Lost_Hardcore
Learning to love. Learning to create. Learning to believe. How could it be otherwise? 💔 We have to be strong.
Name: Lazarus Nikitin
Age: 22
Gender: Male
Orientation: Straight
Status: Broken Hearted
Location: Voronezh, Russia
Member Since: Dec 23, 2020
Last Login: Apr 13, 2021
About Me
“ - Every day of your life will be new, when you want it...”
Well, a good time of the day!
My name is Lazarus and i am a simple guy, i am Russian and live in Voronezh in the Russian Federation, a place on planet Earth in the Solar System, The Mulky Way galaxy. But let's not get roo far away! So, my life path is creativity and knowledge of the beauty of nature, spiritual awareness and help people. I've had no problem communicating with people before, but i've had very few friends lately. I think this is due to the fact that i am too naive, strict, sensitive and pay attention to any small, not even the most obvious things. I think this is just another turning point in my life.
My friends tend to be people who consider themselves metalheads, punks, emo, and people who are interested in anime culture, although i myself often look more like an indie rock fan or grunge. I like to look informal (as i like it or just comfortable), i am skeptical about politics and the media, and i am also very emotional and often allow myself, to put it mildly, strange things. Usually, i am often forgiven for my oddities, because i often just joke. I just really like showing people how i feel. In general, i communicate with different people.
I am usually very silent, so much so that many people may find me strange. In fact, i like listening more, than talking. That's why i'm often called the " perfect conversationalisti". Ha, that's funny.. because sometimes i just want to be quiet with someone else...
I don't feel like i'm stuck somewhere (in 2007, etc.) and i don't have problems with self-esteem, i communicate openly with people (when it happens, of course) and don't give up at the sight of impending problems. In addition, i have no complexes about my appearance, my social status, my position in life and my family, and it is normal for me to regularly change something in myself. And i am often told that i am very self-critical. However, my criticism often concerns others, which is not good (get ready:)... I love my live, my loved ones, my beloved city and my friends!
So, i'll be happy to talk to you or even help you! And in any case, i will be glad to try to make friends with you, please.
More about me (spoiler)
Dislike: personality by pattern, bulling, aggressive activism, greed, smug.
Like: hearfulness, strong friendship, cling to life, effort, perseverance, punctuality, beaming smiles and honest eyes. HUGS!
Do not understand: ignorance, idolatry (stardom), mall emo, pop culture and everything related to it, scene kids ( (//_o) yeah.. explain to me, because i don't see much logic in it ), slam and mosh, rampage or scuffle, voluntary dementia, waste lifestyle (laziness, neglect loved ones, uncleanliness, drugs, excessive alcohol consumption), disrespect for elders, rudeness, consumer, stampede, cutting down trees, littering.
What i like to do most fo all: climb trees (climb as high as possible and sit on them for a long time hanging down until someone tries to take me out of there), lie in the long grass in the field, sit in the middle of the city center in the park on the lawn with friends and chat, walk along the embankment (most often i do it alone), tune the stereo system as if i am at a concert and listen loudly to music, hug people close to me, be happy that i am alive, swing on a swing, play fun games (expecially hide-and-seek), have fun cooking, walk along the sandy embankment in autumn, breathe in the autumn air that reminds me that i'm still alive, playing in the autumn leaves, watch the stars with someone close to me, walk play in the rain, falling face first into the snow, ignoring the pain, the cold, and the shocked people passing by, until someone comes to check if i'm still alive.
| Tallness: | 6,1 |
| Weight: | ≈ 76 kg |
| Hair color: | light brown |
| Eye color: | gray-green-blue |
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Traits:
Coming soon . . .
“ - It is important - to try for other people...”
“ - Why are we so eager to give ourselves to those who have done nothing to us?”
“ - Everything is important.”
“ - It is foolish to dream of something that can be called more simply a goal. The dream must be crazy and seem impossible!”
“ - It is not enough just to be kind; it is important to regularly sacrifice yourself and your habits for the sake of others, even those who are not very close to you...”
