Jun 28 2026, 06:16 AM

I am having one of the worst months ever this boy is straight up playing in my face all this work and what did I even do it for. I have like nobody to talk to this about because nobody wants to hear about stupid fucking boy problems when it feels like all you do is trap yourself the thing is I don't want to be fucking trapped but just as much as I hate my current and this situation I still really like this boy I guess he doesn't feel the same way. I have no friends and nothing to do this summer how did I even manage last year? I don't want this feeling to be reoccurring anymore I don't want to feel this way ever again. I have to stop this now before the cycle gets worse. I love him so much i'd do anything for a text right now a small ounce of attention, affection from anyone so much so i've been considering going back to places I shouldn't. Life is only getting harder and nobody truly understands. I mean, I got a cool ass lighter today if that amounts for anything at all.......sigh. Im supposed to be buying new clothes because I lost 30 pounds now and like nothing fits me so i'm excited about that but yeah I just wish I was as loved as how I love others. I'm really angry and I hate being so jealous over somebody who isn't even officially mine. I'm okay with being alone that was never the problem or maybe i'm not but I have been for so long that this gave me so much hope even right now i'm holding onto something i'm holding out for someone who doesn't even see me as a priority. FML