Mess E
26 / Female / Georgia, United States
Forever Alone
Member since:
Oct 04, 2022
Last online:
Nov 22, 2025
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About Me
I’ve pretty much been a loner my whole life. My mother who is the only family member that I know has a bit of a cold personality so I never learned how to socialize properly except for a few friendships that disappeared quickly. This is why I think I fit the mold of what you would call emo even if I don’t always look like it. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about my personal feelings so I thought that I would use this place as a sort of journal that people could interact with so I don’t feel so lonely. I’ll try to make my boring life as entertaining as possible. 🙂
I like to color, paint my nails, play my guitar and write.
Hey everyone Trump is president… again lol. Anyways I started yesterday feeling really good but I felt so casually disrespected by everyone in my life. Someone who yells at me if I’m even 5 minutes late asked for me to come in early then proceeded to be 40 minutes late. I had to rush to be on time for no reason at all. I smudged my nails because I didn’t have time to dry them with my new nail polish. ( Guess I’ll redo them) It’s been 3 months so I got my hair done today. I tried to take a picture of myself and she (same person) pushed my chair on purpose to mess it up. I don’t know what her problem is.
Next thing that pissed me off was when my mom told me to go to the grocery store for her while I was already leaving. I went back and had to wait in line for a long time to get her stuff then she called me again telling me to get stuff she had ‘forgotten’ so I had to get out of line when I was near the front go get her new stuff and get back in the back of the line she did this two times. I must’ve looked like an idiot getting out of line and coming back in to wait.
The next thing that pissed me off yesterday was that our teacher assigned us a whole new assignment that’s a group project with a group that barely wants to get on a meeting so now I have even more work than I thought I had. Nice. I hate working with my group for context. It’s for boys and I’m the only woman they just wanna goof off and chitchat at the whole meeting. I have to bring us back to the actual topic. They’re constantly deleting my work. It’s so annoying.
Needless to say, I did not have a good day yesterday, but I decided to do something a little fun for myself a few years ago I made a spell book that my mom found and probably put through the paper shredder because she thought it was demonic lately I’ve been getting Into spells and stuff like that again because I think it’s cool and I decided to cast a few spells last night. Maybe I’ll get a nice cute notebook and start a new spell book.
I’ve bleached my hair again please let it not fall out 🤣
My room still looks like a tornado ran through it and I’m not done studying for Security + but last night was super fun. I went to a Kingdom Collapse concert that had a lot of really cool bands. It was my first time getting right up close to the stage and I ended up talking a bit with one of the guitarists (not easy for me because I’m really shy around people I don’t know 😭) it was really cool, he ended up throwing me his pick. I got thrown a towel from one of the other bands called The Rack. The singer was sooooo pretty and she was black like me which is a rare thing to see in this genre so I appreciate it. Here’s the stuff I got.
Also the reason my room is trashed is because I want to start a jewelry business. I don’t know when I’ll launch it but it’ll probably be primarily online. So subscribe to my Pinterest if you are into that.
This wall in my room is looking really cool✨🖤✨ I’m gonna try too see DeadPool and Friend I mean Wolverine 🤣. Has anyone played Sally Face? I been thinking about it a lot lately. This wall is what I have to stare at when I use my treadmill so that’s why it’s so decorated.
I also made this bracelet 🖤
I went to the craft store recently and found a camera charm that actually flashes! Idk I think it’s so cool I’m not sure what I wanna make with it yet.
Most recent henna
Recently I’ve been drinking water with cucumbers, strawberries, and lemon juice. It’s really good. Great alternative to fruit juice.
I also made a good alternative to those ‘Green Machine’ drinks. No added sugar.
Here’s the recipe
I add a bit of water to it for the texture. Thanks for reading 🖤
Hey~ I went to SkyZone and beat some kids up with foam poles it was super fun 🤣
I went to a RedCross meet and the meeting was helpful but kinda boring, but they had the most beautiful cake I had ever seen!!! Here it is.
Even my slice looked amazing 🤩 Guys is this what true love is like? 🤣
Also I bleached my hair again. If it doesn’t fall out I’m gonna try to bleach it again and go for blonde in six months. I hoping to switch to a more punky hair style after I get out of the military in a year… fingers crossed.
My mom took me to a Caribbean festival today which was interesting since I am part Jamaican but sucked cause it was hot out there and I couldn’t seemed to find anything interesting. Not to mention how over priced everything was. I bought drinks for me and my mom, and they came to a total of 26 dollars! They didn’t have there prices listed on a sign or anything so after waiting in line in the sun for so long it would have felt really stupid to just walk away. They were nice drinks but still.
I also tried to wear that dark makeup today I feel like I had mixed results though I really liked my outfit.
So yeah everyone was having a good time but I was kinda grumpy. It didn’t help when I was behind this obnoxious couple that was constantly making out and grabbing each other in line. I tried to ignore it but it’s hard to look away from that sort of thing especially in the heat when I can imagine how sweaty they are 🤮
So after that we went to go see a movie mom wanted to see. Bad Boys, I had absolutely no interest but mom was into it. The thing is though the emergency evacuation alarm went off in the theater while we were watching. This has never happened to me before and I guess it never happened to mom because she just stared into space. I had to yell at her a little bit to get up and walk to the exit. The last thing I want is to get shot or to burned alive in a theater watching a movie I didn’t even wanna go see 🤣. Anyways it turned out to be a false alarm and they started the movie back up. I’m in a pretty bad mood at these point so I ask if we can stop at the gas station for ice cream on the way home. After a while she said yes and my mood completely turned around. lol
I painted a bath chair for people with disabilities I found at the Goodwill (I cleaned it) so I can use it to sit at my art bench (I’ve been sitting on the floor lol) it was medical looking and white now it’s edgy.