when you cycled by, here began all my dreams, the saddest thing ive ever seen, and you never knew how much i really liked you, because i never even told you, oh and i ment too. Are you still there? or have you moved away? back to the old house, by The Smiths
Levanesh
26 / Female / West Hollywood, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
Oct 06, 2013
Last online:
Dec 23, 2017
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About Me
Im just a simple girl whos hoping that someday i'll be loved by everyone.Im nice if you're nice.I wanna have lots of friends. Im too sensitive so handle me with care.Im aLso looking for someone who would fix my broken heart but is there really one? well,I hate fake people who are trying hard to be cool though they are not comfortable with it.im kind of girl who always go for the truth..I was broken and im trying to fix every pieces of my heart,would you like to help me? Most of all,I hate cheaters and cheaters should die ! I also hate liars(liars go to hell!) , judge mental(they dont know me!so dont judge me) noisy place (everybody pls. shut up !) party(sometimes)( im not belong there),bullying (fuck !) what I love the most are: writing poems and most of my poems are based on my real experiences,listening to musics,lock myself in my room wherein I can find my right place in the world,playing PSP games ,watching movies all alone,reading books ,crying all night,eating sweets and baking.. additional info about myself: Everytime I celebrate my birthday,I always wear black T-shirt and black fit pants. I had done self - harm twice (the first one is in my arm and the other one is on my leg) I love the color combination of black and red,black and violet,black and pink.They were all awesome.. I dont have piercing nor tattoos and I still dont have plan to have those stuff.. im taken by angel but then he left and abandoned me. I hate lovers making forever love promises but I dont blame them.. im moody so try to understand me,. im loving ,caring,genuine ,sweet and kind person as long as you're doing the same way on me ^____^ Im addicted watching anime :) .. im kinda little weird and loner thats why I prefer quiet place.. I love walking in the rain with my teddy.. ^________________^ btw, just add me on facebook and skype..also leave email on me ;) Skype:Kim ha jin fb: Levanalesh Stitched Angel ym:lesherysemira@yahoo.com :)
Favourite Music
Bands that I truly admire because of their Great Songs That truly shoot me straight to the heart:
* my chemical romance
*black veil brides
*escape the fate
*paramore
*bullet for my valentine
*fall out boy
*Hawthorne heights
*evanescence *falling in reverse *Silverstein *secondhand serenade *jimmy eat world
*alesana
*blood on the dance floor
*the used
*Tokio hotel
*dashboard confessial
*pierce the veil
*bring me the horizon
haters gonna hate !
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Favorite Films and TV:
* Spongebob
*death note
*naruto
* phineas and ferb
*insidious
*twilight
*reality bites
*narnia
*hunger game
*the virgin suicide
*titanic
*scars
*bleach
*shark boy and lava girl
*black butler
* yamato nadeshiko
*fushigiyuugi
*Le Portrait de Petite Cossette
*fairy tale
*one piece
*angel sanctuary
*world war z
*wrong turn
*saw
My favorite Books are:
*hunger games
*twilight
*ask the dust
*my beautiful scars
*godchild
*fairy cube
*the whimp kids diary
*one liter of tears
*pretty little liars
*vampire diaries
*mangas
Education / Occupation
.....10th Grade Student in Highschool......
Who I'd Like To Meet
I'd like to meet the other emo out there and of course someone who could handle me and could easily deal with me...maybe its you...I wanna meet my heart fixer as soon as possible 'cos I cant take the pain anymore..
Dear journal,
thIs is sUch a gReaT daY foR me..nOw ,i cAn cOmplEtelY say that it's really wonderful to be loved by someone.i hope this feeling wont end anymore and just stay like this forever..
