likes: Snowboarding, Rockstar games, Playstation games, Laplanders, Pikachu, buttons, Spyro the dragon, nice people, Energy drinks, sleeping, dreaming, anime, stuffed animals, Art, thrift stores, pea coats, asian food, fiction writing, illustration, vampires, blogging, vlogs, Youtube, poetry.
Hates: Stupidity, chavs, gaining weight, teeny fans, perverts, waking up early, being forced to learn something I'm not interested in, hateclubs for a certain band/group, racism
Elliot Smith, Avenged Sevenfold, Killswitch Engage, Bob Marley. Hawthorne Heights, Three Days Grace, Vampire Weekend, Greeley Estates, Daughtry, Nirvana, Bullet For My Valentine, Asking Alexandria, ACDC, Iron Maiden, Taking Back Sunday, Falling In Reverse, Lamb Of God, The All-American Rejects, Muse, Decemberists, Bright Eyes, Ryan Adams, Duke Ellington, Bless The Fall, Tyler The Creator, Sunny Day Real Estate, Fugazi, Vampires Everywhere, Oceans Ate Alaska, I See Stars, Bon Iver, The Pixies, Slipknot, 30 Seconds To Mars, Chelsea Grin, Buffalo Season, I The Deceiver, Silverstein, Rammstein, Greenday, My Chemical Romance, Dashboard Confessional, Yellowcard, Thursday, New Found Glory, Alesana, Blue October, Alkaline Trio, KISS, Hoobastank, Gallows, All Time Low, Kayden, Fall Out Boy, Radiohead, Impending Doom, Stick To Your Guns, Arctic Monkeys, Bridges, Maroon 5, Landon Pigg, Arcade Fire, Conor Oberst, Motionless In White, Ozzy Osbourne, The Jealous Sound, Neil Perry, The Cure, Evergreen Terrace, Senses Fail, Crush 40, Through The Eyes Of The Dead, The Get Up Kids, Stewart Copeland, Breathe Carolina, Emery, My Children My Bride, Slayer, The Ataris, Therefore Tomorrow, Story Of The Year, Mike V And The Rats, Motley Crue, Twelve Hour Turn, All Time Low, Hoobastank, Death Cab For Cutie, Evanescence, Mayday Parade, Bon Iver, New Politics, Hadouken!, Saosin, Alexisonfire, 36 Crazy Fists, AFI, Aiden, Farooq, Finch, Circle Takes The Square, Ozzy Osbourne, Story Of The Year, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Every Avenue, Bring Me The Horizon, Avion Roe.
I almost have to leave from my cousin's to go back to school and finish this last class. I can't wait to go home. I can't wait to lay down in my soft bed, listen to the music as loud as I please, be secured in my room and play my video game or watch a movie. Tomorrow I have no school tomorrow, and today I got lucky because English was canceled today. Now I have to look forward to this match project, and I bought all of the equipment, I just don't want to fail. I love my professor, and I don't want to be on his shit list because I lit in match in class because I was curious how to light one because I never had. lol
Okay, something very dramatic happened tonight. I split parts with a close friend. He didn't take it too well and automatically called me a bitch and a slut. When I've done nothing to him, I never called him a single name but a jerk, because he was. That's why I had to stop talking to him, because he has an odd way of expressing that he like me. Or maybe he was just flatout lying to me. But oh well, I'm not so worried about it and I'm okay that he left with a final racial slur. That really showed me his true colors. He got angry because I put on my status, "no one treats me the way I want to be treated the way you do." And he got mad and said, oh wow you're with someone? And I said, no, it's just a friend. and my friend treats me better than you do. I told him all of the reasons and just stopped talking to him and blocked him. He feels like shit, and all of this rant calling me a slut and a bitch will soon get to him. He will realize that he lost someone really important because of his bullshit and he's just going to have to learn his lesson and treat the next person better. Because I've been played with for so long, and I'm strong enough to just walk away and keep him from my memory.
I'm like a ghost, and many people see me as something to ignore, like how people ignore handicap people or someone that has a defect on their face. Sadly, being ignored when you're trying to get help can be terrible. No one can look at me straight in the eye. I just need that close and special friend, which I've found. He's so great and I hope some time today I can talk to him again.
