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I really don't want to sound like an attention seeking cunt but I swear to god I can't take one more little thing. Every morning a wake up in immense pain due to having my back broken a year ago and pushing my self too hard at Ice skating and I'm an insomniac and I'm medicated for that but the side effects make me drowsy. But I always keep my head up, I don't complain, I just push my self to the limit to make it through everyday. Pretty shit past too; I was bashed up everyday for five years and every fortnight for seven years my Farther would hit me too. Now, my Farther lives away and I'm trying to trust him again but all I get from him is "Maddy, everything about you is wrong." or "You should be in a mental ward." And my older Sister is someone I thought I could run to, until she got fucked up by attention seeking whores who would run to her. Now she has no sympathy, at all and all she says is. "Maddy, people treated you badly when you were young because you are a bad person." and "You run to me but you won't let me help you." All she does is spit words at me like I'm the scum in her life. My friends have been talking to people about the scars on my arm. I didn't tell them, I didn't trust anyone with it. They found out and now the whole school knows and I want to run away and die. Also, I fell in love with the most amazing guy and he told me he loved me, just to tell me the next day he was fucking some other girl.