Fucken hell he must think im pathetic...he asked me y I go all the time...I must come across as a pathetic stupid cunty idiot who isnt worth his time...I dont want to tell him the real reason y tho cuz its my baggage. ..so I will write it here to vent. I have a big problem with panic attacks and anxiety attacks. ..every time I say sorry I will go ttyl or I will go ttyl ♥ or something like that that means im about to have one...tjey fucken suck....I never want him to see or even hear that side of me. ..I dont want anyone ever to see me in that state. ..I can deal with them. I have for a long time. I def dont want to tell mental health cuz that would b another pill I had to pop and less freedom e.e.........oh and sometimes I forget to breathe to the point my heart has to beat real hard once so I feel it to remind me to breathe again
Im sorry I hurt u. Im sorry I pushed u away. But its for the best. I love u....I wish u the best in life. I wish u happiness, I wish u love. I wosh u a beautiful family and a fullfilling exciting life...
Everyone should go kill themselves. I hope u all fucking die a Slow horrible painful death. I want to see all the light leave ur eyes. I want to see ur death.
Uve made an absolut mess of me aye...u make me feel happy then depressed. I feel a natural high when we talk then I feel like im sinking in a pool of liquid tar....no one has ever made me feel this way....and the thing that hurts the most is that ik u will never b mine...so I hope u find someone who will love u and cherish u and make u happy...