.... soMetimEs we Have tO gO ON ThinG wHeRe wE caN bE hapPy,.tHouGh maNy are ContrasTiNg us,We sTilL haVe To gO on ,.tHey mAy caLl uS sElfIsh bUt wHat thEy doNt kNow is we are jUsT liviNg in A waY we waNt ouR liFe tO bE..LiFe iS ToO sHOrt..wE haVe tHe sAmE oBjeCtivEs In lIfe and it's tO bE hAppY bUt tHe oNly ThIng ThaT dIFfeR iS tHe Way HoW wE cAn aChIEvE oUr oBjecTiVEs.. pEopLe Can and wiLl juDge uS unTil thEy wAnt TO .. wE caNt plEase them .. and now aFTer 15 yrS. oF hiDinG mY fEelIngS , i nOw reAlize tHat iF i'll stAy liKe tHis and stAy as bEinG a CowArd gIrl lIfe WIll bE uSelEss .. fRom nOw oN i'll shOw thEm wHo ReallY i Am anD nEveR bE aFraid To sHoW thEm wHo I rEallY waNna bE....
;) # gOinG fOrWard !
DEAR FUCKIN JOURNAL,,
>....<
it became really creepy that the idea of being with somebody is freaking the hell out of me!!
somebody told me that i have serious commitment issues and i guess he is kinda right..
i just dunno how to share my life with somebody anymore, i think i wont be comfortable or something, or maybe i just still didn’t find somebody who am willing to give up a part of my life for..
i have no idea, but i thought for sometime that am a person who dont like to be alone but i guess am not like that anymore..
i cant decide if it’s a good thing to be okay with being alone or not but it’s just weird..
it’s like i wanna somebody close in my life but not so close.. i can run anytime and have my own space and i don’t need to explain anything bcuz i usually don’t have an explanation except i just wanna be alone
i need to be alone
DEAR FUCKIN JOURNAL,,
>....<
it became really creepy that the idea of being with somebody is freaking the hell out of me!!
somebody told me that i have serious commitment issues and i guess he is kinda right..
i just dunno how to share my life with somebody anymore, i think i wont be comfortable or something, or maybe i just still didn’t find somebody who am willing to give up a part of my life for..
i have no idea, but i thought for sometime that am a person who dont like to be alone but i guess am not like that anymore..
i cant decide if it’s a good thing to be okay with being alone or not but it’s just weird..
it’s like i wanna somebody close in my life but not so close.. i can run anytime and have my own space and i don’t need to explain anything bcuz i usually don’t have an explanation except i just wanna be alone
i need to be alone
Ok, here is it,..
before I get started , I wanna greet my new friends who accepted my friend request..
hi there guys !
anyway, I just wanna share to everybody the poem I wrote a while ago though it's a little bit weird..
^___^
Somewhere Faraway
Somewhere faraway,
A heart dreams of true love,
True happiness maybe,
But came melancholy
Somewhere faraway,
Still there pretending,
Pretending to be,
Loving that somebody
Somewhere faraway,
A heart was hurt badly
Try, forget, be free.
This feeling, tormenting
Somewhere faraway,
A heart there is longing,
Waiting for real love
Believing of someday
Somewhere faraway,
It'll come unexpected,
That heart, be tempted,
Against the odds it is
Somewhere faraway,
Someone will come to heal
That heart of burden
waiting, will wait no more....
... that's it....
..... I hope you like it though it's too simple...
....I wrote this poem while I'm listening to a music and I'm happy that I did it...
^_______^
success !
xXxlevana-stitchxXx
Hopeless Scream
Hate me not ,
judge me not,
I didn't choose to be like this,
I didn't imagine that I could be like this.
I do harm myself
cos i wanna know if I truly exist.
every scars on my heart and wrist
only prove that my love for u is always for real.
I shout and scream up to the top of my lungs.
saying I love you,please don't leave me.
suddenly I remember you won't be able to hear me,
cos your world suddenly change and it isn't mine anymore..
poor hopeless scream ..
when will you be able to hear my poor hopeless scream? :(
hmm...wishing to be fine.. :\
... hmmm... feeling alone again :( ..I wonder where happiness is and I wonder what happiness is.I dont even know what fuckin' love is! >…< I should be enjoying my teenage life but I dont know how ..Oh,I wish I still have enough strength to carry all these problems ! >…<
btw..I have to sleep..my dream world is waiting for me!
