Now I will tell u what I have done for u fifty thousand tears I've cried screaming, deceiving and bleeding for and u for an u still won't hear me (going under) going under, by Evanescence
Katiya LeopardBitxxx
29 / Female / SPB *_*, Russia
Bisexual / Single & Looking
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Mar 27, 2012
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About Me
I already hid a love because I was afraid to lose it… I already lost a love because I was scared and hid it…♥
I already held someone’s hands for fear… I already had so much fear that I couldn’t even fall my hands…♥
I already expelled people that I loved from my life… I already bitterly regretted that…♥
I already spent night crying till I fell asleep… I already fell asleep so happy that I couldn’t even close my eyes…♥
I already believed in perfect love… I already found out they’re rare but you could be one of them…♥
I already loved people that disappointed me… I already disappointed people that loved me…♥
I already spent hours in front of a mirror trying to find out who I really am… I already had so sure of myself that I wanted to disappear…♥
I already lied and regretted it… I also told the truth and also regretted…♥
I already pretended to not give a damn about people I loved… Latter I cried alone in my corner…♥
I already smiled by crying tears of joy… I already cried of so many laughs…♥
I already believed in people who didn’t worth it… I already stop believing in the ones who really did…♥
I already had hysterical laugh attacks when I couldn’t…. I already broke things with rage…♥
I already missed someone really much but never had courage to tell…♥
I already screamed when I should have talk… I already shut up when I shall have screamed…♥
Many times I didn’t tell what I felt/thought to please some…Other times I told what I didn’t think to hurt others…♥
I already pretended to be who I’m not to please some… I already pretended to be who I’m not to bother others…♥
I already told jokes and more jokes without any fun just to see a friend happy…♥
I already made up stories with happy end in my head just to give hopes to myself…♥
I already dreamt too much… So much that I confused it with reality…♥
I already was scared of the dark… But now it’s in the dark where I find myself…♥
I already fell many times thinking I’d never get up… I already got up thinking I wouldn’t ever fall again…♥
I already called to who I didn’t want to not to call to who I really wanted…♥
I already ran after a car because inside there was someone I loved…♥
I already called for you in the middle of a night running away from a nightmare, but you didn’t appear and my nightmare just got bigger…♥
I already called close people “Friend” and discovered they weren’t…However, I know that there are people that I don’t even need to call and that will always be SPECIAL, by my side…♥
Don’t give me right formulas, I don’t wanna be always right!♥
Don’t show me what to do; I’ll always follow my heart!♥
Don’t try to make me be what I’m not because I’m different…♥
I don’t know how to not to love completely, I can’t live by lies, I don’t know how to fly with my feet on the ground…♥
I’m always myself but I surely won’t be the same forever… People like you change me…♥
I like the slowest poisons, the bitterest drink, the most powerful drugs, the most insane ideas, the most complex thoughts, the strongest feelings…♥
I have huge appetites and the craziest deliriums…♥
♥ “You can even pull me from an abyss and I’m gonna shout:
-SO WHAT? I LOVE TO FLY <3”♥
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I have no education, some say, but I'm breath philisophy since i was in my craddle :D