(i passed this test in 2020)
Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
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| Factor | low score | high score |
| Warmth | cold, selfish | supportive, comforting |
| Intellect | instinctive, unstable | cerebral, analytical |
| Emotional Stability | irritable, moody | level headed, calm |
| Aggressiveness | modest, docile | controlling, tough |
| Liveliness | somber, restrained | wild, fun loving |
| Dutifulness | untraditional, rebellious | conforming, traditional |
| Social Assertiveness | shy, withdrawn | uninhibited, bold |
| Sensitivity | coarse, tough | touchy, soft |
| Paranoia | trusting, easy going | wary, suspicious |
| Abstractness | practical, regular | strange, imaginative |
| Introversion | open, friendly | private, quiet |
| Anxiety | confident, self assured | fearful, self-doubting |
| Openmindedness | closeminded, set-in-ways | curious, exploratory |
| Independence | outgoing, social | loner, craves solitude |
| Perfectionism | disorganized, messy | orderly, thorough |
| Tension | relaxed, cool | stressed, unsatisfied |
Favourite Music
✶ the GATHERING ✶
✶ KATATØNIA ✶
Old list (spoiler)
Old list (spoiler)
All titles are CLICKABLE!
Metal, metalcore, post-hardcore, emocore and alternative bands • Zao • • Vanna • ✦ Линия ✦ • Deftones • • Northlane • ✦ Hand To Hand ✦ • Our Last Night • • ✦ Three Days Grace ✦ 🕷 Lacuna Coil 🕷 • In Extremo • 🕱 Wolfheart 🕱 ✦ Paramore ✦ 🕷 Nightwish 🕷 🕱 Soilwork 🕱 • Beloved • | Important notes: ✦ - exception to the rule
🕷 - gothic 🕱 - death metal |
Classic rock, hard rock, progressive rock and heavy metal bands ☆ Queen ☆ • Pink Floyd • • SCORPIONS • • Twisted Sister • • DIRE STRAITS • • Black Sabbath • • Deep Purple • • Genesis • • Saxon • • Styx • ☁ Sky ☀ | |
Individual performers • Sting • • Kate Bush • • ELTON JOHN • • Fionnuala Gill • 🕈 Adrian ☾von Ziegler 🕈 • Mylène Farmer • • Avril Lavigne • • Gary Moore 🎸 • Tom Waits • • Alizbar • | |
music is math :P | Other performers, wich i like • Vacuum • • Secret Garden • • Midnight Oil • ✦ Culture Club ✦ • Lúnasa • • R.E.M. • |
Favourite Films & TV
More (spoiler)
All titles are CLICKABLE!
From the movies:
Andrey Rublev (1966),
Solaris (1972)
(and more films by Anrei Tarkovsky),
Big Fish (2003),
Without a Clue (1988),
Midnight in Paris (2011),
la femme N I K I T A (1990),
The Apartment (1960),
A Chorus Line (1985),
Spartacus (1960),
Dracula (1992),
Cabaret (1972),
etc.
From the TV series:
etc.
From the animated series:
The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack ,
etc.
From the anime, i like:
Your / Name ( 君の名は。).
THIS MIGHT BE INTERESTING! Anime is so popular in our city that we have a Japanese animation festival (which is called the "All-Russian Festival of Japanese Animation" or "VRNFEST") every year in May, which lasts about a week. Cosplay shows, film screenings, concerts, lectures and master classes, open-air in parks (forum-exhibition, free photo session), it's all happening there. When I'm interested in watching some anime, I visit the cinema these days. There are often interesting anime novelties there. I could even call our city the Russian capital of Japanese animation. This is a great joy for me! |
Favourite Books
My favorite works are mostly is (russian and world) classical literature, also, i like to study history from books, read reflections and aphorisms, i am found of poetry, prose, philosophy, mythology; and i so like fairy tales.
Atoine de Saint-Exupery's Lewis Carroll's
“Le Petit Prince” “Alice's Adventures in Wonderland”
“Through the Looking-Glass, and What Alice Found There”
and more...
Education / Occupation
Artist
(sculpture, painting, sewing, performing (theater) arts, writing)
Naturalist
(ecology, zoology, nature walks, collecting and growing plants)
Daydreamer
(craving for the stars, childish naivety, fairy tales, dreams, hope)
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Lost_Hardcore
And it all was lies and hypocrisy...
Lost_Hardcore
Be alive my little friend.
Please.
Love you.
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Thanks for the add :]
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