Mar 10 2013, 09:53 AM

Work is literally boring me to death right now. I am in such excruciating pain, I finally admitted for the first time last night why my friends think I am the one who "lacks common sense". I act for their own personal satisfaction. This site helps me to show who I really am inside. -Tainted Love-

Mar 08 2013, 09:13 PM

The hardest part about my younger ages were when I was in highschool and got bullied alot and picked on. I purposely failed my classes hoping to just get dropped out. I resorted to cutting and popping pills to satisfy myself. I loved the way it felt, knowing that people hurt me mentally then I dont deserve much better. Knowing in the back of my mind locked in a little box that cutting wasn't really helping. It did not solve my problems, I was slowing getting addicted to the pain I drew upon myself. I would write poems about how much I enjoyed watching myself bleed. Knowing that's part of whats keeping me alive. Imagining my life seeping from my skin, I didnt need it right?? My addiction to pills got worse, I went to school ignoring the fact that I had taken to much I didnt care though. I was in my first class and my breathing was getting shallow. I knew something wasnt right, I couldnt speak without gasping for air. I thought I was gonna die. I was taken to the emergency room, spent four hours in there. After I left the ER my principal, mother and school counselor took me to see a psychiatrist. I was given the option to never attempt it again or to be placed in a hospital that can help me. Fuck if I was going to be put in a hospital right? I looked for cutting to be what helped me through because I was trying to avoid taking pills to cut me down. I have cut to deep and couldnt stop the bleeding. Then I finally decided enough was enough. Why lose my life because of things people think about me?? What does it matter what anyone else thinks? After quitting the cutting and soon finally removing pills from my life I feel like a much better person. Yeah, life is hard and I get down sometimes but guess what. I am human and I have feelings and its normal. We all do, some of us have harder lives than others. If you cut and you feel like you cant stop PM me, I am a great friend and i love to help. Try the butterfly effect I have passed it on to many people. I just wish that I could have told Trevor about it before....well he killed himself. I draw a heart on my wrist every year to remember him because I should have been there and I will forever regret that. Never feel like you arent good enough ever. Were all beautiful and I dont give a FUCK what anyone says. I love you all!! XoXoXo -Tainted Love-

Mar 06 2013, 10:05 PM

A day off of work, yay no work until Saturday. At least I don't have another night shift until Monday. I seriously hate night shifts. I've been on this site two days I think and I have met some pretty amazing people. People who can keep me smiling. I made a new sister, her name is Liz. She pretty much rocks, everyone else I met rocks as well. My jaw really does hurt, why are people so mean? Hurting people makes others happy obviously so because of you I have to cry in pain while you walk around with your chest held high for hitting a girl. Screw you! Im sleepy :)

Mar 06 2013, 04:40 AM

Ill never understand why you treat me the way you do. Were falling apart and I know Im not imagining this. I guess love fades.