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recently my family has been shutting me out. ive been skipping school secretly(as im doing now) and my parents don't know. i want to go home but my auntie's there and i'll get in so much shit for skipping. she already hates me and yet she's living with me. my sister shuns me for being emo and she calls me a fag,bitch,whore,hoe and a lot of other stuff. no one can accept the way i am and im starting to think that im useless.my teacher yells at me for having my bangs in my face. everyone at school is on me for this and i HATE it! no one supports me anymore and all my friends are starting to leave me. im losing my connection to all my family and i'm starting not to care for anything anymore. i wouldn't care if my sister gets into a car crash right now because i hate her from the bottom of my heart. i tell her if she keeps talking to me like this she's going to regret it or else she will get hurt. i WILL forcefully hit her if she keeps doing this. when she even looks at me i feel pissed off. she's a whore because of what she wears, and i NEVER judge her for that, but SHE thinks its okay to do this to me. she doesnt understand that the more she keeps doing this the closer i get to the kitchen knife.but that, i mean murder. i've been holding this in FOREVER, AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, IVE HATED MY FAMILY. i hated them then, and i hate them now. their LEAVING me and yet they say that if im gone then they would all die. i've seriously tried committing suicide but then they would all get pissed off and not talk to me. and they keep pushing me to get closer to it. i SERIOUSLY don't know what to do anymore. and i don't wanna hear about counselors or anything of that shit! cuz ive been to SO MANY i lost count. SERIOUSLY I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THEM,THEY DON'T HELP. for anyone who thinks this is really LAME or anyhting else, GO. FUCK. YOURSELF. BECAUSE. YOU. JUST. REALLY. DON'T. UNDERSTAND. ON. WHAT. THE. HELLS. GOING. ON. i need help but i dont know what to do anymore. im probably going to go home and kill myself. my FRIEND who lives two hours away from me, told me that the pills i have at home can kill you when they actually can. i went around the whole freaking town looking for the pills that i think i would need. the freaking prescription guy looked at me with a glare when i bought them!!!!and it's freaking cold out!!!DAMMIT JUST FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!