Can't stay awake
Burning alive
I cannot breathe this poison air filled with lies
I cannot see
What's done to me
Live in fear
The sun is falling from the sky
Can't stay awake Throat full of glass, by Combichrist
Hadia Selim
22 / Female / ,Ohio, United States
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Jan 06, 2013
Last online:
May 14, 2017
Current rating: 8.0/10 (2 votes cast)
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About Me
Eh, just ask me questions.
Favourite Music
Cady Groves Lifehouse The Script P.O.D Red Jumpsuit Apparatus One Republic Bring Me The Horizon Joe Brooks Imagine Dragons Owl City Falling In Reverse Abandon All Ships Bless The Fall
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95Q24pHiBmA All Time Low Awolnation Breathe Carolina Blood On The Dance Floor Aerosmith Panic At The Disco Avril Lavigne Skrillex Pendulum Vampires Everywhere Simple Plan Escape The Fate Asking Alexandria Bullet For My Valentine Abandon All Ships Call Atlantis The Nearly Dead Teen Hearts Alesana The Mest The Veronicas Missy Higgins Sara and Tegan Meg and Dia Get Scared The Used Silverstein Story Of The Year Austin Morris LIGHTS A Day To Remember Paramore Blacklisted Me Marilyn Manson Sleeping With Sirens Never Shout Never Our Last Fate November Blessing Jeffree Star JJ Demon Brokencyde Modern Day Escape Plain White T's Never Shout Never tATu Slipknot We Should Whisper HeyHiHello Courage My Love Journey Snow Patrol Owl City
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Invader Zim 1000 ways to die Family Guy American Dad Robot Chicken Big Bang Theory A little of Bleach and Love Hina (anime) (I mostly watch scary movies or Tim Burton films) The Corpses Bride Alice In Wonderland Dark Shadows Frankenweenie Edward Scissorhands James and The Giant Peach Beetle Juice A Nightmare Before Christmas ________________________ Spit On Your Grave Forget Me Not House Of Demons Scream Series Insidious The Woman In Black The Grudge -,- (not watching again unless I want to cry) Halloween Friday The 13 Jeniffer's Body Nightmare On Elms Street Zombieland Scream Of The Banshee Rose Red
Cupcake Queen The Hobbit You Can't Scare Me Salem Witch Trials Castings Yellow Fever
Education / Occupation
Who I'd Like To Meet
I'm fine, people will only label me, when I first meet them and I'm done with being judged for the last time.
Rocketship Nation- this is a suicide:
This suicide could get to me, but I will never ever see, this suicide could be the end of me, but I will never ever bleed, NEVER EVER BLEED!
This is a suicide, this war, it never dies, I just wanted to be something, you take all my pain, try to make your pride regain, then come to me, when you're the blame, I never won a war, lost in a coma of blood and gore, we can never stay the same, hearts beating like a drum, you take out all my fun, why can't I just be arranged?
Sitting on death bed, lost in a war, losing all faith, 'cause I can't keep comfort, I'm rising up my battles to finally win, but I can't keep going, when I'm lost within, everyone is screaming and I'm just now believing, but I will never make it through deceiving, and we're losing a battle of oxygen, but I will keep fighting until the end.
This is a suicide, this is a suicide, this war, IT NEVER DIES!
Shot to, my head, these wars are so unread, you took my pride, watched me bleed as I died, you screamed, at me, this war is always incomplete, this war is always incomplete.
This is a suicide, this war, it never dies, I just wanted to be something, you take all my pain, try to make your pride regain, then come to me, when you're the blame, I never won a war, lost in a coma of blood and gore, we can never stay the same, hearts beating like a drum, you take out all my fun, you take out all my fun, why can't I just be arranged?
I feel like everything's gone, who am I, where am I, have I damn lost my mind? I don't feel like myself anymore, I feel like everything's dying around me and it hurts. The fear is written all over my face as everyone walks around me. All I see in the mirror is a mess up or someone dying to get out. It's been months, since I've cut and all I can say is, I wanna feel what I'm trying to feel. :/
I just don't know what life is anymore.If it is all just lies,then what's the point in truthful moments.I have watched words be thrown in my face to hurt me all my life and to this day now I do believe the lies for hiding truth. <\3
Rocketship Nations-Apart of me
You left me dying,crying,curled up,torn,worn,defeated with your words.
And I don't wanna hear them,I barely wanna see you,because anything you'd say would always hurt me.
I wonder if you'd see,a better side me,I wonder if you'd stay,but it was me who had to go away,and I'm tired of having to fight with you,about everything,everything we had to go through,because it was more of my fault than you.
I should've known better,I should've walked away,I should've never said anything,but you are still apart of me.
And I hate it,but also love it,and everything I do reminds me of how much I screwed up with you.
I wish I could leave it,but I don't wanna watch it fade,and I hate memories,because they hate me today.
