Jul 16 2026, 07:57 AM

I want nothing more than to live--than to thrive.

Yet here in this house I cannot survive

I sit on this floor, hoping it comes crashing in

Because my patience has only grown thin.

So I wait for the day I can leave

I deal with the wounds

I wish the day to leave could be soon

Jul 16 2026, 07:51 AM

I dont want to die, i just dont want to live like this

Jul 15 2026, 02:13 AM

Jul 14 2026, 08:22 PM

It's no longer poems

Just vomit of the mouth

I so fucking badly

want a way out.

Im afraid that the only way for me to live is to die

Why must this be my life..

How can i "just get by"?

It's not funny, you're not funny

I just want to dissapear

Yet a giggle and laugh is all I want to hear.

Im a sick fuck, im aware.

Leave me, though you care

And I'll sit hre till I figure out where i'll go from there

Jul 14 2026, 08:17 PM

You want so badly to live...that you just want to die

Jun 23 2026, 12:38 PM

It is 5:33 AM. I have just stood up all night. Why, you might ask? Well, I was thinking of them. My sweet, wonderful, cute little “them” :) I barely missed them by 7 minutes, and I guess I just wanted to see if they’d ever come back? They were sleeping though, as I suspected. I’m so glad, they deserve a good night’s sleep

Jun 06 2026, 11:06 PM

Before anything, I want to make it clear that I am not seeking compliments nor sympathy from this journal. I am just..well..journaling! I'm just expressing my thoughts and emotions, Now, onto this shitty rant one will read!

I'm ugly. I'm ugly, and I hate it. I know my partner compliments me, strangers compliment me, my friends compliment me, but it all feels like it's some sort of sympathy mission. I hate this stupid fucking face.I hate this body. I hate this stomach! I hate everything about me and I'm tired of people telling me otherwise. that there genuinely is something. I don't know I just wish I could become dirt or something fucking useful for this planet.

Apr 26 2026, 09:30 PM

Hey!! I have a favo to ask all of ya. Today is my little sister's brthdy, she. just turned 14!! No one texted or called and she's ben crying, one of herbest frends even ignored it and talked about her on bday instead. Her name's Brandee, it's her14th bday, if anyone could messae me wishing her happy birthday it would mean the world to me

Oct 19 2025, 03:28 AM

Sooo, it has come to my attention that a few people on here think I'm an online creep...I think it's cause of how I speak? I'm unsure, but it's been bothering me. I swear, I am not a 56 year old white man with a beer belly and double chin aaaaaaa - I can video call anyone for proof of life if wanted!! The reason I don't have photos of myself openly is just because I've dealt with so many creeps in the past and am being more careful. Okay, byeeee batsss!!

Oct 17 2025, 05:03 AM

DTE Episode 146