When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall Your Guardian Angel, by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Cinder
21 / Female / Minnesota, United States
Pansexual / Single
Member since:
Jan 31, 2016
Last online:
Feb 07, 2024
Current rating: 10.0/10 (1 votes cast)
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About Me
Ummm... I'm a human, how the f am I supposed to describe myself in basic categories to a stranger?! Well, to start with, I like animals, anime, manga, music, drawing, I don't hang out with many people, I've been told I'm pretty smart, I identify as gender fluid, and if you want to know more about me, feel free to ask, no guarantees on an answer. I'm also pretty shy but once you break me out of my shell and earn my trust I promise it will be worth your time to have done so. If we can hold a conversation on here I will gladly give you my discord or snap
Favourite Music
Our Common Collapse, Trivium, Slipknot, Black Veil Brides, Fit for Rivals, Motionless in White, Everclear, AC-DC, As It Is, and a lot more. I will listen to almost anything outside of country music.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
V for Vendetta, The Matrix, Men in Black, D-gray man, Star Wars, anime, Supernatural, and a ton others
Education / Occupation
I hope to go back to college next fall
Who I'd Like To Meet
Fun people who understand sarcasm, can take a bit of crap, and will stick around for a while
"You are just exaggerating it"
Depression is having no motivation for anything and not caring any more.
Anxiety is caring too much about everything.
Self harm is a way to control the pain yourself rather than have others hurt you.
Anorexia is everything being too many calories and not eating for days at a time to try and be worth something.
Panic attacks are minutes that feel like hours where everything is trying to attack you and there is nothing you can do to stop it.
All of them are debilitating on their own and in their own ways,
None of them are better or worse than the others,
All of them eat people alive everyday,
And having them all at once is just hell on earth times 10.
~A.O.
I tried so hard to live without them so I wouldn't hurt them more but all I did was hurt them more and let go of the only person who kept me stable most days. All because I don't know how to show I love someone, even though all I ever felt for them was love. I fucked up and don't deserve anyone in my life right now, let alone someone as great as them, no matter how badly I have needed them for the last few months but I really cannot complain about it because as per usual, I was the one that fucked up.
I am falling too fast to be able to stop myself but I already pushed everyone away so they wouldn't know and now I am just hoping that one of they will come back to at least slow down my fall or try and catch me at the bottom.
