Jul 15 2025, 03:57 PM

Well i have a new boyfriend Aldo since this weekend  well since 13 th of july <3 He is half italian and half swedish <3 a bit older than me but i prefer  older men :) <3 He is just like noone i have ever met before he is surely my soulmate ... neither me nor him can explain our connection but he is so alike me with interests and we both dream of in the future to live in a cottage in a forest near alike  <3 and he is a bit of an actor in sweden but mainly some action and horror movie /artsy movies  <3 i am so proud of him and he is the most beautiful man in this whole wide world <3 i am the luckiest woman to have him <3 he makes me feel beautiful and safe and i love just being near him and hug him and kiss him and look into his beautiful face and study everý inch of his beautiful face <3  He is geeky so geeky and he is so damn cute when he is talking about his interests in horror stuff and LP cds and etc. and his smile makes everyday better and his voice soothes me instantly <3 I love him so damn much <3 

To end this journal entry with a song to describe how i feel about him: '

A thousand years by Christina perri <3 

Jul 21 2022, 04:55 PM

Well yesterday was a sad day as my terminally ill 87 year old Paternal Grandma Ulla died late late in the evening from cancer of 2 sorts that finally spread to her lungs i was fortunate to be beside her at the hospital with some family as she passed away <3 But i love you and miss you <3 i will never forget you <3 

Aug 13 2020, 01:27 AM

I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years You still have all of me, me, me

Jul 04 2018, 10:20 AM

Well only 2 days until i will meet the guy i am in love with :D <3 like i am soo excited .. almost crying :3 like we couldnt wait any longer too meet each other again and noone of us gives a fuck about a certain unfortunate person that he has in his life :3 fuck that woman c: anyways i have such butterflies in my stomach and i am all giddy and shit :3 it feels like the first time u fell in love with someone <3 I just wanna scream out how much i love this guy :3 and he has been in love with me for 10 years but well i was stupid too diss him a lot of times before for assholes and bad boys that led me nowhere and i will regret doing that for a long time >.< anyways i have never felt such strong attraction and feelings for someone before and i am like sooo deeply feeling love and such :') <3 I talked to him on the phone again some days ago for like 37 minutes but we have talked on the phone some years ago for like 2-3 hours :3 and i have never been liking talking on the phone with anyone really but he is special and i really loved hearing his voice again and he is soo manly and tall im just like 5'4 ft/160 cm and he is like 6,1 ft / 187 cm xD :3 i will look so cute close too him but he has huge and sexy arms/biceps cobvered with tattoos and he has said that he will like lift me upp to kiss him in some cases c: Well he is already talking about us and what WE will have in the future and i dont know when but he has told me that he will prolly in 1 year or so i think like propose or something c: and im like OMG .. hehe i have always dreamt to be engaged to someone and then later on married and etc :3 because i have always been on the hunt for that special one to settle down with :3 I feel like i am on cloud nine or like little sweet pink clouds walking on such each and every day :D and i have never been this happy before about anyone and we are both born on the same day and same year just hours apart .. apperantly he is born 2:30 am and i was born 4:00 am the 26 th of october 1990 c: <3 like really what r the odds and chances that 2 people born on the same day and same year to find each other? Not that big and its really special <3 To end with these romantic songs :

Jun 25 2018, 09:13 AM

well i dunno but my dating life goes up and down xD well i dunno how many even read my journal on here :P i only write down my thoughts on life and etc on here.. but well that guy from before was just as i thought a fuckboy but im fine now he was prolly just a rebound thing anyways got 2 netflix and chill days out of that and thats well nice :O and then there were 2 guys i was interested in and im kind like having options when it comes too guys lol that may sound cruel to some people.. but in todays world when it comes to love then theres more of a game than not :D well one of the guys i was interested in he was all about sex and wanting to have achild and i was like chill the fuck lol and i dont wanna have kid now lol i wanna travel a bit more before i settle down lmao but anyways found out that he was an ex-criminal and had convictions of burgulary and assault on people sooo yeh that ended my interest in him because i have already been with psychopaths/criminals and that elmost ended my life soo nope.. lol the other guy thou has had a crush on me for about 10 years now but stupid as i was when i was younger then i dissed him for assholes and bad boys lol anyways and the first time when talked on the phone like 4 years ago that was amazing like we talked for hours and hours until late at night and we have only met once so far and then well have always kind of had contact back and forth but the only thing is that he r married at the moment and well he aint happy in that marriage and people i have talked with about that says he will never leave his wife for you but yeah he will because the first thing he did some days ago was to flirt with me without me not starting it :P and well his wife r trying to put him down with asshole stuff and she is a stuck up skinny bitch xD :P anyways since i aint no homewrecker we both has agreed not too do anything sensual and love stuff and meet up in that way until his marriage is ending/ or at least getting separated .. its really hard too wait for a bit when u really care for another person and like that person and knowing he is unhappy.. well i well feel that theres something about this guy we both are born the same year and the same date in october as well and we r a lot alike.. enjoy the finer things in life, cultured, kind of the same taste in music and he a real sweet heart because has told him about the abuse and other horrible stuff i have been through with 2 of my 4 exes and he said that he wants nothing more than be making me feel safe again and treat me like the princess i am (well dark princess lol) and he r even trying to impress me by talking about 2 of my favorite interests : horror and crime ( some people may think those interests especially crime r disgusting) anyways back to the story .. he has a lot horror related stuff like freddie kreuger collection stuff and a lot of horror stuff and im like yessssss.. *.* plus he has a lot of tattoes and that with piercings are hella attractive for me wooo well i really want this particular guy and no marriage are gonna stop me from getting him <3 :P anyways to end 2 love songs the decribe how i feel for him:

