Jul 17 2013, 07:04 PM

"mirror mirror mirror mirror on the wall, i just want to be thin, pretty and tall. mirror mirror, if i change my hair, maybe someone will start to care? mirror mirror, if i starve myself, at lest i'll be beautiful, forget my health mirror mirror, if i cut my wrist will i feel that i exist? mirror mirror, dont you see? what you show, is ruining me."

Jul 01 2013, 09:38 PM

July is a hard month for me, so is January, February, March, April, May, June, August, September, October, November December ... Depression sucks People hurt Suicidal thoughts return Even though ive been pushing them down They always come back up Pain is worse Attacks are more often The feeling returns .. even stronger then before And everything just.... re-happens ... Fuck.

May 26 2013, 07:34 PM

There's a look on your face I would like to knock out See the sin in your grin and the shape of your mouth All I want is to see you in terrible pain Though we won't ever meet I remember your name Can't believe you were once just like anyone else Then you grew and became like the devil himself Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say But I don't think I can so fuck you anyway You are scum, you are scum and I hope that you know That the cracks in your smile are beginning to show Now the world needs to see that it's time you should go There's no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow Can't believe you were once just like anyone else Then you grew and became like the devil himself Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say But I don't think I can, so fuck you anyway Bet you sleep like a child with your thumb in your mouth I could creep up beside put a gun in your mouth Makes me sick when I hear all the shit that you say So much crap coming out it must take you all day There's a space left in hell with your name on the seat With a spike in the chair just to make it complete When you look at yourself do you see what I see If you do why the fuck are you looking at me Why the fuck why the fuck are you looking at me There's a time for us all and I think yours has been Can you please hurry up cause I find you obscene We can't wait for the day that you're never around When that face isn't here and you rot underground Can't believe you were once just like anyone else Then you grew and became like the devil himself Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say But I don't think I can so fuck you anyway So fuck you anyway

May 25 2013, 11:29 AM

why do i let people hurt me so much? why WHY do you do this to me you sick bastards, i hate all of you because of it. but im working on shutting everyone out.. almost there i guess. i dont think i will be on here that much .. this site even though i got it when i need help with alex, this site has started to become more of a trigger and i dont need anymore scars to hide.. i dont need the bullshit of these two faced fucks c: so yeah

May 25 2013, 10:47 AM

suicide room 3

May 21 2013, 05:07 PM

leave me alone.

May 20 2013, 05:29 AM

cross my heart i really want to die

Apr 30 2013, 06:53 PM

Its got worse. Last time it was bad but i had you, and i got through it with minor cuts.. But then you lied.. so what do i do now huh? Maybe i depend on you to much .. you know why should you have to deal with all my issues why should you have to talk to me.. but you made it seem like you didnt mind like you enjoyed talking to me. and i have these people that want to help that care about me but why is it that i want to talk to you instead.. even though we never really talked about it. maybe thats what i liked that we just understood each other that it was easy to tell you things. but look what happened and you cant even tell me what happened .. you wont answer me. four years together four years as best friends as twins and you throw it away. i wait for you to come back i wait in pure fucking hell for you to come back and when you do you say your sorry that stuff came up, and if it was anyone else i would have moved on told them if i wasn't important enough to them then fuck off but you.. i cant do that to you and i fucking hate you for it. i hate you so fucking much it burns in my stomach. three weeks ive cried myself to sleep, i look like i was beat and maybe being beat would be easier pain to deal with. like fuck really and then when i found someone that you know was like you that i could replace you with guess what they did .. they left to like they fucking promised they wouldnt. whats wrong with me? why is it so hard for people to stick around hm? Alex honestly like tell me please just tell me whats wrong with me. if i wasnt so afraid of myself i would tell you to go away but i cant. and i waited for you i still wait for you and fuck it hurts fuck and being on here isnt safe anymore and i need to leave. and i know that you would have understood about the shit with my dad and you would have read all those secret messages that i leave for someone to pick up. i want to cut but i dont think that anymore will help me ive been taking a lot of pills and my sadness just drags other people down, what kind of monster am i? i just want to be alone i want to stop eating i want to start cutting again i want to be dead and i want you to fucking care again.. you dont even know the shit i go through the hate i have for myself did you know i cant look in the mirror? that every time i do i cry for hours, i cry at night all the time, i pull at my skin and ,my hair because i dont know what else to do. i stop going to school i stop eating and i just lay here and try to get out of my body things have gotten worse so much worse. you where like them all and i hate that will you ever come back, or maybe your like lizzie or cecillia or tori or asia or eli or scott are like them i dont want to believe that oh i really dont i cant trust anyone i know they all leave tell me that you arnt like my dad promise me that you arnt him. so much for love right? so much for living, so much for being happy.

Apr 29 2013, 09:07 PM

I need help.

Apr 09 2013, 04:09 PM

Do you think that .. It would change anything?