Emo Scene Community

In my world of dark skies and red clouds.. Broken hopes and fainted sounds... Years of screaming waiting for rest.. Nothing is enough to finalize the test.. Thought that I had what it takes to live like a human being.. seen every possible thing that's ever worth seeing.. As I fight again with my razor blade.. It's pleading me to cut.. Seeing my blood flow erasing memories of what's real and what's not.. As my breath runs out.. Hours turns into days.. Hopes collapse but pain as always stays.. Voices of lost worlds start whispering to me. Helping me being the person that I had always wanted to be.. They're watching me.. leading me... I can smell their hatred flow. They tell me about secrets I never even dreamed to know.. they can taste my despair in every step they take.. and I appreciate every single move they decide to make.. Suffocating my love.. Chocking my care..putting back my mask and retaining despair.. their screams bring out the darkness of lies from the past.. Lies of hopes and memories that are impossible to last.. "you were never smart enough... You were never good enough.." She broke me and I had always thought that I was tough.. And ill never be no matter how much I struggle and bleed.. Proving that darkness is where I belonged all along indeed.. And in time even they gave up on me.. they couldn't handle my pain nor my hatred's spree.. i deserve this love isn't worth the trust.. I'll just wait here for time to pass and my heart to rust