Aug 17 2026, 05:12 AM

i sit on the floor, knees digging into the cement.

Tiny rocks are clawing into my skin as if trying to comfort me.

I look to my left of the bed i awaken in.

Here is a gift you handmade me.

i look to the right, here are your letters.

I put on your necklace, your bracelet, your ring.

Even the earrings you got me recently.

I sob as I put on your green checkered flannel.

I scream, and I weep, as I clutch to the handle.

I tty to stand up but my knees are too weak.

For now all i have are these rocks, digging in me.

Aug 03 2026, 03:52 AM

To my love: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART I ISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. I'm going to go to bed early, i dont really feel hungry or anything..I dont even want to clean but I have to, and then I'll take my meds and sleep until hopefully 2 or somthing. I loe you, I fucing love you and you're stuck with me as long as I live <<3333333333333 I love you so fucking much. Please don't cry, im thinkin of you each second. I love you so so so so so fuckin much my love, I love you <<333333333333333

Aug 03 2026, 03:18 AM

This is my 3rd time attempting to make this journal so some of my enthusiasm is gone...it kept deleting more than half of it when I posted

Anyways, I made my spike headband out of monster cans for my monster energy warrior cosplay :]] Also, I'm gonna cosplay Female Luffy for FanX!!!! I tried to make the top out of old sweats pants...but my sewing machin was bugging so I couldn't and the scraps look terrible and idk what to do.. :[[

Oh and a got pieces of the monster in my eye....i got some of it out!!!! the oher half went behind my eye....i'm kinda fucked. It's fiiinneee.....i'm sure nothing cutting up rnnnn..

To the one I love, well, IIII LOOVVEEE YOOOUUUUUUU I FUCKING LOVEE YOOOUUU

I'm entering another deppressive state again, I think. Idk, i'm seeing all the signs. I'm trying not to do anythin stupid. I love you and I miss you like hell. I wish I could just hesr your voice...or lay in your lap. I want to hug you as you play with my hair and we fall asleep.

I miss you so fuckng much and i'm tryng not to cry. I love you so so so fuckung much my husband

Godnight, sleep well and sweet dreams <<333333333 

What I ate today:

7 Tortilla Chips

Half a roast beef sandwhich

Jul 29 2026, 05:48 AM

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Jul 24 2026, 07:29 PM

Idea of march-silverstein

Jul 23 2026, 05:48 AM

9.

Mom let me out today.

I love the feel of the wind through my hair.

There's a tall tree.

I climb.

I go higher and higher

I see the city.

It's beautiful.

I want to stay here forever.

Dont let me go back.

I stand on a flimsy branch, i must be at least 10 feet high.

I climb some more.

It gets flimsier and flimsier.

The fall wouldn't be so bad.

At least i wouldn't have to go back inside.

Jul 23 2026, 03:58 AM

celine dione singing in fluent japanese

Jul 22 2026, 07:12 PM

10.

A shock collar was given to her once.

A hand-me-down from a coked-up friend.

It was for the dogs that we fostered..originally

Or that's the purpose of its creation.

I think it's sick.

I fought for the animals. We're all even souls.

Now I have this thing around my neck.

I can't speak or i'll feel a zap. Getting stronger each time I plead to be let go.

I still stand by my beliefs.

Buzz. Zap. Sting. It burns like hell.

It is wrong to do this to anyone. No matter the species.

So I lay here with a collar choking me around my neck.

I stand as I preach that violence must end.

Stay strong, girl.

For now..you're just their little puppy.

Jul 22 2026, 06:58 PM

9.

I awaken from the floor.

My wrists still locked between an old, broken coffee table.

It used to be a circle of glass

But now the shards are all over me

I beg to be let out.

Please..please mom...please let me out

Beer bottles surrounding me, the smell of weed and burning chemicals.

There is nothing but trash, piled up sky high.

Perhaps this is where I belong.

Jul 20 2026, 12:22 AM

IT'S MY SOEMO 1ST ANNIVERSARYYY. Or.. it WAS..I'm a liitttleeee late. Happy anniversary to my love for this site and for years to come!! Shoutout to emoracer!!!