Emma
19 / Female / Illinois, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
Jan 02, 2020
Last online:
Oct 23, 2021
Current rating: 7.3/10 (3 votes cast)
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About Me
Hey my name's Emma, I'm just a shy antisocial girl that's into playing video games, reading, listening to music, singing, stargazing and I've been taking coding classes you can add me on Snapchat if you want my username's blacklash87 and my Discord is BlackLash87#8935 you can add/message me if you want to
Favourite Music
Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Set It Off, Imagine Dragons, The Offspring, Black Veil Brides, Linkin Park, Bring Me the Horizon, Falling In Reverse, Twenty One Pilots...
Favourite Films / TV / Books
For movies the Harry Potter series, The Outsiders, The Giver, the Child's Play series, Blood and Chocolate and a lot of others for shows I don't watch much just mainly YouTube and anime(my favorite anime is Tokyo Ghoul) and for books the Harry Potter series, The Outsiders, The Giver, Touching Spirit Bear, IT, The Institute, Blood and Chocolate...
Hey sorry I haven't really been on...lately I've just been feeling down and ugly for a good while now I've been trying to lose weight (I weigh 2 something) and clear my skin up which reminds me I should get my teeth fixed too (when i was like 4 or 6 I fell on a sidewalk and chipped my teeth) I guess I want to be "normal" honestly now that I'm writing this I don't even know why I'm writing maybe to let my friends know what's going on I guess? I'll try to be on more
I just need to rant right now...it's currently 3:48 A.M. for me and lately I've been feeling stressed more than anything also been feeling down and depressed but that's another story lately I've just been lost in my thoughts while trying to pull myself together but I think I'm slowly cracking after like ten years of being through hell and back I think I'm actually gonna snap I know nobody cares about me and I've accepted that fact I don't expect anyone to care or accept me the old me used to knock myself out for other people but now I just don't care take me or leave me, hate me or love me I don't care anymore I've given up on everything I know those of you reading this if anyone think I'm posting this for attention or something when the reality is that I'm speaking from my heart, mind and soul I genuinely stand by what I've said and I'm not gonna knock myself out trying to prove that I'm right so believe me or don't it's up to you
Bored...
It's 1:45 AM for me and I'm not tired so anyone wanna talk? If you do just message me I won't bite your head off or insult you or anything like that also this time in five days it'll be eight years since my mom's death day so R.I.P. if you couldn't figure out extactly when my mom died it was May 27th 2013 at 4:45 AM anyway hope to hear from someone and sorry if I seem to be a downer I just can't forget something that's been burned into my brain that I'm gonna remember for the rest of my life...I guess that's all I got to say
Midnight Thoughts...
It's currently 1:30 AM for me but I'm not tired I'll probably stay up till four or five there's really no one to talk to or anything to do so I'm bored as hell I'm probably gonna read on Wattpad, work on my stories, listen to music or watch YouTube till I get tired...I can't believe it's almost been eight years since my mom died damn I can't even remember what she sounds like also can't wait to hopefully leave Illionis there's really nothing here stores and restaurants are closed up and everything's going to hell
Maybe if I fall asleep I won't breathe right maybe if I leave tonight I won't come back...
Well this is my first entry and I don't know what to say so I guess I'll just put some more stuff about myself in case anyone's curious
First off I have seizures/epilepsy so don't make jokes or anything same thing applies to the other thing I'm about to say
I lost my mom to liver cancer back when I was ten so yeah
Music and YouTube is my only escape from everything and I don't have many friends and I'm really shy so guess that's it for now...