Jun 17 2018, 10:04 AM

I am so happy :D i have been meeting this wonderful guy that i have been after 2 days this week so far :D <3 a bit on wednesday and him staying over saturday night.. and we will maybe meet up at his place later on today after he has been working.. :D and i dunno i havent had this intense feelings of passion towards another human in a long time... :') I am not sure what we have but i am deeply so deeply interested in him and the chase after him is really worth and it peaks my interest so much <3 and i i thought first that he was maybe a bit shallow and etc.. but he has a really beautiful soul and makes me smile like noone has does for a long time and makes inappropriate jokes but thats the best kind of jokes :D <3 That he is 4 years younger and so damn beautiful isnt making it all worse :D really is good for my self-confidence that he loves me I really do deserve to be happy :D and i do not want for this adrenaline of love and lust to end..

Jun 09 2018, 09:56 AM

Well my depression are going up and down and thats mainly because my anti-depressants doesnt work much at all but will see a specialist doctor in psychology in 11 days and hopefully find myself a new med to be on .. and yeh being on some meds against depression, anxiety, insomnia and my all mental well being isnt that fun >.< well hasnt been having that date with the guy i fancy/have a crush on because of some circumstances but i kind of like this lovegame thing we have going on for some weird reason xD it really turns me on in some way :D and i usually get what i want when it comes and i really badly want this particular guy <3 i dunno its really all about him : his looks, that he is a few years younger than me, has had a hard life like me in the past and etc Its really nice to be in love/having a crush on someone after ending my boring and not that great past relationship with my latest ex boyfriend.. he was nice and that but boring wouldnt open up in so many ways and had huge debts and took advantage of my generosity when it came too money so r still happy that i broke up with him although we r friends still and thats nice :) well to end with this song:

Jul 20 2017, 05:33 AM

Well i just wanted to went that i am really tired and pissed of an member on here.. and i will tell his nickname on here.. RY .. I havent done anything to this young man and he just keeps on going on at me.. like calling me childish and yeh i am a bit of that yeh.. but still talking about wanting to kill me on the forums and i know that shit aint real but i dont feel comfortable with people thinking that of me and wanting to do that.. that is truly creepy.. I am always a nice person but i have my limits and my limits with this dude is soon reached... and i dont feel like i like to have him still on this site xD i am very self-absorbed now but he should learn how he talk to people and he has said that he is younger than then age u should be soo that should be looked up by the authority on here :P anyways i love all of u other people on here xxxxx <3 this song will say it all with my mood at the moment >:P

Jul 05 2017, 11:13 AM

hiya all :D just wanted to share this awesome song by katy perry feat. skip marley : :D <3 anyways i hope all of u will have a veryyyy happy day and week <3 and do not forget to socialize and not be on the laptop, smartphones and tablets and such just enjoy the life to the fullest :D lots of love from me <3 :D xxx

Jul 02 2017, 03:44 PM

Hiya all lovelies <3 I have a new boyfriend this all went as i have hoped and i finally got My dream man Fredrik <3 he is everything i want in a man: handsome, cute, kind, generous , sexy, faithful and so on :3 i can really see myself living the rest of My life with him <3 i really deserve love because of the shitty life i have had with the most recent ex being all violent and scary on me :-/ I am so in love and he gave me slippers, roses and a card and etc already :) Thats all :3 Love to all of u <3 xxxxxxxx