I wish I could hold you tight,and say how sorry I am,I guess I wasted about 10 months of my life,but never will I forget them,and I will never let you go,because somewhere in me I still I have some hope.
I should've known better,I should've walked away,I should've never said anything,but you are still apart of me.
And I hate it,but also love it,and everything I do reminds me of how much I screwed up with you.
(You're still apart of me)x3
They say that everyone wants and needs love,but really I'm just that girl who wants and needs to find herself,because she's lost.She wants to know if she's repeating things to get hurt,wondering where she is in this world,looking for some hope, wondering what she is, and who she is.I just wanna be like her,but she is me and the person I am doesn't agree most of the time.v,v
Breathe me in,breathe in the innocent.
Release the fear,release everything that tears you down.
Don't let them get to you,don't let them make you hit the ground.
You'll rise back up and say enough,but don't let them get you down.
You were born to fight,never leave this army's side.
You were meant to love,so don't ever give up.
So stay,raise a fist tonight, if you believe you deserve all your rights.
Haters talking,talking shit,saying what they want,when they can't believe in it.
So don't let them pull you down,because I'm right here to pull you up.
Just say enough.
Let them,let them be,for all the ones who wanted to be set free,just let them,let them see,let them see what they wanted to believe.
(Oh)
They have no rights,to make you cry,make you feel like this world isn't right.
Just stand up,raise a fist,for all the haters who don't believe in it.
(Oh)
If they can't see the truth,don't let them suck out all your youth,because I do believe for all the ones who wanted to be set free.(Set free)
Believe in,all your dreams,because darling this world won't make you bleed.
You have some,have some hope,and if you ever wanted that the most,than I'm right here to pull you up,just don't let them get enough.
If they make you cry,I'm right here by your side,
if they steal your hope,I'm the one you would need the most,
if they pull you down,I'm here to pull you right back up,
Just say enough.
Haters talking,talking shit,saying what they want,when they can't believe in it.
So don't let them pull you down,because I'm right here to pull you up.(Pull you up) (woah) (woah)
Okay I'm confused about everything now!People say to follow your heart,but if following your heart to be with someone you care for,just to make a friend sad or angry at you and then your sister,then what am I to do? I can't help I have a crush on someone,but then feeling like moving on is better to be let down again.It's just so confusing and all I think is that I can't find love.I'm either let down,cheated on,lied to,used,or abused.I can't even deal with distance relationships much anymore and the one time I find someone like me that lives by it's just ruined.So I give up,because witches can't find love.
The things I remember as inspiration from people:
"life is a work of art","do as you believe","if it didn't come the second time, wait a little longer","your shadow follows you at times,but your heart will always be there","if you give up,you give up on me","keep the faith right in your heart","if you come out of the closet,just know the sun fucking burns,so you might wanna wear sun block","falling is like dying,so I don't wanna fall in love","look in the mirror","beauty doesn't count unless you make it",and etc.
Rocketship Nation-Battles
I fought these battles on my own, and I always fought them when I was alone and people always said that I wasn't okay,but I turned to be a girl with a lot of empathy and suddenly things had to change.
I grew up in a hell of a world,and I all I wanted was to be heard for every word, yet no one had the time to give me a chance,yeah no one had the time to cause real romance and it left me cold,cold inside,where everyday I had to hide.
One day I took my words and I took them far to the world and I wrote them down in a song,because I left this world for not being where I belonged,and not feeling like I was at home.
Many people said the battles were too rough and everyday I took them out on myself,I fought them all,I even had to crawl.
Out of the chambers and into the sand,who do you think I am?
Am I that girl,with a messed up world.
I cried so hard to a day when I knew it wasn't okay, I took it all, I teared down each wall as the pain arrived in,I started to create more sins.
Damn I was dumb,who knew of the I would've become.I fought these battles with my might, and at the end of each day I'd always cry at night,telling myself goodbye.
One day I hit it way too far and I lost the end of this war.I lost it all.I even lost where I use to stand tall.
Theses battles they take me,they win in defeat and I'll never be the same when I'm not here again.Yes these things hurt me,but I'll never let go to the people I've known.
Rocketship Nation-I won't back down
I'm laying on the ground,I'm looking all around,but no I won't back down , I got words in my head saying I'm not dead,but they are things I've said.
I'll raise a fight,I'll fight you,looking for something,something true,but no I won't back down, oh no I'll come around.
I'll get back up,I'll say enough, I'll put you in your grave,I'll hold you down to the ground,but baby oh,I won't back down.
You probably think it's funny honey,but I don't play,you'll probably hurt me,but it's just a game, and oh, I won't back down, oh no I'll make it out, I'll make crying seem like it's my pride,because I didn't die,I'll hurt you in the best way for every lie.
Oh no I won't back down,oh I'll make it out.