It sucks. No one really talks to me, and I don't know why sometimes. What's on my mind is I keep smelling flowers and i don't know what it is. I didn't completely finish my essay but I will tonight, and it's hard to get my spring classes. :c -sighs-
Friendship is hard to have. I can't stand when people think they could treat me like shit because I'm the type of person that allows it. Fuck that. I don't need that shit in my life at all. It pisses me off, it depresses me, because I don't have a close friend that I can have fun with. It sucks... I'm tired of being alone. I'm always alone and I hate it.
I started my year in my favorite university, Fresno State. It is exhilarating! Would you like to know why? Because I love to learn new things and reach my goals. Also, I'm not so broke anymore, and I got an amazing laptop. It was so amazing, because i've waited so long to get something incredible like this. Also the weekend is great to enjoy. I have a four day weekend. Yay. Lately, I've been studying, editing my story, and talking to my beloved boyfriend, Richard. He is incredible and i don't ever want to lose him. The one thing that's really bothering me is that my room is a mess, I still have to buy a book and I don't know what to write in my blog for my English class because I haven't gotten the writing analytically book. It's devastating to not know how to do an assignment when it's due very soon. I don't want to all behind, I want my GPA to be at the top of the game. I really want to try harder and succeed because i'm halfway there and i'm making everyone proud. My cousins are happy, parts of my family are jealous and has gave me a hard time, because they said that I won't succeed. I'll prove them wrong. I watched the 7th season of Doctor Who last night and i'm going to watch it again on demand, because I've waited months for this. I love the new Doctor Who as much as the old one, but I still miss David Tennant. He is one of my favorite doctors and actors. I hate he left before the 5th season. *tear*
This is fascinating. All night I've stayed up without my cousin and watched multiple hours of my favorite show, Doctor Who with David Tennant. Lately, I've been obsessed with doctor who and is barely starting to see the Matt Smith series. Today I will start watching the sixth season and hope to like him as much as the previous doctor who.
Today the only thing I'm looking forward to is this 2 dollar show at chinatown. There's going to be loud music, a little moshing, and wonderful people to meet and talk to.
So I hope I become active and friendly to people and stop feeling so lonely and distant all of the time. I have an hour and a half to do what I have to do.
I studied a little Earth science because I'm so into science for some reason after watching through the wormhole, or whatever you call it.
I'm lacking friendship again, and that's not good. I am also looking forward to reuniting with a close college friend, Ramiro. He's interesting, he's wonderful and I hope he pays for my Panda Express because I can't hold onto 10$ for long.
I wish everything didn't have to do with money. I wanted my Summer to be endless, adventurous, and willing to make everyday productive, but lately I have failed. I even failed to publish my book. I'm working on that.
Within every ounce of me, my mind has stuttered, as though nothing productive has spread through my lips and all I can ever do is think briefly. Just simply think briefly. That's all I should worry about. Relax, keep calm, and just do it and carry on.
My boyfriend left me in disappointment when we scheduled to spend time together but he dismissed me because a friend went to a hospital. I wondered if it was a friend or a best friend. If it was a best friend it would make more sense.
Today, I decide to reach for the stars instead of taking steps to get there. This is why people invented elevators, because many people like to use it, but once they're broken down, they're useless and will put you in danger. Take those stairs and I will soon reach my success.
My psychic cousin read my palm and I refused to know my future because I shouldn't know what's expected because I'm currently in the present and things can change. I don't want to lead to disappointment and I sure don't want to know all the bad things that are coming up in my life.
My boyfriend puts everyone before me, his friends and really he should make some time for me. It's disappointing and I really don't ask for much. But I expect respect and a simple recognition. That would be splendid.
I can't believe that good for nothing son of a bitch stopped talking to me because this other girl's obsessed with him and I'm not. I'M SORRY if I'm not getting on my knees and actually falling in love with you after we only met for four-five days. You can go ahead and be with that girl, because I'm a real person and don't like to bullshit when it comes to love because I've been hurt before and I'm not just going to give my heart up for you. You know why I did? It's because you just said you would stop talking to me and go out with your ex out of nowhere as you were seeing me. That shows me how much of a dick you are. I can't live with that, fuck you. MOTHERFUCKER.
I can't believe my middle school crush asked me out, do you know how happy i am?
But he's not in fresno anymore and now I'm like, wait, what??? So he asks me out after he moves. What a perfect timing. *sighs* But he acts like he really wants me and he said he'll visit me. I'll take this chance, but I'm still not sure if I should consider this official.
