Emo Scene Community

Alright, I've come here enough time to know all of you now, become a mod, etc...I love you guys, but I can't stand it (Specially from certain people) to see them harming themself... I'm gonna come out and say it, everytime I see it, it makes me sad, it makes me reminisce. I also made mistakes during my youth, I thought I knew what I wanted and what the World had in store for me. Boy when I was 16 and found out I was wrong, it sucked. Everything went downhill so fast, I started smoking, cutting, eventually it became a routine, heh. Long story short, when I was 16 my girlfriend at the time (1 year 8 months, pretty long for 16 year old) cheats on me with my best friend, my moms dying in the hospital, and this scumbag I was basically forced to live with puts me on the street "I don't care about my mom enough". I think the first time I was under a slide at a park, thats where I slept that night for the next 14 nights (not the best part of town if anyone knows detroit...) I'm not sure what happened during that time I spent under that slide, but it made me second guess life as in general. Life to me is a test, of will power, too see how much you can take before you break, a breeding ground of failures and mistakes waiting to pounce on your arrival, instantly spreading the worlds problems onto you from the minute you exit the womb, and theres nothing you can do about it. What other people have to say (negative) doesn't matter a bit to me, to be quite honest, I don't think anyone on this planet has room for critisism, we are ALL guilty of some large crime that we mask ourselves from, and we all know what it is. Do we share it? No. Nobody ever thinks about how bad the poor chap next to me is, or what hes been through, or the troubles hes caused. Every new face is a new wonder, a new experience. Where I live you see them all everyday, rapists, murderers, drug dealings (not talking pot...), gang sings, run down buildings, buildings set to fire, on top of it all- survival. I'd love to shed a tear for all my stress and pain, and all the loss and hatred, but I'm afraid there just isnt enough time for it all, so here I am now. I'm done wasting my energy doing hardly nothing except thinking about what will make me miserable next, instead I go on day to day trying to share my experience and others to help people use their left over energy to fight through the harshness of reality. YOUR AWESOME. If your reading this, you are amazing, you are beautiful. No matter what anyone tells you, everyone has a talent, I'm here trying to bring back the beauty I so long have seeked into this world. So just remember, everytime I see self harming conversations, it saddens me, and only fuels me further to see the end of all the crap in the world. "The sideways man, walks on his hands, can't keep from dragging his feet and, when he trys, I try... They twisted his arm, to get a headstart bigwigs love hitting the jackpot, taking all the cheapshots, the referee was wrong... The desert heat left us all in the dark, they buried the sun so I carried the torch, head over heels with eyes on the prize, I've settled for less and its more than enough...Just say when"