“ The soul is full of shooting stars. So sad. It seems, that this is a universal sadness, that is about to engulf you and you will be in captivity. In the thrall of events, memories, that cannot be returned. And you will suffer and be sadder, than ever. And then you won't be able to stand it and end this world. You will destroy yourself. Destroy the whole world. You will end this worthless existence and you will be glad, that it's all over.
But then you'll realize, that you've made a huge mistake. You will understand, that all this could be fixed. But it will be too late. It's late enough, that nothing can be fixed. You can't do ANYTHING. You will burn and suffer. You'll break completely. And your, once bright soul, will be shattered. You will perish completely. You won't exist.
Perhaps, need to rethink everything, in order to understand at least something. ”
Послушай меня, дорогой мой друг. Всякий раз, когда тебе кажется, будто ты лишний для близкого тебе человека, будто без тебя ему будет лучше, будто без тебя он будет счастливее, - знай: это не так. Мы всегда нужны (необходимы) друг другу. Просто нам часто что-то "кажется". В один момент, ты проснёшься и поймешь, что уже слишком поздно а тот самый человек, так и остался несчастливым, обделённым твоим вниманием. Он просто остался без тебя. А ты без него... И мы продолжаем верить в то, что мы можем дышать под водой, обходиться без кислорода, но в конечном итоге, оказываемся прикованными к постели и уже не способными дышать самостоятельно...
Это уже лишь кислородная подушка или аппарат ИВЛ, но не более того...
Listen to me, my dear friend. Whenever it seems to you that you are superfluous for a person close to you, as if s(he) will be better off without you, as if s(he) will be happier without you - know: That's not so. We are always needed (required) by each other. It's just that we often "seems" something. At one point, you will wake up and realize that it's too late and the same person has remained unhappy, deprived of your attention. S(he)'s just left without you. And you're without her(him)...
And we continue to believe that we can breathe underwater, do without oxygen, but in the end, we find ourselves bedridden and no longer able to breathe on our own...
This is just an oxygen pillow or a ventilator, but no more than that..
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My mother was very upset because i refused to eat her food. So i'm interrupting my hunger strike for a while.
I can't let anyone else suffer because of my weirdness.
This should only concern me.
So, i haven't eaten anything for almost three days.
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“ - He suffered for us on the cross...”
Of course, i am not the Christ. And i don't think anyone can appreciate my sacrifice. However, one day is already over. Four days left. Yesterday, as luck would have it, my father brought an unusually large amount of food. When i was cooking, i couldn't even taste what it tasted like...
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Well that's it. I've had enough for today. There was too much work today. And how did it happen that i started it right now? Now i shy away at the sight of my reflection in the mirror: a stranger is standing in front of me. Now, i'll drink my water and pass out. I need to get more sleep.
I wish everyone who reads this to smile more often!
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“ - It will be better for everyone...”
Today is the first day.
I dedicate my hunger strike to all those who are oppressed in society because they have personality disorders, are disabled or just look somehow different.
I also want to warn all those who may read this:
DO NOT REPEAT THIS IF YOU HAVE DISORDERS OF THE CARDIOVASCULAR SYSTEM, DISEASES OF THE DIGESTIVE SYSTEM, LUNG DISEASES OR OTHER DISEASES, INCLUDING CHRONIC ONES!
"Good Morning, Vietnam" and "Today"
by Jefferson Airplane will be with me today.
I'll have a glass of water now, and then a second in the evening.NEED MORE DRINK
Appreciate the food you eat! ✌🏻
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Today I ate almost nothing...
I don't like my state of mind at all. I was called an ableist, so today I came up with a thought that will help me cope with the impending state and prove: i am not an ableist. To do this, i refuse to eat five days, namely from April 4 to 9.
I do this consciously, but not in order to promote this way of achieving the goal or attract attention to myself. First of all, i need to prove to myself: that's not so.
Thank you for understanding.
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Sometimes it's important to get a slap in the face...
Excuse me, people who read all this. \(//-⦁)/
I'm sorry for showing my weakness. This is temporary.
Now the main thing is not to become a bastard...
I'm alone in this rain.. again.. again.. again...
Why?.. What should I say?....
"I Believe In You"
Twisted Sister;
"The Loner"
Gary Moore;
"End Of The Beginning"
Thirty Seconds To Mars and their self-titled album;
"In A Darkened Room"
Skid Row:
"Xerces",
"Deathblow",
and "Cherry Waves"
by Deftones:
"Beautiful Memories",
"Beautiful Dreams",
"My Everything",
"One",
"Lunara",
"Glass Princess",
"Bed Of Roses",
"Fallen",
"Nevermore",
"For a lost Love",
"Cliffs of Moher",
and more by Adrian von Ziegler;
and more, by others...
_______will
__🌧_______make
________☁_______up
_____________my
__🌧__☁______fortune
_______🌧__________for
___☁________☁______this
____🌧____________rainy,
_______________sad
__________________week...
Life from scratch,
Do you believe it?
I crossed out, now it's impossible to go back.
And goodbye forever,
The songs will remain, press the "play" button.
It is sometimes scary to remember,
Close that door!
Without you, the sun goes out, the air makes breathing difficult.
There are thousands of questions:
Without love we are not,
Without love we are not!
Liniya - Without You
Жизнь с чистого листа,
Веришь? — Больно.
Я перечеркнул, теперь назад невозможно.
И прощай навсегда,
Песни останутся, жми кнопку "play".
Вспоминать иногда страшно,
Закрой эту дверь!
Без тебя гаснет солнце, воздух затрудняет вдох.
Есть ответ на тысячи вопросов:
Без любви нас нет,
Без любви нас нет!
Линия — Без тебя