
Casperrrrrr XP
15 / Male / Northamptonshire, United Kingdom
Pansexual / Single & Looking
Member since:
May 16, 2025
Last online:
Oct 19, 2026
Current rating: 9.4/10 (5 votes cast)
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About Me
HEYYY IM RLLY EXCITABLE LMAO
lets be friends!!!
I <3 my old tech :PP
Favourite Music
Weirdlyyyyy i like rock- Moonwalker + Vundabar r my top dogsss XP
-Blink182 -Pixies -Sour note symphony -Self help mechanism -The Stupendium (lmao) -that handsome devil -Hamilton????? no idea if i like it or the plot or the fandom
CABARET THE 1972 MUSICAL FILM
CABARET THE 1972 MUSICAL FILM
CABARET THE 1972 MUSICAL FILM
Favourite Films / TV / Books
She-ra!!!!!! (the modern one mainly)
my Dvds consist of -Romeo + Juliet -Cabaret (1972) -Heathers the musical -Horrible Histories -Fish the movie (aquarium ambience) -Futurama season 1-4 and the films -House MD 1 and 2 -Willy Fog 80 days around the world -Monty Python (complete boxset) -both Spiderverse films
meaning to buy: Phantom of the opera, Spiderman 1 and 2, the amazing Spiderman, more Horrible Histories, High school musical 2 (i can tell you the lore of my only 2, but you have to befriend me :3)
I have so many books but i mainly have -mythology (esp Greek) -classic literature like Orwell - sesbian lex/ resbian lomance (20th century and not a moment later) -poetry like Spike Milligan - i would shelve fanfic if i could -dystopian -political/ marxist literature -schoolwork
Education / Occupation
secondary schl :(((
Who I'd Like To Meet
ANYONE EXCEPT PEDOS- I LOVE MAKING FRIENDS
COME ON, ILL GIVE YOU MY DEBIT CARD INFO
SERIOUSLY ILL TELL YOU MY FULL HOME ADDRESS
AND PASSWORDS TO ALL MY ACCOUNTS (esp school - do my hw pls??)
i'm reaching the point of depression again and i desperately want just one person that cares. i miss my youth group because my mum hasn't been letting me go for the last few weeks and i would rather be called Apollo now but am scared to tell my friends (parents are out of the question- i told my mum abt being Casper and immediately she tried to feminise it :/) i'm considering trying vaping if i can and i just keep on hallucinating (or maybe flashbacks??? idk)- specifically these two moments, one where my dad dragged me halfway across the house by my collar, choking me, one where some bitch from SLT tried pointing out my SH scars like YES BITCH IK THEY'RE THERE???? but it's her face that haunts me. and the anxiety all week that she would tell my parents despite my excuses. and i keep picking at my fingers too!!! and i always need some form of pain to keep me sane. i think faith and addiction are the only things keeping me from either killing myself or running away like i could slit my wrists right fucking now and get to see at least one of my gods (maybe 3 if i'm lucky) i might make it to the Elysian fields, i might only get to the Ash field. either would be better than here. gods i need to stop thinking so often
there's a cat outside letting out agonising yowls. not "give me food, i'm so hungry" but actual agony. actual suffering and i am full on crying thinking about it /gen
date idea: i sob uncontrollably 4 liek half an hour abt not being able 2 worship in a temple cuz they r all burned down while u watch confused in a corner