Mess E
26 / Female / Georgia, United States
Forever Alone
Member since:
Oct 04, 2022
Last online:
Dec 10, 2025
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About Me
I’ve pretty much been a loner my whole life. My mother who is the only family member that I know has a bit of a cold personality so I never learned how to socialize properly except for a few friendships that disappeared quickly. This is why I think I fit the mold of what you would call emo even if I don’t always look like it. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about my personal feelings so I thought that I would use this place as a sort of journal that people could interact with so I don’t feel so lonely. I’ll try to make my boring life as entertaining as possible. 🙂
I like to color, paint my nails, play my guitar and write.
I managed to find a summer job to work between now and the time I’m supposed to move to the UK. I know I should probably be doing more but I have been feeling so LAZY lately. I have certifications to study for and reports to write but I haven’t gotten to any of it yet. Also the air conditioner broke yesterday so that doesn’t help. I did do some witchy stuff over the strawberry moon so that’s cool.
I have been getting the hair itch. I don’t know why but I have been feeling the need to do something drastic with my hair. It’s not that I don’t like it I just feel like a change. I don’t know what I’m gonna do yet hopefully my hair doesn’t fall out again. I also want to get another piercing. I was thinking this one.
My last day of being apart of the damn military has happened! Thank the universe, God, whoever! (I’m still on retainer for two years but I don’t have to come in, but what are the odds they actually call me 😭).
I’m applying for schools in the Europe and I’ve been accepted to one in Germany but I really want to go to Britain let’s see what happens. For now I’m just focusing on getting my certifications and getting a summer job.
A week before graduation I got these weird spots on my skin, I also have a cut between my eyes that I got while on duty this week. I hope I don’t look like I’m on drugs or something. I went to the dermatologist and get prescribed skin bleach for my spots 🙃
I went to a Goth Thrift Market today, I was able to go because I had a ceremony earlier this week and I asked if I could make up the time late and they said yes. Yay! I bought way too much stuff including these cute little horns. Just to be clear I don’t really consider myself Goth but damn do they sell some good stuff 🤣
I got this blue eye shadow powder for an event but I didn’t end up using it. I tried it on and I kind of dig it. I know this is cringe but I’m kind of worried about if it’s emo enough like if I wear it on the regular basis, will it clash with my usual style take a look. New makeup look?
Graduation is nipping at my adding a fresh layer of anxiety to everything I do. I just hope I don’t screw anything up to badly in this final stretch.
I asking to change my hours at work for the first time in 7 years the other day. They agreed, they know I’m about to leave. 🤣
Of course my skin is breaking out cause I’m stressed. I haven’t told many people about this yet but I’m applying for grad school in the UK and I hope I get in.
My mom made me get a new dress for the awards ceremony because she didn’t like mine 🤣 here’s what it looks like.
It still needs to be fitted but I say it looks pretty cool. I’m still going to wear my edgy jewelry and a accessories with it I don’t care what mom says 🤣 I will be a fairy wearing a bone necklace 😭
Speaking of accessories more of my beads came in I have nearly everything now. I don’t know how much I should say but my first collection will have a ‘Hunter’ theme. Anyway I liked my outfit today take a look.