I've been used by guys, I've been hurt by girls
I've been hit by my mom, and cursed by the world
So I keep losing weight, just trying to be perfect
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that I'm worth it Dear Diary, by MichealWJ
Nariko
29 / Female / Orlando, United States
Straight / Engaged
Member since:
Aug 11, 2013
Last online:
May 14, 2026
Current rating: 10.0/10 (1 votes cast)
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About Me
~2026~
So, you've made it to my page. Perhaps you're wondering if it was all just a phase. It was for me, but it was a fun phase of my life. As a former emo from the golden age of scene/emo/alt, I'm glad to say that life did get easier. Being in my teens and early 20s was a lot of self-discovery, but I'm proud of who I have become.
Favourite Music
Favourite Films / TV / Books
~2026~
Still loving anime. Its weird to seen it have gone mainstream.
~2014~
Kuroshitsuji
Kuroshitsuji 2
K
Sword Art Online
Kekkaishi
Inuyasha
Inuyasha: The Final Act
Vampire Knight
Vampire Knight Guilty
Psychic Detective Yakumo
Dusk Maiden of Amnesia
xxXHolic
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle
Occult Academy
Yu-Gi-Oh!
and much more...
Education / Occupation
Chef
Who I'd Like To Meet
~2026~
RIP Joey Jordison. I got to meet a lot of bands, Whitechapel included. Life is good, and I'm satisfied.
~2014~
Joey Jordison...
And also Whitechapel.... And Upon A Burning Body....
All of us in my age group are grown up, perhaps with kids. Some are married, some aren't. We reminisce on our old music, but most of us "elder emos" have simply moved on, allowing our lives to expand away from fake cringing at those who would dare to step away and explore who we were (lol). I think a lot of were just trying to find a place to fit into without being shoved into anyone else's boxes. Anyways, I hope those of you who are hurting have healed. I hope those who used to cut have fully gotten those tattoos to cover them up that you wanted, and that your lives are better.
To the younger generation:
Life gets better. It may be confusing for a long while, but hang in there. Life is beautiful, and so worth living. You've got this.
im w/ an amazing guy who actually loves me 4 me, and trusts me completely. however, it seems that once i check my fb, i see something that tears me apart. it shouldnt tear me apart. i dont want it to. i just want 2 erase that past from my life and pretend it never happened. i wanna pretend i never loved my ex, that i was never close to him. yet, when i see that he's in another relationship, somehow it hurts. i should be happy for him. i should be wishing them luck. what is wrong with me? when will it all change? i have now deleted him from my fb, along w/ all the photos, but he will never be deleted from my past. i just wish he could be deleted from my past in the click of a button.
anyways, enough of the bad things. i will do my best to move on, and Skiye, if u r reading this, please know that i just need ur support n love at this time, and that i love u very much. i have a broken heart, and Skiye, ur the only one who can fix it.
im a complicated person, i wish that i wasnt. my phobias are outnumbering my strengths. i have scars on my wrists, n recent cuts on my legs. ive overdosed many times, hoping i would die, but not have nvr come even close to dying. i have more imperfections than i should. i get depressed a lot, even when something wonderful happens. i have low self esteem. i have tried 2 hang myself 3 times, but failed. i seem like im self conceited, but rlly, the only reason i take pictures is to tell myself how ugly i am, n how much the camera lies. n as i sit hur right now, i am using as much willpower as i can not 2 go in the bathroom n cut more. i have the best bf in the world, but it feels like im lonely a lot. i guess im just gonna always have that feeling of emptiness inside.
bands that i listen 2
Blessthefall
Escape the Fate
Falling In Reverse
In This Moment
Bring Me the Horizon
Avenged Sevenfold
Bullet For My Valentine
Halestorm
Eyes Set To Kill
Kittie
Suicide
Suicide Silence
Five Finger Death Punch
Slipknot
Stone Sour
Panic At the Disco
Metallica
Amon Amarth
Dethklok
Black Veil Brides
Pierce the Veil
Asking Alexandria
Staind
Trapt
Sixx AM
The Haunted
Snow White’s Poison Bite
New Year’s Day
10 Years
Three Days Grace
Apocalyptica
Evanesence
Paramore
Parkway Drive
Papa Roach
Killswitch Engage
Hollywood Undead
Saving Abel
My Darkest Days
Nine Inch Nails
Otep
Disturbed
System Of A Down
30 Seconds To Mars
Godsmack
Sick Puppies
Sevendust
I Killed the Prom Queen
Green Day
Shinedown
Volbeat
3 Doors Down
All-American Rejects
Sleeping With Sirens
Lacuna Coil
Taking Back Sunday
Dark Tranquility
From First To Last
The Black Dahlia Murder
Miss May I
Drowning Pool
As I Lay Dying
"deadly lullaby" (a poem by me)
my gentle whisper of a kiss
is nothing more than the illusion
in which i bring with my deadly lullaby
do you dare search?
do you dare seek?
i may be the death of you...
my beautiful lullaby-
deadly it is;
hypnotizing it sounds
close your eyes now.....
sleep for a peaceful eternity
shhhhhhh......
Written on 5/29/13
"I'm Sorry" by Nariko Kawakami
Do you know what everyone said?
Do you care that your cocky a** sets people off?
Did you smile at the times that I'd hide?
Or did you laugh at the times that I wouldn't shut up?
Oh, nobody likes to-
But I
Really would like to cry;
Oh I'm so sorry, baby,
For wastin' my time.
And I know that I shouldn't try
And I wish that I could laugh it all of
When I said that you were my life,
I wasn't lying-
But I knew that you wouldn't approve of it at all.
Oh, nobody likes to-
But I
Really would like to cry;
Oh I'm so sorry, baby,
For wastin' my time.
Written on: 5/6/2011 by me
Kill Me
Kill this pain
And stab it dead
Stop this heart
That's always bled
F**k the world
Death calls my name
Hate my life
And play this game
Kill this life-
What's left of it
Stop this life
That's full of s**t
Somebody kill me
So I may die
Because my life
Feels like a lie.
(2008)
"Pain" (a poem by me)
Numb the pain
Numb it gone
Numb it 'til
I feel so wrong
Sleep through pain
Sleep 'til death
Sleep 'til I
Feel your breath
Stab the pain
Stab it dead
Stab it 'til
My blood goes red.
(8/22/2009)
"Never Again" (a poem by me)
I think I'll die
From the secret I've kept
Locked up inside
It's hard to forget
The longing for
His tender care
But the love that he showed
Was never truly there
I'm all torn up
My dead soul is screaming
Frozen blood
My tears are streaming
Dead soul drifting
Through the door
Never again
Shall I be real once more.
The Chosen (a poem by me)
Looking through your glassy gaze,
What do you see?
What do you feel?
A dream of which
Her terror scars-
Death strikes
With her fleeting might
Veiled in sin,
And clothed with blood,
Death speaks-
Pointing at you
With her skeletal finger-
She rasps the words
Of ancient sorcery.
The pure-white aura
Seeps through your lips
And then Death finishes
Her ancient works.
Shuddering violently,
Screaming in terror-
You go through the torture
That Death has cursed.
With a final jolt,
And a scream so piercing-
You lay there,
Looking through your glassy gaze.
What do you see?
What do you feel?
Your blood has frozen
And your heart has stopped;
But with a sudden movement,
You stand.
Death has cursed you
With her effortless words
Her kiss does pass,
But her curse bends fate.
For you, once unconscious
Are now cursed of the ancient-
A dead immortal;
YOU ARE THE CHOSEN.
