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Don't I just feel fucking loved. Please note the sarcasm. I hated most of this fucking week. Everyday, I've been getting yelled at. I got blocked by someone I know on dA. I literally didn't do anything so now I'm confused about that. and worst off all, I was CRYING on the way school today. When my friends said hi to me this morning, I almost started crying again. But my friend made me feel a lot better. So thank you V******. This blog thing is dedicated for you for helping me not cry and making me feel better and helping me get through school today. I just feel so hated right now. I normally don't care when someone hates me, but when it's from someone I actually care about, that's what hurts me most. I feel so...... helpless. I feel like I'm screaming out of the top of my lungs and no one seems to notice...... It's almost as if I'm not even here anymore. The one person I need right now, I can never have. I have enough to deal with. My own emotional problems, problems with my body, my gender identity problems, my school problems, my personal problems....... and right now I feel like I have no one. I just wanna go......... and fall into a nightmare............. and never wake up from it..... See Dad? See what a fucking mess I am? See what your real daughter is like? See how imperfect I am? Do you finally realize that I am not the person you think I am? Do you finally understand that there is so much stuff I can never tell you because I'm afraid of how you'll think of me? Do finally realize how sorry I am that I'm not the daughter you wanted? Why can't you see that no matter how hard you try, I can never be fixed? Once something is broken, it can never be perfect again. And that thing is me. I bet you're having loads of joy of just how miserable I am now, huh? I bet you're just laughing it up right now, thinking after all this time, I deserve it. And you know what? I probably do. So you got what you wanted. You always do. I'm gonna go and cry on my bed. -Noah