Feb 24 2025, 07:59 AM

outside of being a shameless yaoi ota (lol) my life is on whatever the opposite of the "up and up" is (down & down? spiraling?? rock bottom???) well, whatever, what im trying to say is that my life sucks.

i keep having dreams about a girl i haven't spoken to in years and haven't seen in longer, i love her. i know that loving someone means being happy that they are doing well even if you aren't involved with them anymore.... but she promised she wouldn't leave me.... yet her life still goes on without me,, it feels so wrong even now....

i have a difficult time merely remembering what joy used to feel like before meeting her,,,, however it felt is certainly inferior to what i felt in her presence.

my world is so dull without her that even internet escapism doesn't help sometimes...

(^probably u guys rn lol)

im never gonna love again </3

there's obviously worse things going on in my life than distressing dreams with girls that probably hate me but urrfgb c sdhggg they certainly don't help.

im going to sleep... its 3am T_T

Feb 24 2025, 06:57 AM

(dont mind me, im being an otaku again)

thinking about writing some boy yuri where kouno and shihoudani fall in love with eachother but yuujirou also has feelings for mikoto (whose straight for his gf) and kouno is "sure" that he reaaally doesn't like men- despite never Actually thinking about his sexuality, he just always found women more visually appealing and figured that since men are ~ugly & gross~ (by his standards) he couldn't possibly be attracted to them (im definitely NOT projecting rn*) Until he meets Yuujirou

some drama happens,

then they fucknasty (yayy)

the writing is gonna take some time on its own but i might just render a oneshot doujinshi as a means of practicing/honing my ~artistic capabilities~ . I'll update you guys on the journey, 4 anyone that's interested :p

Feb 13 2025, 10:47 PM

waifus.... a necessity. obviously, as the saying goes~ no waifu = no laifu. so im going to make a list of some of the cutest girls (& boys) that live in my brain. not all of them though, because i could go on forrrreeeevvver >///< and some of my waifus&husbandos are "hear me out" material... i have no shame in lewding lolis (or shotas) and the way i ship will make ur average puriteen baw so, u have been warned.




sebastian stardew valley~♡

frog liking, basement dwelling, tabletop enjoying, motorcycle riding, emo boy, waah~~♡ (*ii) perfect though, i don't like that he smokes but he stops once you marry him... he also stops hanging out with his friends as much.... ANYWAY!

blugeoning☆angel dokuro-chan <3

Sweet & Sadistic, the hero we needed not the hero we deserved, defending our universe from the threat of immortality and immorality♡

the magical girl Pantano Pesca!

my #2 favorite girl pervert~ bespectacled himejoshi~ lots 2 love here 

haruhi fujioka

boy? girl? doesn't matter ♡ i love them all the same. 

more l8r :3 eepy

Jan 16 2025, 04:18 AM

sometimes i kinda feel like that charmander from ep11 of indigo league :/

Jan 15 2025, 04:14 PM

i should blog/journal abt my waifus. that sounds fun.

Jan 03 2025, 04:20 PM

Jan 03 2025, 04:14 PM

that raw-numb feeling you get when your mom brags about how good she beat you as a child and how "great" & *obedient*~ you are now...

im going to drive my car into a large body of water with the windows opened and the doors locked. (this feeling is unbearable)

Dec 24 2024, 12:19 AM

Tinsel Toby

Dec 23 2024, 11:47 PM

Jeff the Kringel

Dec 19 2024, 03:06 PM

Oough,,,, u guys r all evil,,,, i had a typo in my bio THIS WHOLE TIME and none of you told me.. ;-; yeah. u all h8t me or smthn,, u MUST 2 let me go 3 months with FAVOITE in my bio,,, a special kind of hate certainly. i feel like ive been walking around with a "kick me" sign on my back! T-T fiends, the lot of you! i bet u were all laughing @ me.... (/j)

True friends dont let friends have typos in their bios....