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Self harm in any form invokes addictive habits, around the act it's self as well as the action... It's Not always due to the mentally of the person, but the comfort of doing something that at the time helped but in the long run as many EX /recovering self harmer's will tell you Dose NOT help at all in the long run and often leaves other problems in it's wake ... i still find i twirl anything sharp round my hands like i used to do when i Self harmed , as like a kinda comforting reminder of how far i've come since those days and also a distraction method to keep my hands busy whilst my i fight through the odd urge to relapse again. (now almost fully recovered after a long battle! ) If anyone want someone to speak/vent too or listen to them about SH or any other problem or wants any help on how to Stop /Reduce their SH feel free to pm me stay strong. there is always hope to be found , even in the darkest of places <3

Hello. I went undiagnosed with OCD throughout my childhood. I was afraid of myself because I didn't understand why I was doing the things I was doing. This made me even more introverted and reclusive and in the process less and less capable of getting the help I needed. I would attack myself when I felt I had done something I had to feel guilty over. Usually in a social situation if I felt I'd said or done something wrong I would take it out on myself. I won't go into graphic details as to the nature of what I did but suffices to say it was self-harm in one form or another. Eventually I just lay down and didn't get up for a week, no food, hardly any water. I really was in a bad way. I don't think I wanted to die but I felt no real strength to get up either. My parents called an ambulance in the end and the paramedic suggested a pychologist rather than being sectioned. I was terrified but too withdrawn to put up much protestation. Eventually they diagnosed depression and OCD. Phew! at last I knew I wasn't crazy just poorly! Over the course of the next few months eventually I broke the rituals and became good to myself for a change, and in the process began to empathise with other people in a similar predictament to myself. It is humbling to know how enduring the human spirit is and how much people go through and can still smile. I still have down days (everyone does) but now I count myself lucky as to have life and the opportunity to share it! I say none of this to glorify self-harm, only to show there is a way out of those rituals if you apply yourself and see how special you are! :)

On a psychology side I can now see the meaning to ritualistic attitudes, knowing that its always going the same way can be comforting in the moment, but in the future not only does it harm you it also gives you at more risk to have flashbacks. Ex: if you always did it at 10:30 at night, once you recovered it might be hard for you to see it's 10:30 Personally, I was lucky in that my recovery was quick and easy. I decided I wanted to change and so I did. I think it was because it was never my main problem, it stemmed from my severe anorexia. But at first I used to get very anxious at certain things, the objects I used made me very unsettling for a very long time and some of the songs on the playlist if they pop up I'll get a panic attack. I wasn't so lucky as for my eating disorders though, that was and still is a long and hard journey, it always say the hardest and best thing I ever did was admit I wanted to recover. And if anyone wants to talk/speak/vent feel free to on here or message me or Kate <3

I agree with that last statement entirely. You have to believe you want to get better, no one can force you into doing it. :)